I long for the darkness to take me there
Away from this life
I can no longer care
About what exists outside these walls
All I want right now is to never wake up
Darkness please come
Darkness please take me away
I give up
You have won today
Nyx
depression
Alien
I feel empty
Alone and guarded
Tired of the pain
The others always bring
I often feel
That I am an alien in this world
That I will never really belong here
My smile
My words
I fool you all
I have never been human
I am something else
And I am still here
Every day I wake
Indifferent to each breath I take
Maybe someday the emptiness will fill
Until then here I am
An alien that walks on land
Nyx
Push
I want to push away the world
Everything outside of myself
I want it out of my head
Far away from me
Nyx
The rising sun
In the end I see
Clear blue skies await me
With every rising sun
As a new day has begun
I have hope in my heart
Hope I did not have before
After every battle I have fought and won
Finally peace finds me with the dawn of this new sun
Nyx
Never enough
In the darkness
I hide from you
The pain slips out
A little with each cut
Never enough to stop
Nyx
Just another day
Once again I was fooled
I thought I would see the sun
I thought I would see the flowers bloom
I was wrong
The time will never come
There is no time for us
The clouds grow dark
The sky turns grey
Today is just another
Day like yesterday
I feel so alone
As I sit here in the dark
My heart breaks
I feel the pain again
This is what happens
This cycle that never ends
The cause does not matter
It always feels the same
There is nothing left of me
There is nothing left to gain
Anything that was human has died
A thousand times before
I exist and stand
Only for what I fight for
Nyx
The void
There is a hole
Where my heart used to be
It was ripped out
It was taken from me
The hole grows a little more each day
This feeling of despair
It takes me away
I exist as darkness
There is nothing left
Just this void in my chest
Nyx
Nothing Left to Say
There are so many words that I have said
There are so many words that I have written
None of it really matters
When I am talking into the wind
When a face becomes a shadow
Where a person used to be
The words they are so hollow
No one ever really hears me
I am not a person
I am a just a thing
All I can do is hope
That my heart will beat someday
In the meantime, I sit here
I have nothing left to say
Nyx
Solace in the dark
Sitting in the dark
Crying again
Letting go of another person
Another strip of my heart is gone
The pain is so great
That I have to shut down
If I didn’t I would break completely
There is no coming back from this
There is no way to change it
I’m still here breathing
Enduring it all
I feel comfort in this time
I have found solitude
I have found solace in the darkness
It is where I belong
There is no human for me
There never will be
Nyx
Dialogue with my friend darkness
“Hello Darkness my old friend
It’s nice to see you again”
“My sweet girl why are you so restless?
Can’t find that peace you still seek?
Can’t find an ear to listen to the screams?
Well here I am my dear
I will listen as you scream in pain
Then I will take you with me
I will lay my claim
In the end it will be the same
This is how it must be
Some day soon you will see
It has always been me
I am your true friend
I will show you how your life will end
Take my hand my dear”
I take his hand
“I know darkness
You are always right
Once again you are my only friend tonight”
Together we descend
