I do not know where I am going
My footsteps pound upon the ground
I have nothing to hold onto
I walk forward
There is no sound
No voice to lead the way
I just feel lost
I feel so lost today
Nyx
depression
Apathy
My heart pounds in my chest
Will I ever rest
Or will I continue to wander
Lost without a home
As people come and go
I feel so alone
All I can see
Are forks in the road ahead of me
All I can feel
Is complete apathy
I have no remorse
For the decisions I have made
I do not walk in the sun
I linger in the shade
This is who I am
Who I will forever be
This is what is left of me
Nyx
Is it all in my head ?
I feel the sadness as it starts to spread
Is there something wrong
Or is it all in my head
I do not know where I am going
All is feel is my world turning
In my chest I feel the pain
The ache that never goes away
I am lost beyond this world
Everyone goes
No one will stay
When I stop it hits me hard
Bruised and broken
Beaten and scarred
I have to shut it off
I have to leave this place
There is no solace here
I feel my heart
It begins to race
When I see that look
Upon your face
Nyx
Emptiness
As I get older
My heart grows colder
I try to accept things as they are
Knowing that I am stronger every day
As I continually search for something more
I try to be happy just being me
I want the world to see
The smile I spread on my face
But, on the inside all I feel
Is emptiness
Nyx
You are not alone
The best poets
Are the most tortured souls
At least that is what I believe
The ones who suffer everyday
Longing for the pain to subside
Hoping that someday they find away
To feel the peace they seek everyday
In the meantime just know
That I hope you find that love you need
That I hope that you will find a way
To smile and laugh and feel no pain
To know that there is more to life
Than this thing that we each
Continue to fight
I just hope that
We realize
That we can find each other
That we all embrace the unknown
Knowing that we are not alone
Nyx
I will not look back
The world it spins
Round and round I go
In a daze
I feel the pain
I will never be the same
I keep changing
As the leather gets thicker around me
It keeps me safe
I know longer long for anything
I know longer long for anyone
I am a warrior
Alone I walk this path
I know where I am going
I will not look back
Nyx
In the end
And in the end
I stand alone
My skin is made of leather
My heart is shielded in stone
This is the way I must be
Because they all betray me
Nyx
Everyday I will fight
I breathe in the air
Tell myself to let go
I try to will the anxiety away
I need to stay focused
I need to find my way
I can not give up
I will try again
To pull myself through
I need to find strength in myself
I need to find it deep inside
Because I have nothing left to fear
Because I have nothing to hide
I just have to keep breathing
Until I find the path again
Then I will walk forward
I will find the light
Every day I remember
Every day I will fight
Nyx
What I feel today
At this moment
The agony grips my chest
I woke with hope today
Then it went away
Why do I continue to breathe
Why do I stay
On the inside
I feel myself decay
I feel myself dying slowly
Every single day
I try to fight it
I try to smile
But sometimes I just can not do it anymore
I shield myself in darkness
Hoping for some peace
Only to find the agony
That never goes away
This is what I feel today
Nyx
