I exist
As a shadow
I float through the world
They hear my voice
But I do not let them see through the smoke
As I flow through the air
Because I know that I can switch it off
And no longer care
A blessing and a curse
Forward than reverse
I long to be whole
But maybe this will never be
All I can do is hope
Nyx
I barely make it through
Everything that I do
No matter what I have done
I have yet to feel the sun
It does not shine upon my face
There is no warm welcoming embrace
As I find myself here
There is no one near
No one to wipe away my tears
No one to soothe me
No one to shield me from my fears
So, I just fall
Further into the dark
I see nothing in this place
So, I close my eyes
And let go
Nyx
I would rather suffer
In any other way
Then feel the things I feel
Every single day
It does not stop this cycle
Will it ever end
When will I find peace
When will I no longer
Need to pretend
Nyx
Tomorrow the sun will rise
As I close my eyes
I see the world turn black
Sometimes I want to stay this way
Keep them closed forever
There are a few things that keep me here
So I will open them again tomorrow
Push past the sorrow
And walk out the door
Not for me but for them
I will fight until the end
Nyx
She exists alone again
There is no one there
To hold her hand
She seeks peace within herself
Because she has no choice
Forward she walks
Into the unknown
Somber still
Without a home
Nyx
As she walks away
The grass dies beneath her feet
The trees are blown from sight
The clouds they turn to grey
As the storm comes
She looks to the sky
As the rain falls
She closes her eyes
For just a moment she feels peace
Nyx
In the end I see
There will be no one beside me
I have to make myself believe
That I will be alright someday
That somehow I can make myself
Shut it down again
All the pain inside
I have to make it stop
Nyx
He made me cry
Before I said goodbye
There is no perfect mix
No one who can see
Who I really am
Who I strive to be
I exist and yet I do not
All my life I have fought
To find the balance that I need
In order to push myself
I need to believe
That someday I will find
The one thing that I need
Someone beside me
As I walk through the storm
Arms to embrace me
When I need it the most
I will find you
This I know is true
I will not stop
Until I do
Nyx
What do I want
Which path do I choose
How will I know
Whether I will win or lose
I fight but I do not know
Whether my feet will hit the ground
Will I stand
Or will I fall
Nyx
