I do not walk alone

All this time I thought I was walking alone

I was wrong

There has always been a presence beside me

This presence that is trying to guide me

Guide me towards my purpose

Guide me towards peace

There is a purpose for this pain

I am reassured by this

In everything that I do

Sometimes I have to listen

Sometimes I have to see

Sometimes I have to feel

Sometimes it is just a thought

I always find the answer

I always find a way

Because my guide is beside me

Every single day

Nyx

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Facing fear

This was the first year of my life

That I stopped the cycle

The cycle that led me back

To the high of the chase

Then the low from the agony

There has been a void

That my mind used to fill

I have lived this year

Facing the thing I fear the most

I am alone

Nyx

Seconds that speed away

I just want to escape

Leave this pain behind

Leave this world behind

The sadness has passed

Now I am numb

Dead inside

Staying where no one can see me

Aware of how quickly the seconds go

Aware that soon my time will be over

This time that continues to speed away

All I can do is hope

That pain does not follow me after this life

Nyx

A warrior with a voice

I feel pride in how far I have come

I have fell down more times than I can count

But I do get up eventually, and after every fall

I remember who I am now

What I have grown into

A warrior with a voice so loud and clear

That people listen now

A voice so loud and clear

That strength and passion flows through me

Maybe someday I will get to where I need to be

As long as I keep getting up I believe I will succeed

Nyx

Faith

Uncertainty ruled my thoughts today

But self reflection guided me

Onto a better path

It showed me what I needed to see

There is no certainty in the steps we take in life

But there is faith in a future that can be bright

Nyx

Love

Today I try to be grateful

For how far I have come

But life does take a toll

After so many battles fought

Some I have lost

Some I have won

All I can do is hope

That there is something beyond this life

All I can do is feel love

For the things that I do have

As long as there is love

Everything is worth the cost

Nyx

The rising sun

In the end I see

Clear blue skies await me

With every rising sun

As a new day has begun

I have hope in my heart 

Hope I did not have before

After every battle I have fought and won

Finally peace finds me with the dawn of this new sun

Nyx

Dialogue with my friend darkness

“Hello Darkness my old friend

It’s nice to see you again”

“My sweet girl why are you so restless?

Can’t find that peace you still seek?

Can’t find an ear to listen to the screams?

Well here I am my dear

I will listen as you scream in pain

Then I will take you with me

I will lay my claim

In the end it will be the same

This is how it must be

Some day soon you will see

It has always been me

I am your true friend

I will show you how your life will end

Take my hand my dear”

I take his hand

“I know darkness

You are always right

Once again you are my only friend tonight”

Together we descend

Dreams of peace

Will I find the peace I seek

I have hope in my heart tonight

I lay here in the dark

Under the glow of the stars

The minutes tick by

They become hours

There is peace in the silence, I feel it

I will live in this moment

These fleeting moments I must treasure

This is all I know

It has taken so long to feel this peace

I hope when the sun rises

My dreams will be real

Nyx