The anxiety smoothers me
I can no longer breathe
Survival is what I need
In order to succeed
The struggle to keep my head above water
It gets harder everyday
If only I could find someway
To assure I will make it
If only I could find someway
To feel safe again
As my breath leaves me
I start to feel the pain
The constant worry
It is always the same
Will I make it
Or will I fail
I know that somehow
I have to do this
I have to prevail
Nyx
I hear the sound of the world outside
As I try to find balance in my life
I have always struggled to get by
I have never stopped asking myself why
I have made the decisions I have so far
Then I reflect and tell myself
This is who you are
With every step forward
And every step back
I try to fill the pieces
That have chipped away
I push myself again today
To find the balance and the strength
That I need to succeed
Nyx
I hear the raindrops
Tick off my armor
As I stand in the valley
Ready for battle
I hold my sword to the sky
As I watch you quiver with fear
I look in your eyes
Before I say good bye
Nyx
When all is lost I look inward
Finding myself again
Nothing has gone as planned
Yet I still stand
With my head high
As the world looks smaller below
I look to the sky
Nyx
Live and learn they say
Why do we have to learn
By being ripped apart
Where does the pain end
When does this learning start
I do not believe these words are true
Each piece that is pulled from me
Is another piece gone
I was always this strong
What I have learned is how not to fear
But this was after being beat down
Year after year
Losing everything
Again and again
Falling further and faster
With no where to land
Being pushed down
Until I could not stand
Having my head pushed under
Until I was swallowing water
This has made me fearless
A monster you see
Do you think I would be someone else
If this did not happen to me
No I would still be me
Nyx
Today I rise with certainty
Knowing my mind is too busy to be held down
This is how I escape my hell
Nyx
The demon I know
Or the unknown
There is no clear path shown
I wander away from the demon
Fighting through the trees
I hope I find blue skies today
As I continue to walk away
Nyx
Once again I am given clarity
When I break through the pain
I am grateful for these moments
These moments I can see
Just how strong I really am
When I look at what is in front of me
I prepare myself once more
There is a tally I have taken
I know the score
I may have been torn down
I may have felt broken
I no longer feel fear
I no longer hold my head down
I always win you see
Every battle that awaits
No matter what it takes
I will win
Nyx
Peace fills me
As I feel the breeze in the air
Listening to the sound of nature
I feel like I am home
This is where my heart is
Outside behind the trees
This is where I can rest
This is where I breathe
No negative words
No negative emotions
This is all I think
This is all I see
This beautiful place that surrounds me
Nyx
I am so hardened
By this life
I walk this world
A wanderer
Letting fate lead the way
Always knowing what to say
I feel my feet grow weary
I feel my jaw burn
I feel myself changing
That is when I turn
Into a lion
So patient and still
This is when peace finds me
This is when I find my will
Nyx
