My forever 

In my mind I see fields 

Filled with flowers of color 

Filled with grass so green 

I feel the breeze

Sweep across my face 

Peace fills me in this place 

I see myself as beautiful 

As I walk slowly 

Moving with grace 

This is how I want to see myself 

Smiling in this field 

Forever feeling the breeze 

This is my escape 

This is my home 

Nyx

Loving you

When I heard you say your name 

I knew I would never be the same 

Something changed in me that day 

That interest grew with words you said 

Dreams were formed inside my head

Then I felt the pull 

Then I felt your skin

I knew then that I was lost 

I gave you my heart that day 

You took it when I saw your eyes 

When the force made me look into them 

You took it when you did not leave 

You never faltered 

You never swayed 

You believed in me 

And I know that you still do 

This is why I know 

I will never stop loving you 

Because there is nothing 

That your love for me 

Will not carry me through 

Nyx

Finding balance and strength 

I hear the sound of the world outside 

As I try to find balance in my life 

I have always struggled to get by 

I have never stopped asking myself why 

I have made the decisions I have so far 

Then I reflect and tell myself 

This is who you are 

With every step forward 

And every step back 

I try to fill the pieces 

That have chipped away 

I push myself again today

To find the balance and the strength 

That I need to succeed 

Nyx

Finding myself again

When all is lost I look inward 

Finding myself again 

Nothing has gone as planned 

Yet I still stand 

With my head high 

As the world looks smaller below 

I look to the sky 

Nyx

Untainted love

I question so many things 

But I do not question you 

You have stayed beside me 

Through the good days and the bad 

You have watched me crumble 

You have watched me fall 

You stood beside me through it all 

I have watched many come and go 

I have learned to rely on no one 

Yet in your eyes I see 

Something I have not seen before 

A love untainted and so sure 

I hope I can be this beauty you see forever 

I hope I can hold this strength to go on

I hope I am what you were looking for 

I hope I remain this person that you adore 

I hope I give you everything

That you give me and more 

Nyx

In a million ways 

My darling 

I just want you to know 

That for a million days 

In a million ways 

My love for you will only continue to grow 

You have become my sunshine 

After the storm

You have become my moonlight 

Showing me the way each night

You have become my peace 

When everything spins out of control 

You have become my everything 

You are the other half of my soul

Nyx 

In your arms 

I lay here wishing I could be 

In your arms my love 

Forever wrapped around each other 

With nights filled with kisses 

And the warmth of your embrace 

When I look in your eyes

I see your love reflect back upon my face 

My love I am so grateful 

Every time I look in your eyes

Every time I feel your arms around me 

Every time you see the pain 

And softly speak my name 

I will keep on wishing 

Until you come back to me 

In your arms is the only place 

I ever long to be 

Nyx

Hoping I make it back to you

Life is an endless array of obstacles

This I know is true

All I do is bear it and keep going

All I do is hope I make it through

These obstacles block the way home

They make me crawl inside myself

Longing to be alone

I always see them coming

These obstacles you see

I brace myself hoping I am wrong

Then I realize I cannot change what is coming

It is my destiny

My fate

There is nothing I can do

It is always too late

It seems some things have been decided

But maybe this is untrue

All I can do is keep moving forward

Hoping I make it back to you

Nyx