When the walls cave in on me
When it is too dark to see
I feel the anger beneath my skin
It is part of the darkness buried within
The rage pushes me forward
It gives me strength
I have reached a path
A path of no return
If you are in my gaze
You will burn
I have become a predator
All that I have seen
All that I have done
It has made me into what I am
A lion who fears no one
Nyx
As my world spins and spins around me
My thoughts a shattered mess
I stop to think to myself
When is the next test
Waiting for the next battle
Never resting
Never slowing down
Feeling chained and completely bound
I only feel peace
When I listen to the sound
The music soothes my ranting mind
When I am chained and completely bound
By everything that crashes through my head
When I think to myself I’d be better off dead
When I want to be surrounded by nothing
I find the one thing that makes me feel human
The one thing that is always there
Peace is what I find
When music soothes my mind
Nyx
Through the ups and downs I see
A bright light before me
A light that beckons me to follow
It is there no matter how far I have fallen
It is there no matter where I go
I know it will still exist
This light is there
Even as I fall
Into the depths of hell
Under the tides of the sea
Under the covers at night
With my eyes closed tight
I can still see the light
Nyx
Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half
Someone comes along and points you towards a new path
Sometimes doors do open
When they were shut before
Sometimes you can find someone
That you completely adore
When you feel like everything is caving in
Sometimes a hand breaks through
Holds on and pulls you out into the light
If this happens do not let go
True kindness and empathy is the best gift given
If we all gave more of this
This world would be a better place
Every word of empathy and kindness
Strengthens us as a whole
Because deep down we are the same
We are all connected
Regardless of mind and body
Everyone has a soul
Nyx
I write these lines to my guardians
For the people who saved my life
I will never forget you
I owe my strength
I owe my hope in humanity
To each and every one of you
To those who have fought for me
For those who stood beside a lost child
For those who showed me empathy
I will never forget you
In my heart you will always have a place
Each and every one of you
I will never forget your face
You have made me want to believe
That angels do exist in this life
For the few who fight for what is right
You are my guardians of the night
Nyx
With the ups and downs I see
Hills and mountains laid out before me
Here and there I find a path
Here and there I find a stream
Every now and then a valley
Like a story book from a dream
I cherish these moments
They are rare
When I suffer I take myself there
To my valley
By the stream
Where the grass is high
Where the water is blue
In this place I feel
Like I am home
In this place I feel
That there is nothing
That I cannot overcome
Nyx
Sometimes I think that I am beaten
Sometimes I think that I am done
That is when I stop and remember
Everything that you have done
These actions drive me forward
These memories that you made
You were the one I trusted
My life was in your hands
Everything I did to make you proud of me
Everything I did I wanted you to see
I was your daughter
I was the one you were supposed to protect
Instead all you did was lie to me
Confuse me with truths mixed with lies
Until all I wanted was to escape you
Everything I have done
Is a result of what you did
Everything I do
Is a fight to beat you
You are the reason I am who I am
Yet you are the reason I still breathe
You are the reason I stand
Well dear father someday you will see
What you created
What you made
Someday you will see
That you will never beat me
I may be bruised
My bones may break
I may wake up everyday and suffer
From eternal heartache
But when all is lost I see what you have done
This is what drives me forward
This is what makes me carry on
I will fight for those born to suffer
What you have put me through
I will fight through the pain
I will fight because I have no choice
There was no turning back when I broke the silence
There was no turning back when I used my voice
Nyx
I feel the ocean pull me
It is like a beacon of light
I feel the energy surround me
It is so powerful
It is so strong
It is here in this moment
With my feet in the sand
This is where I belong
Nyx
In this life so much is uncertain
So much is unseen
There is so much doubt
One thing I do know
Is that love is real
I know it when I look in your eyes
I know it when I hear your voice
I know it when I feel myself
Being pulled toward you with a force I can not stop
A force I can not control
A force so strong that nothing can keep me from you
There is no doubt
There is no fear
There is only love
Love that I know will only continue to grow
Night after night
Year after year
When my heart races I know yours does the same
When I am in pain I hear you scream my name
Because you are my other half
The other side of my soul
Now I know what it feels like to be whole
Now I know what it feels like to have no doubt or fear
Because I have found you my love
Because I have found you my dear
I will hold your hand in mine as we walk together this way
Together we step in sync as we say goodbye to yesterday
Nyx
Once again I rise with hope in my heart
That today will be better than yesterday
That I will not fall into despair
That I will not long for sleep
That I will not pray for peace
I may be lost
I may be broken
I may have lost the words to say
Words I have already spoken
Yet I am still here
I am still here breathing
I am still here fighting
I have risen again my friend
I will fight until I exhale my last breath
I will fight until there is nothing left
Nyx
