Once again there is a fork in the road
Do I follow the path of comfort
Or do I stray down the darker path
The one that brings me back
The one that starts the cycle
Of pain and the longing for death
So many faces of people who once were
I barely remember them now
They just became a part of the darkness
That beckons me back
It is the same darkness
He will always be there
The grim reaper of my soul
Reminding me I lost it long ago
Nyx
I used to think that love was the only way
To lead me to my home
But now I feel myself drifting slowly
I do not feel the pull
I have found a way
To walk this world alone
I still feel tinges of the pain
The scars still tear away
And the blood still bleeds through
But I have found a way
To stop searching for you
Nyx
Another day is passing
The sun begins to set
Here we go again
I lay out the cards
I place my bet
Darkness says to me
It’s a 50/50 chance
This will be your last dance
Nyx
If I die today
That will be okay
Because I know longer care
Who I ever was
What I ever did
I live my life because
I must
And today I am free
Nyx
And in the end I see
Clear blue skies in front of me
The peace has finally come
In my life you won
The suffering was great
My love turned to hate
I should be happy breathing
But this cannot be
Because you destroyed me
Nyx
Today I rise with hope
Hoping things will stay this way
Hoping that this time
I will have a hand to hold
There is so much more to me
Then one story to be told
There are many layers
Many scars beneath my skin
If you want to know who I am
The story starts within
I am shaped from betrayal
Pain and many lies
Shaped by those who have come and gone
With no need for goodbyes
If you look at me
I will show you what lies beneath
But only if you take my hand
And wander with me today
Only if you take my hand
And accept me as I am
Broken but still breathing
Mended here and there
I have dreams that keep me going
When it hurts I take myself there
To another place and time
That exists inside my mind
Come with me and you will see
All that is left of me
Nyx
There is no sunshine in the shade
The clouds are rolling in
Where does it end
When did it begin
Nyx
Deep within my soul
I know there are pieces left
Parts that will one day make me whole
Someday you will see
That there is so much more to me
Then the girl who walked away
There is so much more to me
Than just one story to be told
One day when I walk the earth
There will be others behind me
I will show them the way
I will show them where there is land
A place for all of us
It exists inside my heart
It is the home of the forgotten
The ones who were once lost
The ones that thought they were dammed
All they needed was compassion
I give to all of you my hand
With all my love,
Nyx
We are what we will ourselves to be.
Nyx
I saw myself in someone else today
I wanted to take her hand
And give her hope
I wanted to tell her I understand
Nyx
