The changing season

As the leaves fall around me

I see the beauty in the changing season

Sometimes there is no need to reason

Everything that people do

I try to remember that when I feel pain

I have to look inside myself again

Find the inner beauty of who I am

As I find the ground

I need to walk on again

Nyx

Hope lies within my dreams 

I am sitting here 

Alone again 

Silent and still 

I wish I could say 

That I am fine 

But I would only be lying 

Let them sleep 

As I bury the pain again

Let the apathy set it 

So I can wake up again tomorrow 

I feel the emptiness fill me 

As I listen to the sounds of the night 

As I embrace the serenity of the darkness 

And find comfort in the stars 

In a few hours a new day will start 

Once again I am reminded 

What being alone means 

I am lost in my own world 

Where hope lies within my dreams 

Nyx 

Hold on 

How did I get here 

My world has changed 

Right before my eyes 

One decision 

One step forward 

And once again 

My life before is gone 

In a blink that reality 

No longer exists 

In this moment my world is foreign 

I do not know where I am 

I do not know where I am going 

All I can do is 

Hold onto what is left of me 

And hope that this is the anchor 

To keep me alive 

Nyx

With the rising sun

Sometimes I see flashes 

Memories from before 

I see where I have been 

I see what I have done 

I do not want to see 

These things that haunt me 

All I want is peace 

I want to breathe again 

Hopefully I will find it soon

Before I lose the light from the moon 

I just need to find the way 

Before the moon is gone 

Before the morning comes 

With the rising sun 

Nyx

For the ashes of what once was 

As I walk through the trees 

I feel the breeze 

It is all I have to calm me 

In this moment as I grieve 

For the wishes and dreams I did not receive 

For the ashes of what once was 

For the memories that you gave me 

For the days that I have wept 

For something that was never real

There is no one that can save me 

From the fall that has begun 

There is no one that can reverse 

All the damage you have done 

As the anger subsides 

I find my resolve 

You are just another puzzle 

I was meant to solve 

Nyx

I grab your hand 

The clouds are grey today 

The summer has slipped away

We can not stop the passing of time 

All I can do is fight for what is still mine 

As the seconds spill into the air like sand 

I take a deep breath 

And I grab your hand 

Nyx

Time to feel

We are only a moment

But while we are here 

I will love you my dear 

With all that I am 

With all that I will ever be 

With the best and the worst

Parts of what is left of me 

I will allow myself this time to feel 

To let myself believe that true love is real 

Nyx

Within my dream

I see what he has done 

I see the grass that has grown brown 

I see the trees wither and die around me

I see the sky fade into grey 

I walk away from the dark  

With every tear I shed 

With every sting that this nightmare brings 

I push forward 

And as I go 

I will my heartbeat to slow 

I will my sorrow away 

I take a seed and plant it 

With my love I know it will grow 

Someday I will see the trees again 

Someday I will see the green 

Someday the sky will shine with color 

Beauty will not be forgotten 

It will be seen 

I will live my life again 

I will live within my dream 

Nyx

Turning the page

I sit here hoping I can keep

This eternal peace that I seek

Today I have won

I have felt the light

Shine down from the sun

I have felt the breeze on my face

I ran through the woods

At my own pace

I will keep this hope in my heart

As I turn the page

Waiting for this new chapter to start

Nyx