Believe in you

There are moments when I lose hope in everyone

Then I realize that I do not need them

The only thing I need

Is to believe in me

Nyx

My purpose 

I have been brought into moments of complete despair 

But this is how I find my strength 

This is how I find hope 

I have embarked on a journey 

Each stride a lesson to be learned 

Each breath drawn is another that I live

Each day I am given a gift 

Something that is taught to me 

Something that I can give 

My purpose is to educate 

Those who are unaware 

Of everyone in need of love 

Of everyone in need of care

Someday I will fulfill this purpose 

This I know is true 

Because I am still standing here 

Writing these lines to you 

Nyx 

I see the light 

Through the ups and downs I see

A bright light before me

A light that beckons me to follow

It is there no matter how far I have fallen

It is there no matter where I go

I know it will still exist

This light is there

Even as I fall

Into the depths of hell

Under the tides of the sea

Under the covers at night

With my eyes closed tight

I can still see the light

Nyx

When doors open 

Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half

Someone comes along and points you towards a new path

Sometimes doors do open

When they were shut before

Sometimes you can find someone

That you completely adore

When you feel like everything is caving in

Sometimes a hand breaks through

Holds on and pulls you out into the light

If this happens do not let go

True kindness and empathy is the best gift given

If we all gave more of this

This world would be a better place

Every word of empathy and kindness

Strengthens us as a whole

Because deep down we are the same

We are all connected

Regardless of mind and body

Everyone has a soul

Nyx

Float away 

I feel my skin burn within 

I feel my heart shatter 

I cannot help but ask myself 

Why does anything matter 

I try to make it through each day 

I try to hold my head high

I show a smile upon my face 

A smile that isn’t real 

All I want is peace from this life 

I no longer want to feel 

I wish that I was ignorant to everything 

I wish that I was ignorant to everyone 

I wish that I was dumb 

What I wish for the most is 

The ability to stay numb 

To be lost to this world forever 

To float away in the sky 

To say, so long and farewell 

Just to say goodbye 
Nyx

My guardians of the night 

I write these lines to my guardians 

For the people who saved my life 

I will never forget you 

I owe my strength 

I owe my hope in humanity 

To each and every one of you 

To those who have fought for me 

For those who stood beside a lost child 

For those who showed me empathy 

I will never forget you 

In my heart you will always have a place 

Each and every one of you 

I will never forget your face

You have made me want to believe 

That angels do exist in this life 

For the few who fight for what is right 

You are my guardians of the night 
Nyx

As my heart peels away

I watch as the sun rises 

I watch as the sun sets 

I can not help but wonder 

Is this as good as it gets 

These moments here and there 

These moments when I find my way 

These moments when I write to you 

When I show you the way 

I wear my heart on the outside 

I do not hide it within 

This is why I am so damaged 

Because we live in a world 

Plagued by sin 

This is when I feel the pain 

When I think of all the loss 

When I think of what they have gained 

This is when I lose the hope 

That my heart will stay full 

That my true nature will remain 

With everything I lose 

With everything they gain 

Some days I feel myself slip 

Into something else 

Into a creature fighting to live 

Into a creature with nothing left to give 

Sick and tired of the evil of man 

Sick of fighting for everything that I am 

It is so hard to keep hope in my heart 

When everyone takes a strip 

Tearing it apart 

There are a few pieces left of me 

Still out there for the world to see 

My weakness is known 

My honesty is shown 

My layers of beauty hide the scars 

They hide the peeled back strips 

They hide the darkness 

The darkness that is starting to show

I fear I will never stop fighting 

I fear I will never stop feeling 

These strips they just keep peeling

I fear one day there will be nothing left 

I fear that even the shell of who I was 

Will wither away and just be gone 

I wonder at this moment 

If my soul will let me move on 

Nyx

I’m a dreamer 

With the ups and downs I see

Hills and mountains laid out before me

Here and there I find a path 

Here and there I find a stream 

Every now and then a valley 

Like a story book from a dream

I cherish these moments 

They are rare 

When I suffer I take myself there 

To my valley

By the stream 

Where the grass is high 

Where the water is blue 

In this place I feel 

Like I am home 

In this place I feel 

That there is nothing 

That I cannot overcome 
Nyx

Break the silence 

Sometimes I think that I am beaten 

Sometimes I think that I am done 

That is when I stop and remember 

Everything that you have done 

These actions drive me forward 

These memories that you made 

You were the one I trusted 

My life was in your hands 

Everything I did to make you proud of me 

Everything I did I wanted you to see 

I was your daughter 

I was the one you were supposed to protect 

Instead all you did was lie to me 

Confuse me with truths mixed with lies 

Until all I wanted was to escape you 

Everything I have done 

Is a result of what you did 

Everything I do 

Is a fight to beat you

You are the reason I am who I am 

Yet you are the reason I still breathe 

You are the reason I stand

Well dear father someday you will see

What you created 

What you made 

Someday you will see 

That you will never beat me 

I may be bruised 

My bones may break 

I may wake up everyday and suffer 

From eternal heartache 

But when all is lost I see what you have done 

This is what drives me forward 

This is what makes me carry on 

I will fight for those born to suffer 

What you have put me through 

I will fight through the pain 

I will fight because I have no choice 

There was no turning back when I broke the silence 

There was no turning back when I used my voice 
Nyx

I rise 

Once again I rise with hope in my heart 

That today will be better than yesterday 

That I will not fall into despair 

That I will not long for sleep 

That I will not pray for peace 

I may be lost 

I may be broken 

I may have lost the words to say 

Words I have already spoken 

Yet I am still here 

I am still here breathing 

I am still here fighting 

I have risen again my friend 

I will fight until I exhale my last breath 

I will fight until there is nothing left 
Nyx