Imagine the worst pain you have ever felt
When your heart was broken
When you were broken
Imagine having that pain
Over and over again
Every single day
All due to the words of someone else
Whoever is filling the void
My unattractive sickness
Is that what you see
Welcome to my reality
Nyx
Today I find myself
In a place I have never been before
Divided by who I was
And who I have become
Nyx
The sadness hits me
As soon as I close the door
I feel the hate for myself
More than anything else
The hate, the shame, and my hollow soul
Nyx
You promised me the words
That I wanted to hear
Then you told me the truth
All the lies that you spoke
That I started to fall for
Pushed me right out that door
Nyx
There it is again
That old familiar pain
Taking away another piece of me
What do you do
When all hope is gone
Where do you go
When there is nowhere left
There is nowhere I can feel peace for long
Nowhere that it does not hurt
Everything that is wrong with me
I see it for what it is
There is nothing more I can do right now
This is all I have left to give
My honesty shows the truth
I have never wanted to live
I am still here
Burning on the inside
Living in fear of the pain
What do you want from me
What is left for you to gain
You got what you wanted
Now leave me alone
Nyx
More than I ever have
I have to find the strength
I have to believe
That I can be better
That I can live my life some day
Without the pain I felt before
With every decision I make
With everything that I have left to give
I rise today for you
For those who are as lost as me
I rise again because I must
I have to open the door
So everyone can see
That everyone deserves a chance
To live their lives with happiness
Nyx
When the clouds turn dark and grey
All I want to do is fade away
Forget who I am
Forget who I was
And be someone else
Nyx
You are dead to me
Because that’s the way it needs to be
Get the hell away from me
Before I make you hurt
You don’t want to feel the way that I do
Just get the hell away from me
That’s all I ask of you
Nyx
How do I make it stop
How do I escape
This hell that is my fate
Nyx
I walk this world a wanderer
Drifting from here to there
It is hard to believe I am still breathing
But here I am still wandering the land
Some days I wish I was not me
Somedays I wish I was gone
Today I sit here, still breathing
Always fighting through the pain
Always fighting to hold on
I will remain as I have always been
A wanderer running away from sin
Running away from my shame
There is no one here to blame
I left them when I drifted
Along this path in life
I had to let them go
I had to say goodbye
I will never stop moving
There is no home for me
Wandering here then moving forward
This is who I was meant to be
Nyx
