Need to pretend

I would rather suffer

In any other way

Then feel the things I feel

Every single day

It does not stop this cycle

Will it ever end

When will I find peace

When will I no longer

Need to pretend

Nyx

I want to find my home

My whole life I have suffered

When will it end

I am so tired

Of pretending I am ok

I sit here and cry

As another walks away

They come and they go

I throw them out of my life

It is never enough

I need more than they can give

I cannot breathe

As the pain grips my chest

The loneliness a reminder

Of a life lived alone

I just want to find some peace

I want to find my home

Nyx

Within moments

Life is not a straight path

Within moments everything can change

Within a conversation

Within a glance

Within the choice to speak or remain silent

Your path will follow those actions

Without your control

You have to accept it

We have to see

That every decision we make

Leads us to our destiny

Nyx

This world inside my dream

Today I see the sun

It shines through the trees

I watch as the leaves fall

I feel the breeze

I try to find within myself

The strength I know is there

I want to find my home

In my mind I take myself there

To another place and time

To this world inside my mind

To this world that is my dream

Not today not tomorrow

It’s somewhere lost you see

Maybe someday I will find

The path that leads me to my destiny

Nyx

Hope

In my mind I see

No clear path before me

I push forward

Every day

Hoping I will find the way

Hoping that the emptiness will subside

Hoping that the pain will stop

I try to live in each moment

With hope in my heart

That I will find the peace I seek

That I will find my home

Nyx

On my own

I am still floating in the air

I will not know where I am going

Until I get there

What do you do

When the world crashes down

Where do you turn

When no ones around

I keep walking forward

Somehow I do

Some days are so hard

Just to live through

Maybe some day I will find my home

Until then I will continue to walk forward

On my own

Nyx

New beginnings

Things are changing

Once again

I found an end

As a new beginning starts

A new path has cleared

With all the things I have fought

And everything I have feared

I make myself walk forward

Because it is what I do

I adapt because I can

This is who I am

Nyx

Because of you

I have lost faith in the world

Because of you

I believe in nothing

Because of you

You had a mouth full of promises

But a pocket full of secrets

All the lies that you told me

All the things that I did not see

They almost caused my demise

Why couldn’t I see it in your eyes

Why couldn’t I see the lies

Maybe my heart will beat again someday

It does not beat today

Nyx

Disclaimer

This was inspired from the song mouthful of diamonds from the band phantogram.

Great song.

What am I looking for

As another door closes

I look out to the sea

What am I looking for

What will set me free

Nyx

Memories of you and I

I see the bridge

So beautiful

So bright

I see the lights

Reflect off the water

As the day

Turns into night

I see the clouds fade away

And the stars start to shine

This is when I remember

When I was yours and you were mine

This is when I lose myself

In this memory, in this time

As I stare at the beauty

At everything I see

I realize that somethings remain

And one of them is this bridge

These stars

And the memories I have of you and I

This is when I let myself break down

This is when I cry

Nyx