Darkness has reminded me of the agony
That sadness brings
I will feel euphoria
Until it all comes crashing down
This is when I feel him near me
This is when he brings the pain
He is my reminder of who I used to be
He is my reminder of the torment I have felt
He is my reminder that everyone walked away
But today I fight him because I must
I have to remind myself
That I have always gotten back up
Every time I fell
I have to remind myself
That there is a way out of hell
Nyx
More than I ever have
I have to find the strength
I have to believe
That I can be better
That I can live my life some day
Without the pain I felt before
With every decision I make
With everything that I have left to give
I rise today for you
For those who are as lost as me
I rise again because I must
I have to open the door
So everyone can see
That everyone deserves a chance
To live their lives with happiness
Nyx
Another day is passing
The sun begins to set
Here we go again
I lay out the cards
I place my bet
Darkness says to me
It’s a 50/50 chance
This will be your last dance
Nyx
Deep within my soul
I know there are pieces left
Parts that will one day make me whole
Someday you will see
That there is so much more to me
Then the girl who walked away
There is so much more to me
Than just one story to be told
One day when I walk the earth
There will be others behind me
I will show them the way
I will show them where there is land
A place for all of us
It exists inside my heart
It is the home of the forgotten
The ones who were once lost
The ones that thought they were dammed
All they needed was compassion
I give to all of you my hand
With all my love,
Nyx
She walked the world alone
Fighting through the images
Flashing through her mind
Always with a smile
Always so kind
Underneath it all
She feels herself rotting from within
She is not from this world
She was born in sin
Yet she exists
And she will keep fighting
She will win
Nyx
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
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I keep fighting
Every single day
It will never end
But I will fight anyway
It is all I have ever known
All I will ever know
I walk this world alone
My heart a ball of stone
You can not defeat me
I will build my empire
That will be my home
Nyx
The best poets
Are the most tortured souls
At least that is what I believe
The ones who suffer everyday
Longing for the pain to subside
Hoping that someday they find away
To feel the peace they seek everyday
In the meantime just know
That I hope you find that love you need
That I hope that you will find a way
To smile and laugh and feel no pain
To know that there is more to life
Than this thing that we each
Continue to fight
I just hope that
We realize
That we can find each other
That we all embrace the unknown
Knowing that we are not alone
Nyx
The world it spins
Round and round I go
In a daze
I feel the pain
I will never be the same
I keep changing
As the leather gets thicker around me
It keeps me safe
I know longer long for anything
I know longer long for anyone
I am a warrior
Alone I walk this path
I know where I am going
I will not look back
Nyx
Life is not a straight path
Within moments everything can change
Within a conversation
Within a glance
Within the choice to speak or remain silent
Your path will follow those actions
Without your control
You have to accept it
We have to see
That every decision we make
Leads us to our destiny
Nyx
