You watched me fade away

I reach for your hand

But you let it go

You watched me fall

You watched me fade away

I would have lived if you had stayed

But I did not matter enough

Disclaimer

When I speak of death it is often a representation of an end. I do not want this to be misinterpreted because I know I have friends on here who care. I appreciate all of you.

Peace and love,

Nyx

Perfection

She strives for perfection

In everything she does

The image she portrays

Hides everything inside

A life she should have lived

Love she was denied

Through this rejection

She never found herself

So she will continue

Wandering here and there

Still striving for perfection

Longing for someone to care

Nyx

Until I say goodbye

There is no grey

I will hate you today

I will love you tomorrow

You will be the focus of my feelings

You will see my sorrow

All I see is black and white

Until I say goodbye

I can no longer stay

It hurts too much inside

All I do is wait

To hear the final lie

This is when I shut down

And let myself cry

Nyx

As I walk through the storm

He made me cry

Before I said goodbye 

There is no perfect mix 

No one who can see 

Who I really am 

Who I strive to be 

I exist and yet I do not 

All my life I have fought 

To find the balance that I need 

In order to push myself 

I need to believe 

That someday I will find 

The one thing that I need 

Someone beside me 

As I walk through the storm

Arms to embrace me 

When I need it the most

I will find you 

This I know is true 

I will not stop

Until I do 

Nyx

A heart of stone

My heart has hardened

Like a ball of stone

It sits inside my chest

As it beats it cracks and crumbles

A little more each day

This is what I need

A heart covered in stone

I need to find myself

Before I can go home

Nyx

Let go

I will not look behind me

I must be here today

I need to let go

Of the sorrows from yesterday

Because this is what must be done

Because this is what I do

Every day I rise

Trying to forget you

You are one of many

That I have to let go

My heart no longer aches

From the sorrow that you bring

The pain subsides

As I start to sing

This is what I must do

Walk away from you

Nyx

Because of you

I have lost faith in the world

Because of you

I believe in nothing

Because of you

You had a mouth full of promises

But a pocket full of secrets

All the lies that you told me

All the things that I did not see

They almost caused my demise

Why couldn’t I see it in your eyes

Why couldn’t I see the lies

Maybe my heart will beat again someday

It does not beat today

Nyx

Disclaimer

This was inspired from the song mouthful of diamonds from the band phantogram.

Great song.

Move on

I feel the tall grass between my fingers

As I walk along the path

My heartache lingers

As I realize I can never turn back

I see the stream as it flows forward

Centering myself today

I have to live in the moment

I have to keep myself calm

It is the only way

That I can move on

Nyx

Memories of you and I

I see the bridge

So beautiful

So bright

I see the lights

Reflect off the water

As the day

Turns into night

I see the clouds fade away

And the stars start to shine

This is when I remember

When I was yours and you were mine

This is when I lose myself

In this memory, in this time

As I stare at the beauty

At everything I see

I realize that somethings remain

And one of them is this bridge

These stars

And the memories I have of you and I

This is when I let myself break down

This is when I cry

Nyx

This world of dream’s

I have found a love

That I thought I would never find

In a land where I am yours

And you are forever mine

In your eye’s I see

This beautiful destiny

Staring at each other

So complete we are

The scars slowly fade

As we lay forever in the shade

Of each other’s love

In this world of dream’s, we have made

Nyx