Once again I am given clarity
When I break through the pain
I am grateful for these moments
These moments I can see
Just how strong I really am
When I look at what is in front of me
I prepare myself once more
There is a tally I have taken
I know the score
I may have been torn down
I may have felt broken
I no longer feel fear
I no longer hold my head down
I always win you see
Every battle that awaits
No matter what it takes
I will win
Nyx
Peace fills me
As I feel the breeze in the air
Listening to the sound of nature
I feel like I am home
This is where my heart is
Outside behind the trees
This is where I can rest
This is where I breathe
No negative words
No negative emotions
This is all I think
This is all I see
This beautiful place that surrounds me
Nyx
I keep my head held high
Hardening my heart as the day ticks by
Questioning my emotions
Letting my mind drift
Listening as the ocean
Pulls in the waves
Feeling the peace
That this sound brings
Holding on to who I am
As I feel my feet dig into the sand
Nyx
At this moment
I do not want to be me
Insight is a gift and a curse
It shows me things
Things I wish I could not see
Nyx
I sit here and reflect upon my life
I question my emotions
I question my decisions
I question where I am
How did I get here
Where do I go
Back to the familiar pain
Or forward to something
That may be the same
I feel the panic as it rises
Unsure which way to place my foot
Where do you go
When you have been here before
What do you do
When hope leaves you
Nyx
I have always strived to understand
The actions of those I have known
The selfishness they have shown
When they left me there
I have fought to overcome
What they have done
The selfishness I see
Is beyond my ability
What I do know is that it has hardened me
It has made me who I am
For that I am grateful
Even though I may never understand
Nyx
At this moment I trust no one
At this moment my hope in others is gone
I feel no joy in the company that I keep
My heart has been ripped open
By all of the promises that have been broken
I shed no more tears today
I have said all there is to say
I have lost something I once had
I no longer have the ability to retain an emotion
I don’t even know what sadness feels like anymore
All I know is agony
Then I feel the apathy
Then I feel the rage
This is all I have left
Nyx
I have been brought into moments of complete despair
But this is how I find my strength
This is how I find hope
I have embarked on a journey
Each stride a lesson to be learned
Each breath drawn is another that I live
Each day I am given a gift
Something that is taught to me
Something that I can give
My purpose is to educate
Those who are unaware
Of everyone in need of love
Of everyone in need of care
Someday I will fulfill this purpose
This I know is true
Because I am still standing here
Writing these lines to you
Nyx
Through the ups and downs I see
A bright light before me
A light that beckons me to follow
It is there no matter how far I have fallen
It is there no matter where I go
I know it will still exist
This light is there
Even as I fall
Into the depths of hell
Under the tides of the sea
Under the covers at night
With my eyes closed tight
I can still see the light
Nyx
Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half
Someone comes along and points you towards a new path
Sometimes doors do open
When they were shut before
Sometimes you can find someone
That you completely adore
When you feel like everything is caving in
Sometimes a hand breaks through
Holds on and pulls you out into the light
If this happens do not let go
True kindness and empathy is the best gift given
If we all gave more of this
This world would be a better place
Every word of empathy and kindness
Strengthens us as a whole
Because deep down we are the same
We are all connected
Regardless of mind and body
Everyone has a soul
Nyx
