And in the end I see
Clear blue skies in front of me
The peace has finally come
In my life you won
The suffering was great
My love turned to hate
I should be happy breathing
But this cannot be
Because you destroyed me
Nyx
depression
Another place and time
Today I rise with hope
Hoping things will stay this way
Hoping that this time
I will have a hand to hold
There is so much more to me
Then one story to be told
There are many layers
Many scars beneath my skin
If you want to know who I am
The story starts within
I am shaped from betrayal
Pain and many lies
Shaped by those who have come and gone
With no need for goodbyes
If you look at me
I will show you what lies beneath
But only if you take my hand
And wander with me today
Only if you take my hand
And accept me as I am
Broken but still breathing
Mended here and there
I have dreams that keep me going
When it hurts I take myself there
To another place and time
That exists inside my mind
Come with me and you will see
All that is left of me
Nyx
In the shade
There is no sunshine in the shade
The clouds are rolling in
Where does it end
When did it begin
Nyx
A place for us
Deep within my soul
I know there are pieces left
Parts that will one day make me whole
Someday you will see
That there is so much more to me
Then the girl who walked away
There is so much more to me
Than just one story to be told
One day when I walk the earth
There will be others behind me
I will show them the way
I will show them where there is land
A place for all of us
It exists inside my heart
It is the home of the forgotten
The ones who were once lost
The ones that thought they were dammed
All they needed was compassion
I give to all of you my hand
With all my love,
Nyx
We are what we will ourselves to be.
Nyx
Hope
I saw myself in someone else today
I wanted to take her hand
And give her hope
I wanted to tell her I understand
Nyx
I win
It’s all about beating them
That’s what keeps me going
I always win
My heart still beats in my chest
I feel the anger build
I will never let you destroy me
I raise my shield
I hold my sword
Come and get me
Nyx
Today I fight
Today I am fighting
The void within my soul
If I do not it will destroy me
Everything will fade away
No one else can save me
Because no one else can see
The abyss that is beneath me
The pain that pulls me down
I have to find away
I have to save myself today
Nyx
I will paint you black
I suffer every single day
There is nothing that will take the pain away
I exist in my own hell
What I feel inside
Know one will ever know
The pain is so great
It quickly turns to hate
I will rip you down
Before I raise my voice
I won’t need to
I will paint you black
Then I will walk away
Because in the end
There is nothing left
I do not exist in this world
And I never will
Nyx
Born in sin
She walked the world alone
Fighting through the images
Flashing through her mind
Always with a smile
Always so kind
Underneath it all
She feels herself rotting from within
She is not from this world
She was born in sin
Yet she exists
And she will keep fighting
She will win
Nyx
