“There is good in everything, if only we look for it.”
— Laura Ingalls Wilder
hope
Without a home
She exists alone again
There is no one there
To hold her hand
She seeks peace within herself
Because she has no choice
Forward she walks
Into the unknown
Somber still
Without a home
Nyx
Which path
What do I want
Which path do I choose
How will I know
Whether I will win or lose
I fight but I do not know
Whether my feet will hit the ground
Will I stand
Or will I fall
Nyx
I will not look back
The world it spins
Round and round I go
In a daze
I feel the pain
I will never be the same
I keep changing
As the leather gets thicker around me
It keeps me safe
I know longer long for anything
I know longer long for anyone
I am a warrior
Alone I walk this path
I know where I am going
I will not look back
Nyx
Within moments
Life is not a straight path
Within moments everything can change
Within a conversation
Within a glance
Within the choice to speak or remain silent
Your path will follow those actions
Without your control
You have to accept it
We have to see
That every decision we make
Leads us to our destiny
Nyx
Today
Today I question
Everything and everyone
Who am I
Who have I become
I feel so weary
As the anxiety
Brings me down
I feel so lost
I do not want to be found
I do not want to be consumed
By the pain that loneliness brings
By the fire that burns in my chest
I just want peace
I just want to rest
Nyx
Peace
As the sun sets
I feel some peace
At last
How I wish that it would stay
When the sun shines I feel the panic
My heart starts to race
These feelings I cannot control
These feelings I cannot face
What do you do
When you can no longer run
You have to look back and see
Everything you have done
Watch yourself as you fell
Into the depths of hell
I am so grateful for this moment
This moment of peace
Nyx
This world inside my dream
Today I see the sun
It shines through the trees
I watch as the leaves fall
I feel the breeze
I try to find within myself
The strength I know is there
I want to find my home
In my mind I take myself there
To another place and time
To this world inside my mind
To this world that is my dream
Not today not tomorrow
It’s somewhere lost you see
Maybe someday I will find
The path that leads me to my destiny
Nyx
Hope
In my mind I see
No clear path before me
I push forward
Every day
Hoping I will find the way
Hoping that the emptiness will subside
Hoping that the pain will stop
I try to live in each moment
With hope in my heart
That I will find the peace I seek
That I will find my home
Nyx
On my own
I am still floating in the air
I will not know where I am going
Until I get there
What do you do
When the world crashes down
Where do you turn
When no ones around
I keep walking forward
Somehow I do
Some days are so hard
Just to live through
Maybe some day I will find my home
Until then I will continue to walk forward
On my own
Nyx
