There are moments when I lose hope in everyone
Then I realize that I do not need them
The only thing I need
Is to believe in me
Nyx
truth
My purpose
I have been brought into moments of complete despair
But this is how I find my strength
This is how I find hope
I have embarked on a journey
Each stride a lesson to be learned
Each breath drawn is another that I live
Each day I am given a gift
Something that is taught to me
Something that I can give
My purpose is to educate
Those who are unaware
Of everyone in need of love
Of everyone in need of care
Someday I will fulfill this purpose
This I know is true
Because I am still standing here
Writing these lines to you
Nyx
I see the light
Through the ups and downs I see
A bright light before me
A light that beckons me to follow
It is there no matter how far I have fallen
It is there no matter where I go
I know it will still exist
This light is there
Even as I fall
Into the depths of hell
Under the tides of the sea
Under the covers at night
With my eyes closed tight
I can still see the light
Nyx
When doors open
Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half
Someone comes along and points you towards a new path
Sometimes doors do open
When they were shut before
Sometimes you can find someone
That you completely adore
When you feel like everything is caving in
Sometimes a hand breaks through
Holds on and pulls you out into the light
If this happens do not let go
True kindness and empathy is the best gift given
If we all gave more of this
This world would be a better place
Every word of empathy and kindness
Strengthens us as a whole
Because deep down we are the same
We are all connected
Regardless of mind and body
Everyone has a soul
Nyx
Float away
I feel my skin burn within
I feel my heart shatter
I cannot help but ask myself
Why does anything matter
I try to make it through each day
I try to hold my head high
I show a smile upon my face
A smile that isn’t real
All I want is peace from this life
I no longer want to feel
I wish that I was ignorant to everything
I wish that I was ignorant to everyone
I wish that I was dumb
What I wish for the most is
The ability to stay numb
To be lost to this world forever
To float away in the sky
To say, so long and farewell
Just to say goodbye
Nyx
My guardians of the night
I write these lines to my guardians
For the people who saved my life
I will never forget you
I owe my strength
I owe my hope in humanity
To each and every one of you
To those who have fought for me
For those who stood beside a lost child
For those who showed me empathy
I will never forget you
In my heart you will always have a place
Each and every one of you
I will never forget your face
You have made me want to believe
That angels do exist in this life
For the few who fight for what is right
You are my guardians of the night
Nyx
As my heart peels away
I watch as the sun rises
I watch as the sun sets
I can not help but wonder
Is this as good as it gets
These moments here and there
These moments when I find my way
These moments when I write to you
When I show you the way
I wear my heart on the outside
I do not hide it within
This is why I am so damaged
Because we live in a world
Plagued by sin
This is when I feel the pain
When I think of all the loss
When I think of what they have gained
This is when I lose the hope
That my heart will stay full
That my true nature will remain
With everything I lose
With everything they gain
Some days I feel myself slip
Into something else
Into a creature fighting to live
Into a creature with nothing left to give
Sick and tired of the evil of man
Sick of fighting for everything that I am
It is so hard to keep hope in my heart
When everyone takes a strip
Tearing it apart
There are a few pieces left of me
Still out there for the world to see
My weakness is known
My honesty is shown
My layers of beauty hide the scars
They hide the peeled back strips
They hide the darkness
The darkness that is starting to show
I fear I will never stop fighting
I fear I will never stop feeling
These strips they just keep peeling
I fear one day there will be nothing left
I fear that even the shell of who I was
Will wither away and just be gone
I wonder at this moment
If my soul will let me move on
Nyx
I’m a dreamer
With the ups and downs I see
Hills and mountains laid out before me
Here and there I find a path
Here and there I find a stream
Every now and then a valley
Like a story book from a dream
I cherish these moments
They are rare
When I suffer I take myself there
To my valley
By the stream
Where the grass is high
Where the water is blue
In this place I feel
Like I am home
In this place I feel
That there is nothing
That I cannot overcome
Nyx
Break the silence
Sometimes I think that I am beaten
Sometimes I think that I am done
That is when I stop and remember
Everything that you have done
These actions drive me forward
These memories that you made
You were the one I trusted
My life was in your hands
Everything I did to make you proud of me
Everything I did I wanted you to see
I was your daughter
I was the one you were supposed to protect
Instead all you did was lie to me
Confuse me with truths mixed with lies
Until all I wanted was to escape you
Everything I have done
Is a result of what you did
Everything I do
Is a fight to beat you
You are the reason I am who I am
Yet you are the reason I still breathe
You are the reason I stand
Well dear father someday you will see
What you created
What you made
Someday you will see
That you will never beat me
I may be bruised
My bones may break
I may wake up everyday and suffer
From eternal heartache
But when all is lost I see what you have done
This is what drives me forward
This is what makes me carry on
I will fight for those born to suffer
What you have put me through
I will fight through the pain
I will fight because I have no choice
There was no turning back when I broke the silence
There was no turning back when I used my voice
Nyx
I rise
Once again I rise with hope in my heart
That today will be better than yesterday
That I will not fall into despair
That I will not long for sleep
That I will not pray for peace
I may be lost
I may be broken
I may have lost the words to say
Words I have already spoken
Yet I am still here
I am still here breathing
I am still here fighting
I have risen again my friend
I will fight until I exhale my last breath
I will fight until there is nothing left
Nyx
