My land of make believe 

I feel this weight crushing me 

I can no longer breathe

I want to stay in my land of make believe 

Where everything is how I want it to be

I want to be with the one who loves me 

In a world we have created 

In a world we will remain 

Keeping my mind in this place 

Is the only thing that keeps me sane 

When I blink 

I listen as you breathe beside me

Trying to keep myself awake 

Telling myself I can do this without you

Knowing deep down that I cannot 

I listen as the cars pass below 

Staring out through the window 

Telling myself things will get better 

Knowing deep down that they won’t 

I see happiness beside me 

But when I blink it will be gone 

The irony of life is that 

When you are ready

It won’t let you move on 

Nyx 

Where I belong 

My love lays next to me 

I look at him and see 

Everything that matters 

Everything that is real 

My world has been found 

As I listen to the sound of his voice 

As I see the look of love in his eyes 

I don’t remember who I was 

I do know who I am 

I know where I belong 

In his arms where I should have been all along 

When you took my heart

Maybe we were created 

Maybe we do have souls 

Maybe something split us in half 

All I know for sure 

Is that my love for you is real 

That the pull only continues to grow 

That when I feel my heart slow 

I know that yours does the same 

This was never going to be easy 

This we knew from the start 

But I knew it was more than worth it 

When you took my heart 

Through the door

I sit here feeling my chest cave in
Wondering why everything is a fight
When I think it will begin
When I know that something is right
The door is slammed in my face
Why can’t I just erase
The things that keep me from you
Why can’t I just escape from this cage
What else do I need to go through
To get through the door
What else do I need to go through
To get to you

Nyx

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Two shattered stars 

Something is happening 

I have no control 

I am no longer me

I am so much more

I am part of something so much better 

Part of something that I feel so strongly 

Something I will never walk away from 

Something I will never not see 

It is so clear this feeling 

It is so clear to me

This pull, this need 

I need you like I need air 

And no matter what happens 

I swear I will always be there 

Nothing could ever take me away from you 

We were never meant to be separate 

We were always meant to be one 

We were two shattered stars 

Now we are the sun 

Haze of love

In this haze of love 

I see colors clearly

I see beauty in everything

I see beauty in him 

I can’t wait to walk the world together 

I can’t wait to walk down the aisle to him

I can’t wait for my together forever to begin

My love waits for the sunrise

I no longer see the world
The way I saw it before
I no longer see anything
In black and grey
Now all I see is color
As I wait for the day
My love is not with me
When I shut my eyes
My love waits for me with the sunrise
I no longer see the world
And long for something more
I have finally found what I was looking for

Nyx

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The power you keep

You hold my heart in your hands

This is uncharted and unknown for me

I am venturing through something

I have never felt before

More attached than I have ever been

More vulnerable than I want to be

But you are the only person

Who has ever really seen me

You can see the layers beneath my skin

Even the ones covered with the filth of sin

You can see the hope in my eyes

Even in a world that is filled with lies

So I beg you now as I plead

Please do not drop my heart

Please do not let me bleed

Please do not destroy me

That is the power you hold

Because I am in too deep

My heart is in your hands

This is the power you keep