Lost 

I question everything 

I question everyone

I don’t know where I am 

I don’t know what I have done

I am lost right now 

My steps have led me astray 

I hope I find my way again today 

Nyx

No one left 

There are some things 

I will never understand 

A love I will never see 

This was never meant for me 

The type of love bonded through blood

This is forever lost 

I fill the void in other ways 

Sometimes it has a cost 

I can fill my mind with wishes 

Dreams and hopes of love 

I can hope that I am guided 

By love shining down from up above 

But at the end of the day the truth is 

There is no one left but me 

Maybe my hardened heart 

Will someday set me free 

Maybe this is the only way 

That I was meant to be 

Nyx

Bleeding inside 

Hopeful for a moment 

Then the pain hit 

I cannot control these emotions 

I wish that I could 

I wish that someone 

Really understood 

How unbearable the pain is 

I sit hear bleeding inside 

Trying to hold on yet again 

I am so tired my friends

I just want it to end 

Nyx

Away from the light

At this moment all I yearn for is death 

All I yearn for is peace 

Peace from the darkness that haunts me 

Peace from the pain

What I would not give for eternal rest 

To not wake up tomorrow 

To not have to pretend 

To just say good bye to yesterday 

And cease to exist today 

All is do is float past you

In this shadow of forgotten dreams 

Where cob webs have formed 

And cracks run through the floor 

The only thing that is solid is the tomb 

This slab of concrete before me 

Closing me in the dark 

The air is pushed out of me 

As the darkness blows out the light 

At this moment my will is gone 

Today I submit to my friend Darkness

He has come for me 

I let him take my hand as we descend 

Further away from the light 

Darkness is my only friend tonight 
Nyx

Help

I feel my body weighed down 

It is so hard to walk 

It is so hard to breathe 

This weight it crushes me 

Weighs me down from the outside in 

At this moment I feel nothing 

I am just pushed down by it all 

Gulping for air 

With no cry for help 

No way to swim 

No way to shout 

This is when I give in 

Leave me where I stand 

As the sun rises

As the sun sets

Darkness stands beside me

Placing bets

Will she join me

Will she walk away

I look at him and see the agony in the dark

I let go of his hand

Not today darkness

Leave me where I stand

Nyx

I long for peace

I sit here and I dream 

About a life without the pain 

On the inside I just scream 

In my chest it is always the same 

The pain stabs through my heart 

It tears right through my soul 

Taking everything that I am 

Until I lose control 

My mind shuts down 

My stomach turns 

As I grow more weary

I am sick of the dark 

I am sick of the dread 

I do not have voices in my head 

I do not have demons clawing at me 

What I have is only 

Complete and total agony 

On the inside I scream 

With each heartbeat 

With each breath 

I long for peace 

I long for rest 
Nyx

I wish for peace tonight 

The loneliness grips my beating heart 

It crushes my chest 

It rips me apart 

When I sit still it all comes back 

All the pain 

All the heartache 

Everything that has been done

Everything that I wish I did 

Sometimes I wish I could delete my mind 

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time 

But most of the time I just want to escape it 

Sit still and alone and not have to take it

Without a distraction all I feel is agony 

Without a distraction all I see is darkness 

At this moment I just wish I was not me 

At this moment I would give anything for the light 

Just a break from the pain

I wish for peace tonight 

Nyx 

Fade Away

I am so lost and alone

I want to fade away into nothing

I want to stop existing

Feel no pain

Have no thought

Just a shadow 

Lost forever in the dark

Take all that I have

Take all that I was

I no longer care

Crush out the spark

Crush out my hope

Crush my dreams

Just let me go

Give me peace

I want to feel my breath grow shallow

I want to feel my body drift away

Even my love does not see

That there is nothing left of me

When one can sleep so soundly

While the other suffers so

It makes me want to tell darkness

To just take the spark, blow it out, and let me go

Nyx