A new path

Have I finally found the "real" one It sure feels that way Nothing is the way it was before I feel hope again I felt it as soon as he walked through my door I see a new path before me Instead of walking blindly I have found my way To do what I was … Continue reading A new path

The game

So many thoughts in my head...and so much dread So scared of failure...but so distracted I cannot think as panic consumes me As the minutes tick away I feel the fear I look to the future Why does money and greed make the world so blind I could finally achieve my dream I could finally … Continue reading The game

Dreaming for moments lost

I have decided to let myself dream tonight And in my dream he will be there Holding me the way that he did before All of that peace and happiness Will fill my soul again In my dream I feel love like I never have before I feel like I am where I was meant … Continue reading Dreaming for moments lost

It ends

It is incredible to think That within moments Everything can change That is the danger in feeling that bliss It seems the happier I am The faster it ends Here I am again completely numb After all of that crippling pain I am alone Sitting here trying to continue to not feel Anything at all … Continue reading It ends

The rush

My mind is spinning All over the place What is happening to me Why won’t it stop Am I feeding from the source The source of my addiction The rush is so intense I am everywhere Yet I am nowhere Who am I Who was I before Do I care about anything anymore How do … Continue reading The rush

What do I grieve

I am grieving a loss but what do I grieve Is it those few moments of sweet reprieve   Is it that feeling that never stays Peace that comes and then goes away Opening up the gateway for the pain as it departs Tearing my heart into smaller parts Parts and pieces are all I … Continue reading What do I grieve

Bliss

Blissful moments are the peace we seek Pleasure we never knew we could feel Until that moment has left you Showing you that it wasn’t real Bliss is the foreplay of torture The beauty of the moment slips away Until there is nothing left There is just another day Like so many days before I … Continue reading Bliss

Acceptance

Today the sadness has passed I have to accept things as they are I need to stop having expectations I was always meant to walk this world alone I need to set my dreams aside I need to accept that I am broken This path is not meant for me to take It will only … Continue reading Acceptance