I still can’t fill the pit
The hole within my soul
It grows larger every minute
With nothing left to throw inside
I just feel discontent
Hollow and unhappy in my own skin
Nyx
truth
Walk away
My perception sees wrong intention
Is my perception real
Is this sinking feeling justified
Take take take
That’s what I see
She takes takes takes
Until there is only a shell of me
I used to want to give
But sometimes giving is not enough
I realize today
That sometimes the only answer
Is to walk away
Nyx
Let the games begin
Some days are so hard
When my mind is against me
Making things harder than they need to be
So I fight to stop these thoughts
It seems I never really win
I rise again today
Let the games begin
Nyx
“We should always be asking ourselves: “ Is this something that is, or is not, in my control?” Epictetus
My Quote for Today
I know nothing with any certainty
Except that the world is always changing
And everything eventually ends
Nyx
False hope
I can have this hope
That someday I will write to you
And for longer than a few moments
A few precious hours I will not suffer
That hope dies a little more
Every single day
Today is another day
That a piece of me has been stripped away
Left to burn in the flames
Again all I feel right now is pain
Nyx
Promises
You promised me the words
That I wanted to hear
Then you told me the truth
All the lies that you spoke
That I started to fall for
Pushed me right out that door
Nyx
Born in sin
She walked the world alone
Fighting through the images
Flashing through her mind
Always with a smile
Always so kind
Underneath it all
She feels herself rotting from within
She is not from this world
She was born in sin
Yet she exists
And she will keep fighting
She will win
Nyx
Illusions
There is no path
Laid clear before me
I want my heart to race
I want to feel pride
I no longer want to worry
I no longer want to feel
What I want is reason
And everything that is real
I have seen so many illusions
Along the path I have chosen
I will not delude myself
I will not have faith again
I know that all I will ever need
Is me in the end
Nyx
Ripped apart
Live and learn they say
Why do we have to learn
By being ripped apart
Where does the pain end
When does this learning start
I do not believe these words are true
Each piece that is pulled from me
Is another piece gone
I was always this strong
What I have learned is how not to fear
But this was after being beat down
Year after year
Losing everything
Again and again
Falling further and faster
With no where to land
Being pushed down
Until I could not stand
Having my head pushed under
Until I was swallowing water
This has made me fearless
A monster you see
Do you think I would be someone else
If this did not happen to me
No I would still be me
Nyx
