I feel so heavy
So weighed down
I feel the darkness
Rise above my head
Pulling me further
Filling me with dread
Maybe I will make it
Maybe I will not
Maybe I will find a way
To fix myself again
Maybe I will wake up
When all I want is sleep
Maybe I will pull the blade out
The one that’s in so deep
Maybe I will find a way
To be free
Nyx
The anxiety smoothers me
I can no longer breathe
Survival is what I need
In order to succeed
The struggle to keep my head above water
It gets harder everyday
If only I could find someway
To assure I will make it
If only I could find someway
To feel safe again
As my breath leaves me
I start to feel the pain
The constant worry
It is always the same
Will I make it
Or will I fail
I know that somehow
I have to do this
I have to prevail
Nyx
We are only a moment
But while we are here
I will love you my dear
With all that I am
With all that I will ever be
With the best and the worst
Parts of what is left of me
I will allow myself this time to feel
To let myself believe that true love is real
Nyx
When I close my eyes I see
Your hand in front of me
When I open them it’s gone
Nyx
I see what he has done
I see the grass that has grown brown
I see the trees wither and die around me
I see the sky fade into grey
I walk away from the dark
With every tear I shed
With every sting that this nightmare brings
I push forward
And as I go
I will my heartbeat to slow
I will my sorrow away
I take a seed and plant it
With my love I know it will grow
Someday I will see the trees again
Someday I will see the green
Someday the sky will shine with color
Beauty will not be forgotten
It will be seen
I will live my life again
I will live within my dream
Nyx
I sit here hoping I can keep
This eternal peace that I seek
Today I have won
I have felt the light
Shine down from the sun
I have felt the breeze on my face
I ran through the woods
At my own pace
I will keep this hope in my heart
As I turn the page
Waiting for this new chapter to start
Nyx
I listen as the water falls
What a soothing sound
I feel my body go still
I let go of worry
I let go of sorrow
I just sit here and listen
As it all fades away
Closing my eyes
I find some peace today
Nyx
Trying to push through today
But the clouds are closing in
They are there to remind me
That darkness hovers
It still exists within
Just beyond my currents thoughts
The darkness seeps through
I feel the pain as it starts to burn
Then I close my eyes and see
All the things I have seen before
And what is in front of me
The path is still there
It breaks off here again
Asking me if I want to go back
To my land of pretend
Nyx
When I heard you say your name
I knew I would never be the same
Something changed in me that day
That interest grew with words you said
Dreams were formed inside my head
Then I felt the pull
Then I felt your skin
I knew then that I was lost
I gave you my heart that day
You took it when I saw your eyes
When the force made me look into them
You took it when you did not leave
You never faltered
You never swayed
You believed in me
And I know that you still do
This is why I know
I will never stop loving you
Because there is nothing
That your love for me
Will not carry me through
Nyx
Sometimes despair drags me down
Through this haze of memories
Through years of turmoil
My body sinks
Until it is anchored down
Then the rooms fills with water
As I lay chained to the ground
Once again I gulp for air
Until I can no longer breathe
This is when the emptiness comes
This is when my soul is gone
Nyx
