Today I question
Everything and everyone
Who am I
Who have I become
I feel so weary
As the anxiety
Brings me down
I feel so lost
I do not want to be found
I do not want to be consumed
By the pain that loneliness brings
By the fire that burns in my chest
I just want peace
I just want to rest
Nyx
I will not look behind me
I must be here today
I need to let go
Of the sorrows from yesterday
Because this is what must be done
Because this is what I do
Every day I rise
Trying to forget you
You are one of many
That I have to let go
My heart no longer aches
From the sorrow that you bring
The pain subsides
As I start to sing
This is what I must do
Walk away from you
Nyx
As I walk along the path
I listen as he speaks
Another person comes and goes
I had a few moments of peace
Before I realized once again
I haven’t found the one
I must continue to protect myself
As weary as I am
I must push myself to wake up
I must make myself stand
Nyx
As the sun sets
I feel some peace
At last
How I wish that it would stay
When the sun shines I feel the panic
My heart starts to race
These feelings I cannot control
These feelings I cannot face
What do you do
When you can no longer run
You have to look back and see
Everything you have done
Watch yourself as you fell
Into the depths of hell
I am so grateful for this moment
This moment of peace
Nyx
In my mind I see
No clear path before me
I push forward
Every day
Hoping I will find the way
Hoping that the emptiness will subside
Hoping that the pain will stop
I try to live in each moment
With hope in my heart
That I will find the peace I seek
That I will find my home
Nyx
I feel the tall grass between my fingers
As I walk along the path
My heartache lingers
As I realize I can never turn back
I see the stream as it flows forward
Centering myself today
I have to live in the moment
I have to keep myself calm
It is the only way
That I can move on
Nyx
As the leaves fall around me
I see the beauty in the changing season
Sometimes there is no need to reason
Everything that people do
I try to remember that when I feel pain
I have to look inside myself again
Find the inner beauty of who I am
As I find the ground
I need to walk on again
Nyx
Sometimes I see flashes
Memories from before
I see where I have been
I see what I have done
I do not want to see
These things that haunt me
All I want is peace
I want to breathe again
Hopefully I will find it soon
Before I lose the light from the moon
I just need to find the way
Before the moon is gone
Before the morning comes
With the rising sun
Nyx
As I walk through the trees
I feel the breeze
It is all I have to calm me
In this moment as I grieve
For the wishes and dreams I did not receive
For the ashes of what once was
For the memories that you gave me
For the days that I have wept
For something that was never real
There is no one that can save me
From the fall that has begun
There is no one that can reverse
All the damage you have done
As the anger subsides
I find my resolve
You are just another puzzle
I was meant to solve
Nyx
In my mind I see fields
Filled with flowers of color
Filled with grass so green
I feel the breeze
Sweep across my face
Peace fills me in this place
I see myself as beautiful
As I walk slowly
Moving with grace
This is how I want to see myself
Smiling in this field
Forever feeling the breeze
This is my escape
This is my home
Nyx
