I still can’t fill the pit
The hole within my soul
It grows larger every minute
With nothing left to throw inside
I just feel discontent
Hollow and unhappy in my own skin
Nyx
writing
Dreams
I dream of a world beyond what I see before me
I dream of a world filled with beauty
I dream of a world of peace
Nyx
Exist as I am
It is hard to ignore this loneliness
I feel this need for connection
A connection to someone else
In the meantime I lay here
Listening as the clock keeps ticking
Aware of time that is passing by
Knowing that being here alone is not enough
But accepting it anyway
This is what is best
I will keep trying to be better
I will exist as I am
Nyx
Happily ever after
I try to cherish these moments
These moments of clarity
These moments when I feel ok
This fleeting time has come and gone
The hours and days go faster
All I can do is hope that some day
I will find my happily ever after
Nyx
There is no escaping who you are
What do you do when you want to escape your own skin
What do you do when you are tired of the emptiness
What do you do when your tired of that uneasy feeling
There is no escaping who you are
Nyx
This face
What have I become
Who was I before
I do not recognize
This face I see reflected at me
Maybe I am already
Everything I was meant to be
Nyx
Wishes
There are so many things
That we just do not know
What tomorrow will bring
How today will go
It is comforting to see
That you have each other
I truly want to believe
That we have a destiny
That you were meant to find each other
That things are the way they were meant to be
All I know for sure
Is that I see love in both of your eyes
I wish you nothing but happiness and love
Nyx
Pushed perceptions
Today is another
Day like yesterday
I try to find something
Anything that will make me want to get up
I wish I could just be happy
Instead I just feel lost
I try to think of things in a positive way
I try to think it’s great that I woke up today
But for all the positive quotes I read
All the pushed perceptions that should make this better
I still sit here empty
I still sit here in sorrow
Longing for a life I never had
Nyx
Walk away
My perception sees wrong intention
Is my perception real
Is this sinking feeling justified
Take take take
That’s what I see
She takes takes takes
Until there is only a shell of me
I used to want to give
But sometimes giving is not enough
I realize today
That sometimes the only answer
Is to walk away
Nyx
Will I find myself again
I wake up feeling this tension
It wraps around my heart
I wake up with good intention
But I feel this anxiety
It is there as soon as I wake
Can I get through this day
Without feeling my heart break
Can I get through this day
Feeling better at the end
Will I find myself again
Nyx
