And in the end
I stand alone
My skin is made of leather
My heart is shielded in stone
This is the way I must be
Because they all betray me
Nyx
writing
Within moments
Life is not a straight path
Within moments everything can change
Within a conversation
Within a glance
Within the choice to speak or remain silent
Your path will follow those actions
Without your control
You have to accept it
We have to see
That every decision we make
Leads us to our destiny
Nyx
Everyday I will fight
I breathe in the air
Tell myself to let go
I try to will the anxiety away
I need to stay focused
I need to find my way
I can not give up
I will try again
To pull myself through
I need to find strength in myself
I need to find it deep inside
Because I have nothing left to fear
Because I have nothing to hide
I just have to keep breathing
Until I find the path again
Then I will walk forward
I will find the light
Every day I remember
Every day I will fight
Nyx
What I feel today
At this moment
The agony grips my chest
I woke with hope today
Then it went away
Why do I continue to breathe
Why do I stay
On the inside
I feel myself decay
I feel myself dying slowly
Every single day
I try to fight it
I try to smile
But sometimes I just can not do it anymore
I shield myself in darkness
Hoping for some peace
Only to find the agony
That never goes away
This is what I feel today
Nyx
Battle
I hold my sword toward the sky
I feel everything
All the pain
All the loss
All the sorrow
I take the blade
I slice my hand
I watch the blood drip
Into the sand
In this moment I swear to myself
I will not fail
I will not stop
I look upon my enemy
I tell him to stand
Nyx
Sometimes all you can do is cry
Without sound
She stood there
Her hair floated in the breeze
The pain it gripped her
Brought her to her knees
She screamed but no one heard her
She stretched out her arms
But no one saw
The scars that were red and raw
The sorrow and the screams were ignored
It was easier to look away
Than to look upon this girl
So they continued forward
As she stayed behind
To suffer alone
She was left there
Inside her home of pain
She was left there
And everyday she drowned
She was lost
She was seen
But without sound
Nyx
The damned
I feel the grass beneath my fingers as I walk
I feel the breeze as it brushes my face
I see the beauty of the sky
It is so blue today
I listen to the birds
As they sing to each other
I think of the comfort they have
From one another
Yet all of it does not take the agony away
All I can do is take the comfort that it brings
Maybe someday it will bring me the peace that I seek
Maybe someday I will be content in this life
Until then I try to live as I am
I have no choice
I am one of the damned
Nyx
A warrior
At the core of who I am
There is a warrior
A fighter that I know is there
I remember when I feel the pressure build
I remember when I will my heartbeat to slow
I remember and I make myself let everything go
Because I will keep fighting
This is something I must do
I fight for me
I fight for you
Nyx
Today
Today I question
Everything and everyone
Who am I
Who have I become
I feel so weary
As the anxiety
Brings me down
I feel so lost
I do not want to be found
I do not want to be consumed
By the pain that loneliness brings
By the fire that burns in my chest
I just want peace
I just want to rest
Nyx
