I would rather suffer
In any other way
Then feel the things I feel
Every single day
It does not stop this cycle
Will it ever end
When will I find peace
When will I no longer
Need to pretend
Nyx
dreams
I want to find my home
My whole life I have suffered
When will it end
I am so tired
Of pretending I am ok
I sit here and cry
As another walks away
They come and they go
I throw them out of my life
It is never enough
I need more than they can give
I cannot breathe
As the pain grips my chest
The loneliness a reminder
Of a life lived alone
I just want to find some peace
I want to find my home
Nyx
Within moments
Life is not a straight path
Within moments everything can change
Within a conversation
Within a glance
Within the choice to speak or remain silent
Your path will follow those actions
Without your control
You have to accept it
We have to see
That every decision we make
Leads us to our destiny
Nyx
This world inside my dream
Today I see the sun
It shines through the trees
I watch as the leaves fall
I feel the breeze
I try to find within myself
The strength I know is there
I want to find my home
In my mind I take myself there
To another place and time
To this world inside my mind
To this world that is my dream
Not today not tomorrow
It’s somewhere lost you see
Maybe someday I will find
The path that leads me to my destiny
Nyx
Hope
In my mind I see
No clear path before me
I push forward
Every day
Hoping I will find the way
Hoping that the emptiness will subside
Hoping that the pain will stop
I try to live in each moment
With hope in my heart
That I will find the peace I seek
That I will find my home
Nyx
On my own
I am still floating in the air
I will not know where I am going
Until I get there
What do you do
When the world crashes down
Where do you turn
When no ones around
I keep walking forward
Somehow I do
Some days are so hard
Just to live through
Maybe some day I will find my home
Until then I will continue to walk forward
On my own
Nyx
New beginnings
Things are changing
Once again
I found an end
As a new beginning starts
A new path has cleared
With all the things I have fought
And everything I have feared
I make myself walk forward
Because it is what I do
I adapt because I can
This is who I am
Nyx
Because of you
I have lost faith in the world
Because of you
I believe in nothing
Because of you
You had a mouth full of promises
But a pocket full of secrets
All the lies that you told me
All the things that I did not see
They almost caused my demise
Why couldn’t I see it in your eyes
Why couldn’t I see the lies
Maybe my heart will beat again someday
It does not beat today
Nyx
Disclaimer
This was inspired from the song mouthful of diamonds from the band phantogram.
Great song.
What am I looking for
As another door closes
I look out to the sea
What am I looking for
What will set me free
Nyx
Memories of you and I
I see the bridge
So beautiful
So bright
I see the lights
Reflect off the water
As the day
Turns into night
I see the clouds fade away
And the stars start to shine
This is when I remember
When I was yours and you were mine
This is when I lose myself
In this memory, in this time
As I stare at the beauty
At everything I see
I realize that somethings remain
And one of them is this bridge
These stars
And the memories I have of you and I
This is when I let myself break down
This is when I cry
Nyx
