I kind of want to die again
It’s been a little while
It’s very hard to be alive right now
Its very hard to exist as myself in this current state that I am in
Should I do something
Should I help others in some way
Or have I already said
All there is to say
Nyx
Some days I just want to sleep
It’s like I can no longer feel
There is no good
There is no bad
There is just this reality that I cannot enjoy
Nyx
Feeling content is a gift
A break from sadness and pain
I am grateful for this feeling
I appreciate the lack of pain
I accept this gift
Nyx
Sometimes I find these moments
Moments of peace
Peace I thought I would never find
Peace has finally found me
Nyx
I still can’t fill the pit
The hole within my soul
It grows larger every minute
With nothing left to throw inside
I just feel discontent
Hollow and unhappy in my own skin
Nyx
I dream of a world beyond what I see before me
I dream of a world filled with beauty
I dream of a world of peace
Nyx
It is hard to ignore this loneliness
I feel this need for connection
A connection to someone else
In the meantime I lay here
Listening as the clock keeps ticking
Aware of time that is passing by
Knowing that being here alone is not enough
But accepting it anyway
This is what is best
I will keep trying to be better
I will exist as I am
Nyx
I try to cherish these moments
These moments of clarity
These moments when I feel ok
This fleeting time has come and gone
The hours and days go faster
All I can do is hope that some day
I will find my happily ever after
Nyx
What do you do when you want to escape your own skin
What do you do when you are tired of the emptiness
What do you do when your tired of that uneasy feeling
There is no escaping who you are
Nyx
Words From A Borderline 
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