I just want to live

I do not want to think

About the things I could regret

I do not want to know

Anything right now

I just want to escape

All the things you create

These images in my mind

The ones that take me back in time

I have nothing to say

I have nothing to give

I do not know where I am going

I forget where I have been

All I can think right now is

I just want to live

Nyx

Dark thoughts

When I sit still

Some times the pain is just too much

I do not know what to do

I no longer have words to say

The pain hits me

Every single day

I do not want to think

I do not want to cry

All I want to do

Is say goodbye

Nyx

On my own

I am still floating in the air

I will not know where I am going

Until I get there

What do you do

When the world crashes down

Where do you turn

When no ones around

I keep walking forward

Somehow I do

Some days are so hard

Just to live through

Maybe some day I will find my home

Until then I will continue to walk forward

On my own

Nyx

Breathe

Today I have fallen

Into my darkest hour

I know longer want to be me

The pain is so great

It tears me apart

Yet here I remain

Waiting for it to stop

Waiting to become numb

I can no longer bear it

This pain I feel inside

I have lost my hope

I have lost my dream

In this moment

All I can do is breathe

Nyx

Treading water

Today I feel broken

As I push myself to do

What needs to be done

Once again relying on no one

Every turn leads to a wall

Before the foundation gives

Before I fall

I see the water below

It lies beneath as the ground gives way

I am treading water today

Nyx

New beginnings

Things are changing

Once again

I found an end

As a new beginning starts

A new path has cleared

With all the things I have fought

And everything I have feared

I make myself walk forward

Because it is what I do

I adapt because I can

This is who I am

Nyx

My heart a broken stone

And another walks away

Like so many have before

That is just what they do

Before I feel the knife slam through

The loneliness and the pain

It always feels the same

Who have I become

I exist and yet

I am no one

I walk this world alone

My heart a broken stone

The cracks they chip away

A little more each day

This is the way it must be

Until there is nothing left of me

Nyx

Believe

Everyday I fight

I put one foot in front of the other

Some days I fall

Others I keep walking

I try not to think

About what has happened before

When I think about my past

I open a door

Within it is this person

So lonely and so still

She sits there in silence

Broken with no will

This is something I strive not to be

This image that is broken in front of me

There is more to life than this

There is more to live for

There is more to see

I just have to once again remind myself

All I have to do

Is believe in me

Nyx

All I need

I thought I was lost before

That was before I opened the door

There is no foundation

There is no ground

I have been looking

But I have not found

That hand to catch me

As I free float in the air

All I want is someone to love me

All I need is someone to care

Nyx