He made me cry
Before I said goodbye
There is no perfect mix
No one who can see
Who I really am
Who I strive to be
I exist and yet I do not
All my life I have fought
To find the balance that I need
In order to push myself
I need to believe
That someday I will find
The one thing that I need
Someone beside me
As I walk through the storm
Arms to embrace me
When I need it the most
I will find you
This I know is true
I will not stop
Until I do
Nyx
What do I want
Which path do I choose
How will I know
Whether I will win or lose
I fight but I do not know
Whether my feet will hit the ground
Will I stand
Or will I fall
Nyx
She strives for perfection
In everything she does
There can be no mistakes
There can be no flaws
Or it will all fall apart
The image she portrays
Will crack and shatter
As she slowly fades away
Nyx
My whole life I have suffered
When will it end
I am so tired
Of pretending I am ok
I sit here and cry
As another walks away
They come and they go
I throw them out of my life
It is never enough
I need more than they can give
I cannot breathe
As the pain grips my chest
The loneliness a reminder
Of a life lived alone
I just want to find some peace
I want to find my home
Nyx
My heart has hardened
Like a ball of stone
It sits inside my chest
As it beats it cracks and crumbles
A little more each day
This is what I need
A heart covered in stone
I need to find myself
Before I can go home
Nyx
I do not know where I am going
My footsteps pound upon the ground
I have nothing to hold onto
I walk forward
There is no sound
No voice to lead the way
I just feel lost
I feel so lost today
Nyx
My heart pounds in my chest
Will I ever rest
Or will I continue to wander
Lost without a home
As people come and go
I feel so alone
All I can see
Are forks in the road ahead of me
All I can feel
Is complete apathy
I have no remorse
For the decisions I have made
I do not walk in the sun
I linger in the shade
This is who I am
Who I will forever be
This is what is left of me
Nyx
I feel the sadness as it starts to spread
Is there something wrong
Or is it all in my head
I do not know where I am going
All is feel is my world turning
In my chest I feel the pain
The ache that never goes away
I am lost beyond this world
Everyone goes
No one will stay
When I stop it hits me hard
Bruised and broken
Beaten and scarred
I have to shut it off
I have to leave this place
There is no solace here
I feel my heart
It begins to race
When I see that look
Upon your face
Nyx
As I get older
My heart grows colder
I try to accept things as they are
Knowing that I am stronger every day
As I continually search for something more
I try to be happy just being me
I want the world to see
The smile I spread on my face
But, on the inside all I feel
Is emptiness
Nyx
The best poets
Are the most tortured souls
At least that is what I believe
The ones who suffer everyday
Longing for the pain to subside
Hoping that someday they find away
To feel the peace they seek everyday
In the meantime just know
That I hope you find that love you need
That I hope that you will find a way
To smile and laugh and feel no pain
To know that there is more to life
Than this thing that we each
Continue to fight
I just hope that
We realize
That we can find each other
That we all embrace the unknown
Knowing that we are not alone
Nyx
