Still as stone

I stand alone in the valley

Still as stone I wait

I hear the footsteps

I know it is too late

I brace myself

Listening as he comes closer

I am ready

Nyx

For the ashes of what once was 

As I walk through the trees 

I feel the breeze 

It is all I have to calm me 

In this moment as I grieve 

For the wishes and dreams I did not receive 

For the ashes of what once was 

For the memories that you gave me 

For the days that I have wept 

For something that was never real

There is no one that can save me 

From the fall that has begun 

There is no one that can reverse 

All the damage you have done 

As the anger subsides 

I find my resolve 

You are just another puzzle 

I was meant to solve 

Nyx

Anxiety 

I try not to worry about tomorrow 

I try not to worry about yesterday 

Somehow this doesn’t matter 

No matter what I tell myself 

No matter what you say to me 

Anxiety, It takes away the words you say

It takes away my rational mind 

Until there is nothing left 

But this electricity is wired around me 

It is my bind

If only I could find a way to escape it 

Before I completely lose my mind 

Everything is worse to me than it seems

But maybe I can rest again in my dreams 

Nyx

I will win again today 

When I feel defeated

When I want to stay down 

I find the anger 

I find it somehow 

I remember what they have done 

This is why I fight 

This is why I have to will myself to move 

This is why I strive to be better 

Every single day 

This is how I find the strength to tell you 

That I will win again today

Nyx

Time to feel

We are only a moment

But while we are here 

I will love you my dear 

With all that I am 

With all that I will ever be 

With the best and the worst

Parts of what is left of me 

I will allow myself this time to feel 

To let myself believe that true love is real 

Nyx

Within my dream

I see what he has done 

I see the grass that has grown brown 

I see the trees wither and die around me

I see the sky fade into grey 

I walk away from the dark  

With every tear I shed 

With every sting that this nightmare brings 

I push forward 

And as I go 

I will my heartbeat to slow 

I will my sorrow away 

I take a seed and plant it 

With my love I know it will grow 

Someday I will see the trees again 

Someday I will see the green 

Someday the sky will shine with color 

Beauty will not be forgotten 

It will be seen 

I will live my life again 

I will live within my dream 

Nyx

Finding myself again

When all is lost I look inward 

Finding myself again 

Nothing has gone as planned 

Yet I still stand 

With my head high 

As the world looks smaller below 

I look to the sky 

Nyx

Blue skies 

The demon I know 

Or the unknown 

There is no clear path shown 

I wander away from the demon

Fighting through the trees 

I hope I find blue skies today 

As I continue to walk away 

Nyx

Break through

Once again I am given clarity 

When I break through the pain 

I am grateful for these moments 

These moments I can see

Just how strong I really am 

When I look at what is in front of me

I prepare myself once more 

There is a tally I have taken 

I know the score 

I may have been torn down 

I may have felt broken 

I no longer feel fear 

I no longer hold my head down 

I always win you see 

Every battle that awaits 

No matter what it takes 

I will win 

Nyx