I want to find my home

My whole life I have suffered

When will it end

I am so tired

Of pretending I am ok

I sit here and cry

As another walks away

They come and they go

I throw them out of my life

It is never enough

I need more than they can give

I cannot breathe

As the pain grips my chest

The loneliness a reminder

Of a life lived alone

I just want to find some peace

I want to find my home

Nyx

On my own

I am still floating in the air

I will not know where I am going

Until I get there

What do you do

When the world crashes down

Where do you turn

When no ones around

I keep walking forward

Somehow I do

Some days are so hard

Just to live through

Maybe some day I will find my home

Until then I will continue to walk forward

On my own

Nyx

Hope lies within my dreams 

I am sitting here 

Alone again 

Silent and still 

I wish I could say 

That I am fine 

But I would only be lying 

Let them sleep 

As I bury the pain again

Let the apathy set it 

So I can wake up again tomorrow 

I feel the emptiness fill me 

As I listen to the sounds of the night 

As I embrace the serenity of the darkness 

And find comfort in the stars 

In a few hours a new day will start 

Once again I am reminded 

What being alone means 

I am lost in my own world 

Where hope lies within my dreams 

Nyx 

I’m a dreamer 

With the ups and downs I see

Hills and mountains laid out before me

Here and there I find a path 

Here and there I find a stream 

Every now and then a valley 

Like a story book from a dream

I cherish these moments 

They are rare 

When I suffer I take myself there 

To my valley

By the stream 

Where the grass is high 

Where the water is blue 

In this place I feel 

Like I am home 

In this place I feel 

That there is nothing 

That I cannot overcome 
Nyx

Goodbye to yesterday 

In this life so much is uncertain 

So much is unseen 

There is so much doubt 

One thing I do know 

Is that love is real 

I know it when I look in your eyes

I know it when I hear your voice 

I know it when I feel myself 

Being pulled toward you with a force I can not stop 

A force I can not control 

A force so strong that nothing can keep me from you 

There is no doubt 

There is no fear 

There is only love 

Love that I know will only continue to grow

Night after night 

Year after year 

When my heart races I know yours does the same 

When I am in pain I hear you scream my name 

Because you are my other half

The other side of my soul 

Now I know what it feels like to be whole

Now I know what it feels like to have no doubt or fear 

Because I have found you my love 

Because I have found you my dear 

I will hold your hand in mine as we walk together this way 

Together we step in sync as we say goodbye to yesterday 
Nyx

Alternate Universe

I want to believe that there is an alternate universe

Where pain and suffering do not exist

I want to live in a world

Where people have empathy and love for one another

A world separate from those who hate

A world where peace is all that exists

I am a dreamer so I will dream

That people no longer suffer

That people no longer sustain

The ignorance of those that see them

As so different from themselves

In my universe there is no one standing

Pointing fingers or placing blame

Because we really are no different

Deep down we are all the same

Nyx

My today and my tomorrow

I look at her and feel love bloom in my chest

She is all I will ever need, all I will ever want

With her hand in mine my soul is at rest

With her eyes on me nothing else matters

With her smile I see the sunshine

When she looks at me I know she is mine

She will be my today and my tomorrow

I will wipe away her tears and take away her sorrow

Come with me my love and you will see

What it feels like to be adored by me

Nyx

 

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