Keep fighting

I keep fighting

Every single day

It will never end

But I will fight anyway

It is all I have ever known

All I will ever know

I walk this world alone

My heart a ball of stone

You can not defeat me

I will build my empire

That will be my home

Nyx

Without a home

She exists alone again

There is no one there

To hold her hand

She seeks peace within herself

Because she has no choice

Forward she walks

Into the unknown

Somber still

Without a home

Nyx

I want to find my home

My whole life I have suffered

When will it end

I am so tired

Of pretending I am ok

I sit here and cry

As another walks away

They come and they go

I throw them out of my life

It is never enough

I need more than they can give

I cannot breathe

As the pain grips my chest

The loneliness a reminder

Of a life lived alone

I just want to find some peace

I want to find my home

Nyx

This world inside my dream

Today I see the sun

It shines through the trees

I watch as the leaves fall

I feel the breeze

I try to find within myself

The strength I know is there

I want to find my home

In my mind I take myself there

To another place and time

To this world inside my mind

To this world that is my dream

Not today not tomorrow

It’s somewhere lost you see

Maybe someday I will find

The path that leads me to my destiny

Nyx

Hope

In my mind I see

No clear path before me

I push forward

Every day

Hoping I will find the way

Hoping that the emptiness will subside

Hoping that the pain will stop

I try to live in each moment

With hope in my heart

That I will find the peace I seek

That I will find my home

Nyx

Heart of stone

My heart has hardened

Like a ball of stone

It sits inside my chest

As it beats it cracks and crumbles

A little more each day

This is what I need

A heart covered in stone

I need to find myself

Before I can go home

Nyx

My forever 

In my mind I see fields 

Filled with flowers of color 

Filled with grass so green 

I feel the breeze

Sweep across my face 

Peace fills me in this place 

I see myself as beautiful 

As I walk slowly 

Moving with grace 

This is how I want to see myself 

Smiling in this field 

Forever feeling the breeze 

This is my escape 

This is my home 

Nyx

Time to feel

We are only a moment

But while we are here 

I will love you my dear 

With all that I am 

With all that I will ever be 

With the best and the worst

Parts of what is left of me 

I will allow myself this time to feel 

To let myself believe that true love is real 

Nyx

Loving you

When I heard you say your name 

I knew I would never be the same 

Something changed in me that day 

That interest grew with words you said 

Dreams were formed inside my head

Then I felt the pull 

Then I felt your skin

I knew then that I was lost 

I gave you my heart that day 

You took it when I saw your eyes 

When the force made me look into them 

You took it when you did not leave 

You never faltered 

You never swayed 

You believed in me 

And I know that you still do 

This is why I know 

I will never stop loving you 

Because there is nothing 

That your love for me 

Will not carry me through 

Nyx

Where I breathe 

Peace fills me 

As I feel the breeze in the air 

Listening to the sound of nature 

I feel like I am home 

This is where my heart is

Outside behind the trees 

This is where I can rest 

This is where I breathe 

No negative words

No negative emotions 

This is all I think 

This is all I see 

This beautiful place that surrounds me 

Nyx