Today I try to be grateful
For how far I have come
But life does take a toll
After so many battles fought
Some I have lost
Some I have won
All I can do is hope
That there is something beyond this life
All I can do is feel love
For the things that I do have
As long as there is love
Everything is worth the cost
In the end I see
Clear blue skies await me
With every rising sun
As a new day has begun
I have hope in my heart
Hope I did not have before
After every battle I have fought and won
Finally peace finds me with the dawn of this new sun
Nyx
“Hello Darkness my old friend
It’s nice to see you again”
“My sweet girl why are you so restless?
Can’t find that peace you still seek?
Can’t find an ear to listen to the screams?
Well here I am my dear
I will listen as you scream in pain
Then I will take you with me
I will lay my claim
In the end it will be the same
This is how it must be
Some day soon you will see
It has always been me
I am your true friend
I will show you how your life will end
Take my hand my dear”
I take his hand
“I know darkness
You are always right
Once again you are my only friend tonight”
Together we descend
Will I find the peace I seek
I have hope in my heart tonight
I lay here in the dark
Under the glow of the stars
The minutes tick by
They become hours
There is peace in the silence, I feel it
I will live in this moment
These fleeting moments I must treasure
This is all I know
It has taken so long to feel this peace
I hope when the sun rises
My dreams will be real
Nyx
Today I felt it all
I shared my tale
Of heartbreak and pain
But I also told them
What it is I fight for
Why I am still here
I have a purpose in this life
That is why I have to live it
Even though I have fallen
Many times before
Even though I will fall again
This i am sure
I will always get back up
Because they need me here
They need someone who can stand up
And take away their fear
They need someone who understands
They need someone to listen
I will be what I need to be for them
That is why I exist
That is who I am
Nyx
I used to think that love was the only way
To lead me to my home
But now I feel myself drifting slowly
I do not feel the pull
I have found a way
To walk this world alone
I still feel tinges of the pain
The scars still tear away
And the blood still bleeds through
But I have found a way
To stop searching for you
Nyx
Today I rise with hope
Hoping things will stay this way
Hoping that this time
I will have a hand to hold
There is so much more to me
Then one story to be told
There are many layers
Many scars beneath my skin
If you want to know who I am
The story starts within
I am shaped from betrayal
Pain and many lies
Shaped by those who have come and gone
With no need for goodbyes
If you look at me
I will show you what lies beneath
But only if you take my hand
And wander with me today
Only if you take my hand
And accept me as I am
Broken but still breathing
Mended here and there
I have dreams that keep me going
When it hurts I take myself there
To another place and time
That exists inside my mind
Come with me and you will see
All that is left of me
Nyx
Deep within my soul
I know there are pieces left
Parts that will one day make me whole
Someday you will see
That there is so much more to me
Then the girl who walked away
There is so much more to me
Than just one story to be told
One day when I walk the earth
There will be others behind me
I will show them the way
I will show them where there is land
A place for all of us
It exists inside my heart
It is the home of the forgotten
The ones who were once lost
The ones that thought they were dammed
All they needed was compassion
I give to all of you my hand
With all my love,
Nyx
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
Disclaimer
I appreciate all of my friends here. Thank you for all your kind words, all your support. It means more to me than you could ever know. 💕
Like a moth to a flame
I fear it will always be the same
I feel my skin as it burns
I watch the world as it turns
It fades from white to black
So quickly the flames grow
Consuming me completely
I have never felt pain so deeply
Then I let myself go
Falling further and further
Down below
Inside the ground
This is where my peace is found
Disclaimer- this is not about dying. It is about letting go, and extinguishing the flame with the earth below.
Peace and Love,
Nyx
