Today I find myself
In a place I have never been before
Divided by who I was
And who I have become
Nyx
dreams
My home
Seconds pass into minutes
Minutes pass into hours
Hours pass into years
Will I ever really be ok
I have faced my fears
I have seen it all
There is nothing that anyone can do
To stop me today
Time is passing so quickly
Memories are fading away
What I have longed for
I have found
It is my place in this world
I am making my mark
I have been doused in water
But I still carry the spark
The will to save them
The others like me
I will let them see
That they are cared for
I will let them see
The strength I have inside of me
They have always been my home
They are my destiny
Nyx
Why I exist
Today I felt it all
I shared my tale
Of heartbreak and pain
But I also told them
What it is I fight for
Why I am still here
I have a purpose in this life
That is why I have to live it
Even though I have fallen
Many times before
Even though I will fall again
This i am sure
I will always get back up
Because they need me here
They need someone who can stand up
And take away their fear
They need someone who understands
They need someone to listen
I will be what I need to be for them
That is why I exist
That is who I am
Nyx
A place for us
Deep within my soul
I know there are pieces left
Parts that will one day make me whole
Someday you will see
That there is so much more to me
Then the girl who walked away
There is so much more to me
Than just one story to be told
One day when I walk the earth
There will be others behind me
I will show them the way
I will show them where there is land
A place for all of us
It exists inside my heart
It is the home of the forgotten
The ones who were once lost
The ones that thought they were dammed
All they needed was compassion
I give to all of you my hand
With all my love,
Nyx
Need to pretend
I would rather suffer
In any other way
Then feel the things I feel
Every single day
It does not stop this cycle
Will it ever end
When will I find peace
When will I no longer
Need to pretend
Nyx
I want to find my home
My whole life I have suffered
When will it end
I am so tired
Of pretending I am ok
I sit here and cry
As another walks away
They come and they go
I throw them out of my life
It is never enough
I need more than they can give
I cannot breathe
As the pain grips my chest
The loneliness a reminder
Of a life lived alone
I just want to find some peace
I want to find my home
Nyx
Within moments
Life is not a straight path
Within moments everything can change
Within a conversation
Within a glance
Within the choice to speak or remain silent
Your path will follow those actions
Without your control
You have to accept it
We have to see
That every decision we make
Leads us to our destiny
Nyx
This world inside my dream
Today I see the sun
It shines through the trees
I watch as the leaves fall
I feel the breeze
I try to find within myself
The strength I know is there
I want to find my home
In my mind I take myself there
To another place and time
To this world inside my mind
To this world that is my dream
Not today not tomorrow
It’s somewhere lost you see
Maybe someday I will find
The path that leads me to my destiny
Nyx
Hope
In my mind I see
No clear path before me
I push forward
Every day
Hoping I will find the way
Hoping that the emptiness will subside
Hoping that the pain will stop
I try to live in each moment
With hope in my heart
That I will find the peace I seek
That I will find my home
Nyx
On my own
I am still floating in the air
I will not know where I am going
Until I get there
What do you do
When the world crashes down
Where do you turn
When no ones around
I keep walking forward
Somehow I do
Some days are so hard
Just to live through
Maybe some day I will find my home
Until then I will continue to walk forward
On my own
Nyx
