There is no path
Laid clear before me
I want my heart to race
I want to feel pride
I no longer want to worry
I no longer want to feel
What I want is reason
And everything that is real
I have seen so many illusions
Along the path I have chosen
I will not delude myself
I will not have faith again
I know that all I will ever need
Is me in the end
Nyx
Live and learn they say
Why do we have to learn
By being ripped apart
Where does the pain end
When does this learning start
I do not believe these words are true
Each piece that is pulled from me
Is another piece gone
I was always this strong
What I have learned is how not to fear
But this was after being beat down
Year after year
Losing everything
Again and again
Falling further and faster
With no where to land
Being pushed down
Until I could not stand
Having my head pushed under
Until I was swallowing water
This has made me fearless
A monster you see
Do you think I would be someone else
If this did not happen to me
No I would still be me
Nyx
There are some things
I will never understand
A love I will never see
This was never meant for me
The type of love bonded through blood
This is forever lost
I fill the void in other ways
Sometimes it has a cost
I can fill my mind with wishes
Dreams and hopes of love
I can hope that I am guided
By love shining down from up above
But at the end of the day the truth is
There is no one left but me
Maybe my hardened heart
Will someday set me free
Maybe this is the only way
That I was meant to be
Nyx
No one knows
How the story goes
In the end
Your life is your own
If you keep on fighting
You will see
That happiness is there
In all the people that care
In those who stay beside you
When the world falls away
Those who stand with you
When you need them most
This is where happiness is
Nyx
The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes. Marcel Proust
There are moments when I lose hope in everyone
Then I realize that I do not need them
The only thing I need
Is to believe in me
Nyx
I have been brought into moments of complete despair
But this is how I find my strength
This is how I find hope
I have embarked on a journey
Each stride a lesson to be learned
Each breath drawn is another that I live
Each day I am given a gift
Something that is taught to me
Something that I can give
My purpose is to educate
Those who are unaware
Of everyone in need of love
Of everyone in need of care
Someday I will fulfill this purpose
This I know is true
Because I am still standing here
Writing these lines to you
Nyx
Through the ups and downs I see
A bright light before me
A light that beckons me to follow
It is there no matter how far I have fallen
It is there no matter where I go
I know it will still exist
This light is there
Even as I fall
Into the depths of hell
Under the tides of the sea
Under the covers at night
With my eyes closed tight
I can still see the light
Nyx
Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half
Someone comes along and points you towards a new path
Sometimes doors do open
When they were shut before
Sometimes you can find someone
That you completely adore
When you feel like everything is caving in
Sometimes a hand breaks through
Holds on and pulls you out into the light
If this happens do not let go
True kindness and empathy is the best gift given
If we all gave more of this
This world would be a better place
Every word of empathy and kindness
Strengthens us as a whole
Because deep down we are the same
We are all connected
Regardless of mind and body
Everyone has a soul
Nyx
I feel my skin burn within
I feel my heart shatter
I cannot help but ask myself
Why does anything matter
I try to make it through each day
I try to hold my head high
I show a smile upon my face
A smile that isn’t real
All I want is peace from this life
I no longer want to feel
I wish that I was ignorant to everything
I wish that I was ignorant to everyone
I wish that I was dumb
What I wish for the most is
The ability to stay numb
To be lost to this world forever
To float away in the sky
To say, so long and farewell
Just to say goodbye
Nyx
