I want to find my home

/ Nyx

My whole life I have suffered

When will it end

I am so tired

Of pretending I am ok

I sit here and cry

As another walks away

They come and they go

I throw them out of my life

It is never enough

I need more than they can give

I cannot breathe

As the pain grips my chest

The loneliness a reminder

Of a life lived alone

I just want to find some peace

I want to find my home

Nyx

18 thoughts on “I want to find my home”

  1. for too many years
    I used poetry to dump pain
    signed with angry stamps
    thank God I had an outlet
    never found that silver bullet

    alone not lonely
    grateful for the separations
    I did not choose well
    again and again the same
    my addiction to pain prevailed

    I do not bleed now
    I wasn’t looking when she came
    I can’t believe it
    the world is not void of love
    hearts of stone can come alive

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  4. Where is home. I just wonder. Is home where you sleep. Where you feel safe. I often want to run away but I from what. I am home. Where do I want to run to. I just don’t know. But I still feel I have not found home. Your poem was very thought provoking

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  8. My dear friend,

    I embrace you strongly and send you courage and strength.
    You have my compassion and understanding.
    May God give you peace and shelter in confidence, something to overcome your
    difficult time.
    From heart to heart my friend
    Didi

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