Within moments

Life is not a straight path

Within moments everything can change

Within a conversation

Within a glance

Within the choice to speak or remain silent

Your path will follow those actions

Without your control

You have to accept it

We have to see

That every decision we make

Leads us to our destiny

Nyx

Everyday I will fight

I breathe in the air

Tell myself to let go

I try to will the anxiety away

I need to stay focused

I need to find my way

I can not give up

I will try again

To pull myself through

I need to find strength in myself

I need to find it deep inside

Because I have nothing left to fear

Because I have nothing to hide

I just have to keep breathing

Until I find the path again

Then I will walk forward

I will find the light

Every day I remember

Every day I will fight

Nyx

What I feel today

At this moment

The agony grips my chest

I woke with hope today

Then it went away

Why do I continue to breathe

Why do I stay

On the inside

I feel myself decay

I feel myself dying slowly

Every single day

I try to fight it

I try to smile

But sometimes I just can not do it anymore

I shield myself in darkness

Hoping for some peace

Only to find the agony

That never goes away

This is what I feel today

Nyx

Wise words

“However difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.”

Stephen Hawking

Another day

I cry everyday

Nothing keeps the pain away

As soon as I am alone

It hits me hard

I feel so broken

I feel so lost

Every day I live

I feel the cost

I feel myself grow weary

I feel the drain

All I feel is agony

It is always the same

I do not know what to do

To make it go away

All I have ever done

Is feel it everyday

I would give anything

To make the pain stop

I do not know how much longer

I can live this way

For now I sit here

Trying to make it through another day

Nyx

I will not stop

There is no rhyme or reason

For the way I feel

All that I can say

Is that the agony is real

It comes in waves

This feeling of despair

Sometimes it hits me hard

Then it is not there

This feeling slowly wears me down

As the days pass by

It wears me down so much

That all I can do is cry

As strong as I try to be

It never defeats the agony

But here I am once again

Pulling myself up

Making myself stand

It is all that I can do

It is all that I have ever done

I will not stop

Until I have won

Nyx

I just want to live

I do not want to think

About the things I could regret

I do not want to know

Anything right now

I just want to escape

All the things you create

These images in my mind

The ones that take me back in time

I have nothing to say

I have nothing to give

I do not know where I am going

I forget where I have been

All I can think right now is

I just want to live

Nyx

Believe

Everyday I fight

I put one foot in front of the other

Some days I fall

Others I keep walking

I try not to think

About what has happened before

When I think about my past

I open a door

Within it is this person

So lonely and so still

She sits there in silence

Broken with no will

This is something I strive not to be

This image that is broken in front of me

There is more to life than this

There is more to live for

There is more to see

I just have to once again remind myself

All I have to do

Is believe in me

Nyx