Life is not a straight path
Within moments everything can change
Within a conversation
Within a glance
Within the choice to speak or remain silent
Your path will follow those actions
Without your control
You have to accept it
We have to see
That every decision we make
Leads us to our destiny
Nyx
I breathe in the air
Tell myself to let go
I try to will the anxiety away
I need to stay focused
I need to find my way
I can not give up
I will try again
To pull myself through
I need to find strength in myself
I need to find it deep inside
Because I have nothing left to fear
Because I have nothing to hide
I just have to keep breathing
Until I find the path again
Then I will walk forward
I will find the light
Every day I remember
Every day I will fight
Nyx
At this moment
The agony grips my chest
I woke with hope today
Then it went away
Why do I continue to breathe
Why do I stay
On the inside
I feel myself decay
I feel myself dying slowly
Every single day
I try to fight it
I try to smile
But sometimes I just can not do it anymore
I shield myself in darkness
Hoping for some peace
Only to find the agony
That never goes away
This is what I feel today
Nyx
“However difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.”
Stephen Hawking
You cannot break me
I am still fighting for peace
Sia
I cry everyday
Nothing keeps the pain away
As soon as I am alone
It hits me hard
I feel so broken
I feel so lost
Every day I live
I feel the cost
I feel myself grow weary
I feel the drain
All I feel is agony
It is always the same
I do not know what to do
To make it go away
All I have ever done
Is feel it everyday
I would give anything
To make the pain stop
I do not know how much longer
I can live this way
For now I sit here
Trying to make it through another day
Nyx
There is no rhyme or reason
For the way I feel
All that I can say
Is that the agony is real
It comes in waves
This feeling of despair
Sometimes it hits me hard
Then it is not there
This feeling slowly wears me down
As the days pass by
It wears me down so much
That all I can do is cry
As strong as I try to be
It never defeats the agony
But here I am once again
Pulling myself up
Making myself stand
It is all that I can do
It is all that I have ever done
I will not stop
Until I have won
Nyx
I do not want to think
About the things I could regret
I do not want to know
Anything right now
I just want to escape
All the things you create
These images in my mind
The ones that take me back in time
I have nothing to say
I have nothing to give
I do not know where I am going
I forget where I have been
All I can think right now is
I just want to live
Nyx
Everyday I fight
I put one foot in front of the other
Some days I fall
Others I keep walking
I try not to think
About what has happened before
When I think about my past
I open a door
Within it is this person
So lonely and so still
She sits there in silence
Broken with no will
This is something I strive not to be
This image that is broken in front of me
There is more to life than this
There is more to live for
There is more to see
I just have to once again remind myself
All I have to do
Is believe in me
Nyx
