As I walk through the trees
I feel the breeze
It is all I have to calm me
In this moment as I grieve
For the wishes and dreams I did not receive
For the ashes of what once was
For the memories that you gave me
For the days that I have wept
For something that was never real
There is no one that can save me
From the fall that has begun
There is no one that can reverse
All the damage you have done
As the anger subsides
I find my resolve
You are just another puzzle
I was meant to solve
Nyx
I hear the sound of the world outside
As I try to find balance in my life
I have always struggled to get by
I have never stopped asking myself why
I have made the decisions I have so far
Then I reflect and tell myself
This is who you are
With every step forward
And every step back
I try to fill the pieces
That have chipped away
I push myself again today
To find the balance and the strength
That I need to succeed
Nyx
When all is lost I look inward
Finding myself again
Nothing has gone as planned
Yet I still stand
With my head high
As the world looks smaller below
I look to the sky
Nyx
Live and learn they say
Why do we have to learn
By being ripped apart
Where does the pain end
When does this learning start
I do not believe these words are true
Each piece that is pulled from me
Is another piece gone
I was always this strong
What I have learned is how not to fear
But this was after being beat down
Year after year
Losing everything
Again and again
Falling further and faster
With no where to land
Being pushed down
Until I could not stand
Having my head pushed under
Until I was swallowing water
This has made me fearless
A monster you see
Do you think I would be someone else
If this did not happen to me
No I would still be me
Nyx
Once again I am given clarity
When I break through the pain
I am grateful for these moments
These moments I can see
Just how strong I really am
When I look at what is in front of me
I prepare myself once more
There is a tally I have taken
I know the score
I may have been torn down
I may have felt broken
I no longer feel fear
I no longer hold my head down
I always win you see
Every battle that awaits
No matter what it takes
I will win
Nyx
Peace fills me
As I feel the breeze in the air
Listening to the sound of nature
I feel like I am home
This is where my heart is
Outside behind the trees
This is where I can rest
This is where I breathe
No negative words
No negative emotions
This is all I think
This is all I see
This beautiful place that surrounds me
Nyx
I keep my head held high
Hardening my heart as the day ticks by
Questioning my emotions
Letting my mind drift
Listening as the ocean
Pulls in the waves
Feeling the peace
That this sound brings
Holding on to who I am
As I feel my feet dig into the sand
Nyx
At this moment
I do not want to be me
Insight is a gift and a curse
It shows me things
Things I wish I could not see
Nyx
I sit here and reflect upon my life
I question my emotions
I question my decisions
I question where I am
How did I get here
Where do I go
Back to the familiar pain
Or forward to something
That may be the same
I feel the panic as it rises
Unsure which way to place my foot
Where do you go
When you have been here before
What do you do
When hope leaves you
Nyx
I have always strived to understand
The actions of those I have known
The selfishness they have shown
When they left me there
I have fought to overcome
What they have done
The selfishness I see
Is beyond my ability
What I do know is that it has hardened me
It has made me who I am
For that I am grateful
Even though I may never understand
Nyx
