Another place and time

Today I rise with hope

Hoping things will stay this way

Hoping that this time

I will have a hand to hold

There is so much more to me

Then one story to be told

There are many layers

Many scars beneath my skin

If you want to know who I am

The story starts within

I am shaped from betrayal

Pain and many lies

Shaped by those who have come and gone

With no need for goodbyes

If you look at me

I will show you what lies beneath

But only if you take my hand

And wander with me today

Only if you take my hand

And except me as I am

Broken but still breathing

Mended here and there

I have dreams that keep me going

When it hurts I take myself there

To another place and time

That exists inside my mind

Come with me and you will see

All that is left of me

Nyx

A place for us

Deep within my soul

I know there are pieces left

Parts that will one day make me whole

Someday you will see

That there is so much more to me

Then the girl who walked away

There is so much more to me

Than just one story to be told

One day when I walk the earth

There will be others behind me

I will show them the way

I will show them where there is land

A place for all of us

It exists inside my heart

It is the home of the forgotten

The ones who were once lost

The ones that thought they were dammed

All they needed was compassion

I give to all of you my hand

With all my love,

Nyx

Drifting

I sit here and slip away

My body shuts down

I am lost

But I want to be found

I am reaching out for help today

It is like I am looking back

Yet here I am in the present

This haze of a person with no core self

Please someone help me

Please hold my hand

Please give me the strength

Please give me the foundation

To find the ground

To stop falling

To stand

Nyx

Disclaimer

I appreciate all of my friends here. Thank you for all your kind words, all your support. It means more to me than you could ever know. đź’•

Quote for today

“There is good in everything, if only we look for it.”

— Laura Ingalls Wilder

 

Without a home

She exists alone again

There is no one there

To hold her hand

She seeks peace within herself

Because she has no choice

Forward she walks

Into the unknown

Somber still

Without a home

Nyx

Which path

What do I want

Which path do I choose

How will I know

Whether I will win or lose

I fight but I do not know

Whether my feet will hit the ground

Will I stand

Or will I fall

Nyx

I will not look back

The world it spins

Round and round I go

In a daze

I feel the pain

I will never be the same

I keep changing

As the leather gets thicker around me

It keeps me safe

I know longer long for anything

I know longer long for anyone

I am a warrior

Alone I walk this path

I know where I am going

I will not look back

Nyx

Within moments

Life is not a straight path

Within moments everything can change

Within a conversation

Within a glance

Within the choice to speak or remain silent

Your path will follow those actions

Without your control

You have to accept it

We have to see

That every decision we make

Leads us to our destiny

Nyx

Today

Today I question

Everything and everyone

Who am I

Who have I become

I feel so weary

As the anxiety

Brings me down

I feel so lost

I do not want to be found

I do not want to be consumed

By the pain that loneliness brings

By the fire that burns in my chest

I just want peace

I just want to rest

Nyx

Peace

As the sun sets

I feel some peace

At last

How I wish that it would stay

When the sun shines I feel the panic

My heart starts to race

These feelings I cannot control

These feelings I cannot face

What do you do

When you can no longer run

You have to look back and see

Everything you have done

Watch yourself as you fell

Into the depths of hell

I am so grateful for this moment

This moment of peace

Nyx