False hope

I can have this hope

That someday I will write to you

And for longer than a few moments

A few precious hours I will not suffer

That hope dies a little more

Every single day

Today is another day

That a piece of me has been stripped away

Left to burn in the flames

Again all I feel right now is pain

Nyx

 

Born in sin

She walked the world alone

Fighting through the images

Flashing through her mind

Always with a smile

Always so kind

Underneath it all

She feels herself rotting from within

She is not from this world

She was born in sin

Yet she exists

And she will keep fighting

She will win

Nyx

Illusions

There is no path

Laid clear before me

I want my heart to race

I want to feel pride

I no longer want to worry

I no longer want to feel

What I want is reason

And everything that is real

I have seen so many illusions

Along the path I have chosen

I will not delude myself

I will not have faith again

I know that all I will ever need

Is me in the end

Nyx

Ripped apart

Live and learn they say 

Why do we have to learn

By being ripped apart

Where does the pain end 

When does this learning start 

I do not believe these words are true 

Each piece that is pulled from me 

Is another piece gone 

I was always this strong 

What I have learned is how not to fear 

But this was after being beat down 

Year after year 

Losing everything 

Again and again 

Falling further and faster 

With no where to land 

Being pushed down

Until I could not stand 

Having my head pushed under 

Until I was swallowing water 

This has made me fearless 

A monster you see 

Do you think I would be someone else

If this did not happen to me 

No I would still be me 

Nyx

No one left 

There are some things 

I will never understand 

A love I will never see 

This was never meant for me 

The type of love bonded through blood

This is forever lost 

I fill the void in other ways 

Sometimes it has a cost 

I can fill my mind with wishes 

Dreams and hopes of love 

I can hope that I am guided 

By love shining down from up above 

But at the end of the day the truth is 

There is no one left but me 

Maybe my hardened heart 

Will someday set me free 

Maybe this is the only way 

That I was meant to be 

Nyx

Those who stay beside you

No one knows 

How the story goes 

In the end 

Your life is your own 

If you keep on fighting 

You will see 

That happiness is there 

In all the people that care 

In those who stay beside you

When the world falls away 

Those who stand with you 

When you need them most 

This is where happiness is 

Nyx