You promised me the words
That I wanted to hear
Then you told me the truth
All the lies that you spoke
That I started to fall for
Pushed me right out that door
Nyx
clarity
My home
Seconds pass into minutes
Minutes pass into hours
Hours pass into years
Will I ever really be ok
I have faced my fears
I have seen it all
There is nothing that anyone can do
To stop me today
Time is passing so quickly
Memories are fading away
What I have longed for
I have found
It is my place in this world
I am making my mark
I have been doused in water
But I still carry the spark
The will to save them
The others like me
I will let them see
That they are cared for
I will let them see
The strength I have inside of me
They have always been my home
They are my destiny
Nyx
Why I exist
Today I felt it all
I shared my tale
Of heartbreak and pain
But I also told them
What it is I fight for
Why I am still here
I have a purpose in this life
That is why I have to live it
Even though I have fallen
Many times before
Even though I will fall again
This i am sure
I will always get back up
Because they need me here
They need someone who can stand up
And take away their fear
They need someone who understands
They need someone to listen
I will be what I need to be for them
That is why I exist
That is who I am
Nyx
Born in sin
She walked the world alone
Fighting through the images
Flashing through her mind
Always with a smile
Always so kind
Underneath it all
She feels herself rotting from within
She is not from this world
She was born in sin
Yet she exists
And she will keep fighting
She will win
Nyx
Falling
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
Disclaimer
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Move on
I feel the tall grass between my fingers
As I walk along the path
My heartache lingers
As I realize I can never turn back
I see the stream as it flows forward
Centering myself today
I have to live in the moment
I have to keep myself calm
It is the only way
That I can move on
Nyx
Another scar
With you gone
I feel so lost
I had no idea
That such a short time
Could have such a cost
I fight through the pain
Trying to find myself again
Hoping I can make it through today
I know that harsh words create fractures
I had no idea how fast we would shatter
How quickly you would turn from me
As if I never mattered
Even though the pain is raw
At least I saw who you really are
Now I just carry another scar
Nyx
The changing season
As the leaves fall around me
I see the beauty in the changing season
Sometimes there is no need to reason
Everything that people do
I try to remember that when I feel pain
I have to look inside myself again
Find the inner beauty of who I am
As I find the ground
I need to walk on again
Nyx
For the ashes of what once was
As I walk through the trees
I feel the breeze
It is all I have to calm me
In this moment as I grieve
For the wishes and dreams I did not receive
For the ashes of what once was
For the memories that you gave me
For the days that I have wept
For something that was never real
There is no one that can save me
From the fall that has begun
There is no one that can reverse
All the damage you have done
As the anger subsides
I find my resolve
You are just another puzzle
I was meant to solve
Nyx
Finding balance and strength
I hear the sound of the world outside
As I try to find balance in my life
I have always struggled to get by
I have never stopped asking myself why
I have made the decisions I have so far
Then I reflect and tell myself
This is who you are
With every step forward
And every step back
I try to fill the pieces
That have chipped away
I push myself again today
To find the balance and the strength
That I need to succeed
Nyx
