She walked the world alone
Fighting through the images
Flashing through her mind
Always with a smile
Always so kind
Underneath it all
She feels herself rotting from within
She is not from this world
She was born in sin
Yet she exists
And she will keep fighting
She will win
Nyx
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
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I feel the tall grass between my fingers
As I walk along the path
My heartache lingers
As I realize I can never turn back
I see the stream as it flows forward
Centering myself today
I have to live in the moment
I have to keep myself calm
It is the only way
That I can move on
Nyx
With you gone
I feel so lost
I had no idea
That such a short time
Could have such a cost
I fight through the pain
Trying to find myself again
Hoping I can make it through today
I know that harsh words create fractures
I had no idea how fast we would shatter
How quickly you would turn from me
As if I never mattered
Even though the pain is raw
At least I saw who you really are
Now I just carry another scar
Nyx
As the leaves fall around me
I see the beauty in the changing season
Sometimes there is no need to reason
Everything that people do
I try to remember that when I feel pain
I have to look inside myself again
Find the inner beauty of who I am
As I find the ground
I need to walk on again
Nyx
As I walk through the trees
I feel the breeze
It is all I have to calm me
In this moment as I grieve
For the wishes and dreams I did not receive
For the ashes of what once was
For the memories that you gave me
For the days that I have wept
For something that was never real
There is no one that can save me
From the fall that has begun
There is no one that can reverse
All the damage you have done
As the anger subsides
I find my resolve
You are just another puzzle
I was meant to solve
Nyx
I hear the sound of the world outside
As I try to find balance in my life
I have always struggled to get by
I have never stopped asking myself why
I have made the decisions I have so far
Then I reflect and tell myself
This is who you are
With every step forward
And every step back
I try to fill the pieces
That have chipped away
I push myself again today
To find the balance and the strength
That I need to succeed
Nyx
When all is lost I look inward
Finding myself again
Nothing has gone as planned
Yet I still stand
With my head high
As the world looks smaller below
I look to the sky
Nyx
Live and learn they say
Why do we have to learn
By being ripped apart
Where does the pain end
When does this learning start
I do not believe these words are true
Each piece that is pulled from me
Is another piece gone
I was always this strong
What I have learned is how not to fear
But this was after being beat down
Year after year
Losing everything
Again and again
Falling further and faster
With no where to land
Being pushed down
Until I could not stand
Having my head pushed under
Until I was swallowing water
This has made me fearless
A monster you see
Do you think I would be someone else
If this did not happen to me
No I would still be me
Nyx
Once again I am given clarity
When I break through the pain
I am grateful for these moments
These moments I can see
Just how strong I really am
When I look at what is in front of me
I prepare myself once more
There is a tally I have taken
I know the score
I may have been torn down
I may have felt broken
I no longer feel fear
I no longer hold my head down
I always win you see
Every battle that awaits
No matter what it takes
I will win
Nyx
