Today I find myself
In a place I have never been before
Divided by who I was
And who I have become
Nyx
hope
My home
Seconds pass into minutes
Minutes pass into hours
Hours pass into years
Will I ever really be ok
I have faced my fears
I have seen it all
There is nothing that anyone can do
To stop me today
Time is passing so quickly
Memories are fading away
What I have longed for
I have found
It is my place in this world
I am making my mark
I have been doused in water
But I still carry the spark
The will to save them
The others like me
I will let them see
That they are cared for
I will let them see
The strength I have inside of me
They have always been my home
They are my destiny
Nyx
Why I exist
Today I felt it all
I shared my tale
Of heartbreak and pain
But I also told them
What it is I fight for
Why I am still here
I have a purpose in this life
That is why I have to live it
Even though I have fallen
Many times before
Even though I will fall again
This i am sure
I will always get back up
Because they need me here
They need someone who can stand up
And take away their fear
They need someone who understands
They need someone to listen
I will be what I need to be for them
That is why I exist
That is who I am
Nyx
Another place and time
Today I rise with hope
Hoping things will stay this way
Hoping that this time
I will have a hand to hold
There is so much more to me
Then one story to be told
There are many layers
Many scars beneath my skin
If you want to know who I am
The story starts within
I am shaped from betrayal
Pain and many lies
Shaped by those who have come and gone
With no need for goodbyes
If you look at me
I will show you what lies beneath
But only if you take my hand
And wander with me today
Only if you take my hand
And accept me as I am
Broken but still breathing
Mended here and there
I have dreams that keep me going
When it hurts I take myself there
To another place and time
That exists inside my mind
Come with me and you will see
All that is left of me
Nyx
A place for us
Deep within my soul
I know there are pieces left
Parts that will one day make me whole
Someday you will see
That there is so much more to me
Then the girl who walked away
There is so much more to me
Than just one story to be told
One day when I walk the earth
There will be others behind me
I will show them the way
I will show them where there is land
A place for all of us
It exists inside my heart
It is the home of the forgotten
The ones who were once lost
The ones that thought they were dammed
All they needed was compassion
I give to all of you my hand
With all my love,
Nyx
Falling
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
Disclaimer
I appreciate all of my friends here. Thank you for all your kind words, all your support. It means more to me than you could ever know. đź’•
Quote for today
“There is good in everything, if only we look for it.”
— Laura Ingalls Wilder
Without a home
She exists alone again
There is no one there
To hold her hand
She seeks peace within herself
Because she has no choice
Forward she walks
Into the unknown
Somber still
Without a home
Nyx
Which path
What do I want
Which path do I choose
How will I know
Whether I will win or lose
I fight but I do not know
Whether my feet will hit the ground
Will I stand
Or will I fall
Nyx
I will not look back
The world it spins
Round and round I go
In a daze
I feel the pain
I will never be the same
I keep changing
As the leather gets thicker around me
It keeps me safe
I know longer long for anything
I know longer long for anyone
I am a warrior
Alone I walk this path
I know where I am going
I will not look back
Nyx
