Will I find the peace I seek
I have hope in my heart tonight
I lay here in the dark
Under the glow of the stars
The minutes tick by
They become hours
There is peace in the silence, I feel it
I will live in this moment
These fleeting moments I must treasure
This is all I know
It has taken so long to feel this peace
I hope when the sun rises
My dreams will be real
Nyx
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
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I feel so heavy
So weighed down
I feel the darkness
Rise above my head
Pulling me further
Filling me with dread
Maybe I will make it
Maybe I will not
Maybe I will find a way
To fix myself again
Maybe I will wake up
When all I want is sleep
Maybe I will pull the blade out
The one that’s in so deep
Maybe I will find a way
To be free
Nyx
I sit here hoping I can keep
This eternal peace that I seek
Today I have won
I have felt the light
Shine down from the sun
I have felt the breeze on my face
I ran through the woods
At my own pace
I will keep this hope in my heart
As I turn the page
Waiting for this new chapter to start
Nyx
Peace fills me
As I feel the breeze in the air
Listening to the sound of nature
I feel like I am home
This is where my heart is
Outside behind the trees
This is where I can rest
This is where I breathe
No negative words
No negative emotions
This is all I think
This is all I see
This beautiful place that surrounds me
Nyx
When the walls cave in on me
When it is too dark to see
I feel the anger beneath my skin
It is part of the darkness buried within
The rage pushes me forward
It gives me strength
I have reached a path
A path of no return
If you are in my gaze
You will burn
I have become a predator
All that I have seen
All that I have done
It has made me into what I am
A lion who fears no one
Nyx
As my world spins and spins around me
My thoughts a shattered mess
I stop to think to myself
When is the next test
Waiting for the next battle
Never resting
Never slowing down
I only feel peace
When I listen to the sound
The music soothes my ranting mind
When I am chained and  bound
By everything that crashes through my head
When I think to myself I would be better off dead
When I want to be surrounded by nothing
I find the one thing that makes me feel human
The one thing that is always there
Peace is what I find
When music soothes my mind
Nyx
Through the ups and downs I see
A bright light before me
A light that beckons me to follow
It is there no matter how far I have fallen
It is there no matter where I go
I know it will still exist
This light is there
Even as I fall
Into the depths of hell
Under the tides of the sea
Under the covers at night
With my eyes closed tight
I can still see the light
Nyx
Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half
Someone comes along and points you towards a new path
Sometimes doors do open
When they were shut before
Sometimes you can find someone
That you completely adore
When you feel like everything is caving in
Sometimes a hand breaks through
Holds on and pulls you out into the light
If this happens do not let go
True kindness and empathy is the best gift given
If we all gave more of this
This world would be a better place
Every word of empathy and kindness
Strengthens us as a whole
Because deep down we are the same
We are all connected
Regardless of mind and body
Everyone has a soul
Nyx
I write these lines to my guardians
For the people who saved my life
I will never forget you
I owe my strength
I owe my hope in humanity
To each and every one of you
To those who have fought for me
For those who stood beside a lost child
For those who showed me empathy
I will never forget you
In my heart you will always have a place
Each and every one of you
I will never forget your face
You have made me want to believe
That angels do exist in this life
For the few who fight for what is right
You are my guardians of the night
Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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