Time to feel

We are only a moment

But while we are here 

I will love you my dear 

With all that I am 

With all that I will ever be 

With the best and the worst

Parts of what is left of me 

I will allow myself this time to feel 

To let myself believe that true love is real 

Nyx

Within my dream

I see what he has done 

I see the grass that has grown brown 

I see the trees wither and die around me

I see the sky fade into grey 

I walk away from the dark  

With every tear I shed 

With every sting that this nightmare brings 

I push forward 

And as I go 

I will my heartbeat to slow 

I will my sorrow away 

I take a seed and plant it 

With my love I know it will grow 

Someday I will see the trees again 

Someday I will see the green 

Someday the sky will shine with color 

Beauty will not be forgotten 

It will be seen 

I will live my life again 

I will live within my dream 

Nyx

Turning the page

I sit here hoping I can keep

This eternal peace that I seek

Today I have won

I have felt the light

Shine down from the sun

I have felt the breeze on my face

I ran through the woods

At my own pace

I will keep this hope in my heart

As I turn the page

Waiting for this new chapter to start

Nyx

Finding myself again

When all is lost I look inward 

Finding myself again 

Nothing has gone as planned 

Yet I still stand 

With my head high 

As the world looks smaller below 

I look to the sky 

Nyx

Untainted love

I question so many things 

But I do not question you 

You have stayed beside me 

Through the good days and the bad 

You have watched me crumble 

You have watched me fall 

You stood beside me through it all 

I have watched many come and go 

I have learned to rely on no one 

Yet in your eyes I see 

Something I have not seen before 

A love untainted and so sure 

I hope I can be this beauty you see forever 

I hope I can hold this strength to go on

I hope I am what you were looking for 

I hope I remain this person that you adore 

I hope I give you everything

That you give me and more 

Nyx

Blue skies 

The demon I know 

Or the unknown 

There is no clear path shown 

I wander away from the demon

Fighting through the trees 

I hope I find blue skies today 

As I continue to walk away 

Nyx

Where I breathe 

Peace fills me 

As I feel the breeze in the air 

Listening to the sound of nature 

I feel like I am home 

This is where my heart is

Outside behind the trees 

This is where I can rest 

This is where I breathe 

No negative words

No negative emotions 

This is all I think 

This is all I see 

This beautiful place that surrounds me 

Nyx

Holding on

I keep my head held high 

Hardening my heart as the day ticks by

Questioning my emotions 

Letting my mind drift 

Listening as the ocean

Pulls in the waves 

Feeling the peace 

That this sound brings 

Holding on to who I am 

As I feel my feet dig into the sand 

Nyx 

When hope leaves you 

I sit here and reflect upon my life 

I question my emotions 

I question my decisions 

I question where I am 

How did I get here 

Where do I go 

Back to the familiar pain 

Or forward to something 

That may be the same 

I feel the panic as it rises 

Unsure which way to place my foot 

Where do you go 

When you have been here before 

What do you do 

When hope leaves you 

Nyx