You are dead to me
Because that’s the way it needs to be
Get the hell away from me
Before I make you hurt
You don’t want to feel the way that I do
Just get the hell away from me
That’s all I ask of you
Nyx
writing
Hell
How do I make it stop
How do I escape
This hell that is my fate
Nyx
Still drifting
I walk this world a wanderer
Drifting from here to there
It is hard to believe I am still breathing
But here I am still wandering the land
Some days I wish I was not me
Somedays I wish I was gone
Today I sit here, still breathing
Always fighting through the pain
Always fighting to hold on
I will remain as I have always been
A wanderer running away from sin
Running away from my shame
There is no one here to blame
I left them when I drifted
Along this path in life
I had to let them go
I had to say goodbye
I will never stop moving
There is no home for me
Wandering here then moving forward
This is who I was meant to be
Nyx
Fate
Will I be alone forever
I fear I must accept my fate
The loneliness it grips me hard
The pain it rips me apart
Once again I wish I was gone
Maybe there is a place I belong
Right now as I cry in the dark
I care about nothing because I cannot
I cannot care because my whole life I have sought
The one thing I will never have
It is just not meant to be
I was meant to live this life alone
All I will ever have is me
Nyx
My home
Seconds pass into minutes
Minutes pass into hours
Hours pass into years
Will I ever really be ok
I have faced my fears
I have seen it all
There is nothing that anyone can do
To stop me today
Time is passing so quickly
Memories are fading away
What I have longed for
I have found
It is my place in this world
I am making my mark
I have been doused in water
But I still carry the spark
The will to save them
The others like me
I will let them see
That they are cared for
I will let them see
The strength I have inside of me
They have always been my home
They are my destiny
Nyx
There is no cure
Today I wish I wasn’t me
Like I have so many days before
What I suffer from
There is no cure
As I lay here in the dark
I find comfort in my dreams
There is no pain there
I do not remember
Happiness lasting very long
No matter what I have done
No matter where I have gone
Nothing can replace what was taken from me
I cannot regrow my soul
I long for death
But darkness is not finished with me yet
I know now that I cannot be different
I was not made to feel joy or love
All I can do is hope that there is peace
From some shining light above
In the mean time
I am here
Laying in the dark
Feeling empty and broken
Because everyone is gone
Every part of me was stolen
I feel so alone
It is so hard to go on
I wish for death every single day
There is nothing that anyone can do
There is nothing that anyone can say
That will ever make me want to get up
That will make me believe anything today
Nyx
Why I exist
Today I felt it all
I shared my tale
Of heartbreak and pain
But I also told them
What it is I fight for
Why I am still here
I have a purpose in this life
That is why I have to live it
Even though I have fallen
Many times before
Even though I will fall again
This i am sure
I will always get back up
Because they need me here
They need someone who can stand up
And take away their fear
They need someone who understands
They need someone to listen
I will be what I need to be for them
That is why I exist
That is who I am
Nyx
Darkness and the night
Darkness will follow me
Wherever I go
When I am alone
This is when I know
I can feel it
He is coming
There he is as the light flickers out
He looks at me and shakes his head
Darling girl why are you still not dead
Haven’t you learned anything yet
This suffering and pain
I will never let you forget
I will make you feel it
Until you cannot breathe
As you gasp for air
I will bring you there
To the cycle of hell that is your life
Don’t you long for it to end
Come with me my dear
I can make it stop
You have nothing to fear
Just take my hand and we will go
Into the darkness of the night
I take his hand
There is nothing left for me here
Nothing left for me to know
As we walk I feel my heartbeat slow
I feel myself as I start to fade
Off together we both go
Me and the only friend I know
Nyx
My world of darkness
I live in my own world of darkness
I do not see the light
I feel so alone
I feel so sad
I am still grieving over something
I never had
The sadness turns to pain
So similar than before
Except this time I feel less strength
It is hard to remember what I fight for
It hurts today
As I lay here in the dark
Wondering why I cannot be ok
With being alone again today
Nyx
Grim Reaper
Once again there is a fork in the road
Do I follow the path of comfort
Or do I stray down the darker path
The one that brings me back
The one that starts the cycle
Of pain and the longing for death
So many faces of people who once were
I barely remember them now
They just became a part of the darkness
That beckons me back
It is the same darkness
He will always be there
The grim reaper of my soul
Reminding me I lost it long ago
Nyx
