I saw myself in someone else today
I wanted to take her hand
And give her hope
I wanted to tell her I understand
Nyx
depression
I win
It’s all about beating them
That’s what keeps me going
I always win
My heart still beats in my chest
I feel the anger build
I will never let you destroy me
I raise my shield
I hold my sword
Come and get me
Nyx
Today I fight
Today I am fighting
The void within my soul
If I do not it will destroy me
Everything will fade away
No one else can save me
Because no one else can see
The abyss that is beneath me
The pain that pulls me down
I have to find away
I have to save myself today
Nyx
I will paint you black
I suffer every single day
There is nothing that will take the pain away
I exist in my own hell
What I feel inside
Know one will ever know
The pain is so great
It quickly turns to hate
I will rip you down
Before I raise my voice
I won’t need to
I will paint you black
Then I will walk away
Because in the end
There is nothing left
I do not exist in this world
And I never will
Nyx
Born in sin
She walked the world alone
Fighting through the images
Flashing through her mind
Always with a smile
Always so kind
Underneath it all
She feels herself rotting from within
She is not from this world
She was born in sin
Yet she exists
And she will keep fighting
She will win
Nyx
Drifting
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
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A shadow
I exist
As a shadow
I float through the world
They hear my voice
But I do not let them see through the smoke
As I flow through the air
Because I know that I can switch it off
And no longer care
A blessing and a curse
Forward than reverse
I long to be whole
But maybe this will never be
All I can do is hope
Nyx
No one
There is no one here
To hold my hand
There is no one here
To tell me everything will be ok
There is no one here
To hold me and let me cry
There is no one here
To stop me from destroying myself
Nyx
Broken
I exist in my own hell
A busted broken shell
I break everyday
Nothing takes the pain away
There is no song that brings lasting peace
There is no wind on my face
There is no ground to walk on
There is nothing anyone can say
Because they all walk away
I wish I did not exist
But here I am
Living this life of pain
I will never be the same
I cannot fix what they have done
I was created and at the moment
My creators have won
I no longer see the beauty of the sun
I no longer see a blue sky
In this moment all I want to
Is die
Nyx
Let go
I barely make it through
Everything that I do
No matter what I have done
I have yet to feel the sun
It does not shine upon my face
There is no warm welcoming embrace
As I find myself here
There is no one near
No one to wipe away my tears
No one to soothe me
No one to shield me from my fears
So, I just fall
Further into the dark
I see nothing in this place
So, I close my eyes
And let go
Nyx
