You are not alone

At this moment I feel so empty

Hollow inside

Sometimes I ask myself

Why I even tried

Why I thought that I could be happy

Why I thought I would find the door

The door that opens to another life

To a life without the pain

I can no longer endure

A life lived without the lack of love I long for

I will never be like everyone else

This I know is true

I will never see the world

The way that others do

I continue to suffer in silence

Reflecting to myself

I wonder if someone else could do better

With the deck I have in my hand

Then I realize this does not matter

Because I am one of the damned

I wish I did not feel this way

As I fight through another day

I just want everyone to know

To all of you who suffer in silence

You are not alone


This world inside my dream

Today I see the sun

It shines through the trees

I watch as the leaves fall

I feel the breeze

I try to find within myself

The strength I know is there

I want to find my home

In my mind I take myself there

To another place and time

To this world inside my mind

To this world that is my dream

Not today not tomorrow

It’s somewhere lost you see

Maybe someday I will find

The path that leads me to my destiny


Underneath the darkness

It is so hard

To force myself forward

I just do not care right now

I feel my dreams slip away

Every moment

Every day

I just feel beaten

Broken down

All I want is someone there

To accept me as I am

It is so hard to get up today

It is so hard to find the ground

I am lost underneath

This shroud of darkness

I have lost my will today

I have lost myself

I just want to slip away

And become someone else

I cannot change who I am

But I have to move

I have to stand



I feel myself fall

Farther and farther

I go

Into the depths below

It never stops

This cycle that is my life

There is no end to this game

I will never be the same

As I lay here broken

Pieces of me slip away

Once again all I feel is pain


What is Love

Love is something

I do not know

Does it linger

Does it grow

Is it fleeting

Or does it remain

Is it only there

When someone has something to gain

I do not understand this emotion

All I feel is pain


On my own

I am still floating in the air

I will not know where I am going

Until I get there

What do you do

When the world crashes down

Where do you turn

When no ones around

I keep walking forward

Somehow I do

Some days are so hard

Just to live through

Maybe some day I will find my home

Until then I will continue to walk forward

On my own



Today I have fallen

Into my darkest hour

I know longer want to be me

The pain is so great

It tears me apart

Yet here I remain

Waiting for it to stop

Waiting to become numb

I can no longer bear it

This pain I feel inside

I have lost my hope

I have lost my dream

In this moment

All I can do is breathe


Treading water

Today I feel broken

As I push myself to do

What needs to be done

Once again relying on no one

Every turn leads to a wall

Before the foundation gives

Before I fall

I see the water below

It lies beneath as the ground gives way

I am treading water today


All I need

I thought I was lost before

That was before I opened the door

There is no foundation

There is no ground

I have been looking

But I have not found

That hand to catch me

As I free float in the air

All I want is someone to love me

All I need is someone to care


No one

I feel the ice

Pressed against my skin

I feel the air compress

As my chest caves in

I hear myself

As I gasp for air

There is no one there