Drifting

I sit here and slip away

My body shuts down

I am lost

But I want to be found

I am reaching out for help today

It is like I am looking back

Yet here I am in the present

This haze of a person with no core self

Please someone help me

Please hold my hand

Please give me the strength

Please give me the foundation

To find the ground

To stop falling

To stand

Nyx

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Which path

What do I want

Which path do I choose

How will I know

Whether I will win or lose

I fight but I do not know

Whether my feet will hit the ground

Will I stand

Or will I fall

Nyx

Hope

In my mind I see

No clear path before me

I push forward

Every day

Hoping I will find the way

Hoping that the emptiness will subside

Hoping that the pain will stop

I try to live in each moment

With hope in my heart

That I will find the peace I seek

That I will find my home

Nyx

Believe

Everyday I fight

I put one foot in front of the other

Some days I fall

Others I keep walking

I try not to think

About what has happened before

When I think about my past

I open a door

Within it is this person

So lonely and so still

She sits there in silence

Broken with no will

This is something I strive not to be

This image that is broken in front of me

There is more to life than this

There is more to live for

There is more to see

I just have to once again remind myself

All I have to do

Is believe in me

Nyx

What am I looking for

As another door closes

I look out to the sea

What am I looking for

What will set me free

Nyx

My next journey

I reflect upon my mind

I am guided into a path

It plunges into shadow

Then slowly guides me into the light

When I am brought into moments

Of complete despair

I remember the strength I have

I regain a feeling of hope

I embark on my journey

My next journey through life

I will find a way

Because this is what I do

I survive

Nyx

Still as stone

I stand alone in the valley

Still as stone I wait

I hear the footsteps

I know it is too late

I brace myself

Listening as he comes closer

I am ready

Nyx

For the ashes of what once was 

As I walk through the trees 

I feel the breeze 

It is all I have to calm me 

In this moment as I grieve 

For the wishes and dreams I did not receive 

For the ashes of what once was 

For the memories that you gave me 

For the days that I have wept 

For something that was never real

There is no one that can save me 

From the fall that has begun 

There is no one that can reverse 

All the damage you have done 

As the anger subsides 

I find my resolve 

You are just another puzzle 

I was meant to solve 

Nyx

Anxiety 

I try not to worry about tomorrow 

I try not to worry about yesterday 

Somehow this doesn’t matter 

No matter what I tell myself 

No matter what you say to me 

Anxiety, It takes away the words you say

It takes away my rational mind 

Until there is nothing left 

But this electricity is wired around me 

It is my bind

If only I could find a way to escape it 

Before I completely lose my mind 

Everything is worse to me than it seems

But maybe I can rest again in my dreams 

Nyx

I will win again today 

When I feel defeated

When I want to stay down 

I find the anger 

I find it somehow 

I remember what they have done 

This is why I fight 

This is why I have to will myself to move 

This is why I strive to be better 

Every single day 

This is how I find the strength to tell you 

That I will win again today

Nyx