Lost

I do not know where I am going

My footsteps pound upon the ground

I have nothing to hold onto

I walk forward

There is no sound

No voice to lead the way

I just feel lost

I feel so lost today

Nyx

Apathy

My heart pounds in my chest

Will I ever rest

Or will I continue to wander

Lost without a home

As people come and go

I feel so alone

All I can see

Are forks in the road ahead of me

All I can feel

Is complete apathy

I have no remorse

For the decisions I have made

I do not walk in the sun

I linger in the shade

This is who I am

Who I will forever be

This is what is left of me

Nyx

Is it all in my head ?

I feel the sadness as it starts to spread

Is there something wrong

Or is it all in my head

I do not know where I am going

All is feel is my world turning

In my chest I feel the pain

The ache that never goes away

I am lost beyond this world

Everyone goes

No one will stay

When I stop it hits me hard

Bruised and broken

Beaten and scarred

I have to shut it off

I have to leave this place

There is no solace here

I feel my heart

It begins to race

When I see that look

Upon your face

Nyx

Emptiness

As I get older

My heart grows colder

I try to accept things as they are

Knowing that I am stronger every day

As I continually search for something more

I try to be happy just being me

I want the world to see

The smile I spread on my face

But, on the inside all I feel

Is emptiness

Nyx

You are not alone

The best poets

Are the most tortured souls

At least that is what I believe

The ones who suffer everyday

Longing for the pain to subside

Hoping that someday they find away

To feel the peace they seek everyday

In the meantime just know

That I hope you find that love you need

That I hope that you will find a way

To smile and laugh and feel no pain

To know that there is more to life

Than this thing that we each

Continue to fight

I just hope that

We realize

That we can find each other

That we all embrace the unknown

Knowing that we are not alone

Nyx

I will not look back

The world it spins

Round and round I go

In a daze

I feel the pain

I will never be the same

I keep changing

As the leather gets thicker around me

It keeps me safe

I know longer long for anything

I know longer long for anyone

I am a warrior

Alone I walk this path

I know where I am going

I will not look back

Nyx

In the end

And in the end 

I stand alone 

My skin is made of leather 

My heart is shielded in stone 

This is the way I must be 

Because they all betray me 

Nyx 

Everyday I will fight

I breathe in the air

Tell myself to let go

I try to will the anxiety away

I need to stay focused

I need to find my way

I can not give up

I will try again

To pull myself through

I need to find strength in myself

I need to find it deep inside

Because I have nothing left to fear

Because I have nothing to hide

I just have to keep breathing

Until I find the path again

Then I will walk forward

I will find the light

Every day I remember

Every day I will fight

Nyx

What I feel today

At this moment

The agony grips my chest

I woke with hope today

Then it went away

Why do I continue to breathe

Why do I stay

On the inside

I feel myself decay

I feel myself dying slowly

Every single day

I try to fight it

I try to smile

But sometimes I just can not do it anymore

I shield myself in darkness

Hoping for some peace

Only to find the agony

That never goes away

This is what I feel today

Nyx