When I blink 

I listen as you breathe beside me

Trying to keep myself awake 

Telling myself I can do this without you

Knowing deep down that I cannot 

I listen as the cars pass below 

Staring out through the window 

Telling myself things will get better 

Knowing deep down that they won’t 

I see happiness beside me 

But when I blink it will be gone 

The irony of life is that 

When you are ready

It won’t let you move on 

Nyx 

Where I belong 

My love lays next to me 

I look at him and see 

Everything that matters 

Everything that is real 

My world has been found 

As I listen to the sound of his voice 

As I see the look of love in his eyes 

I don’t remember who I was 

I do know who I am 

I know where I belong 

In his arms where I should have been all along 

The pull

I am disconnected

No longer whole

So close we are 

So strong is the pull

I have never felt this way

I have never felt this need 

I am so grateful he comes today

I am lost without him 

I am no longer me 

I have become one with someone else 

I need him to be free

Nyx

When you took my heart

Maybe we were created 

Maybe we do have souls 

Maybe something split us in half 

All I know for sure 

Is that my love for you is real 

That the pull only continues to grow 

That when I feel my heart slow 

I know that yours does the same 

This was never going to be easy 

This we knew from the start 

But I knew it was more than worth it 

When you took my heart 

Haze of love

In this haze of love 

I see colors clearly

I see beauty in everything

I see beauty in him 

I can’t wait to walk the world together 

I can’t wait to walk down the aisle to him

I can’t wait for my together forever to begin

My love waits for the sunrise

I no longer see the world
The way I saw it before
I no longer see anything
In black and grey
Now all I see is color
As I wait for the day
My love is not with me
When I shut my eyes
My love waits for me with the sunrise
I no longer see the world
And long for something more
I have finally found what I was looking for

Nyx

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The power you keep

You hold my heart in your hands

This is uncharted and unknown for me

I am venturing through something

I have never felt before

More attached than I have ever been

More vulnerable than I want to be

But you are the only person

Who has ever really seen me

You can see the layers beneath my skin

Even the ones covered with the filth of sin

You can see the hope in my eyes

Even in a world that is filled with lies

So I beg you now as I plead

Please do not drop my heart

Please do not let me bleed

Please do not destroy me

That is the power you hold

Because I am in too deep

My heart is in your hands

This is the power you keep

More than love

When you leave

You take half of me with you

I have to shut down

To ease the pain

The other half cannot exist

Without the part that keeps me sane

If I was not me

I wouldn’t believe

That this could exist

Only those who have felt it

Only those who could not resist

Could begin to understand

That what we have is not a laid out structure

It is breathable, bendable, and shapes like sand

What we have is beyond words, beyond opinions, beyond belief

What we have is more than love

You have become the light in my darkest hour

You have become the thunder before the rain

You are the silence when the world roars

You are the peace I feel when I need it most

You are my everything; that is what you are

No matter how close, no matter how far

This I know with all my heart is true

The only thing I will ever need in this life is you

Nyx

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Rain drops

I listen to the sound 

As I hear the rain drops

Fall to the ground 

I smell the dirt in the air 

How I long to be out there 

Turning around in the rain 

With my true love watching me 

This is where I long to be  

Nyx