I breathe in the air
Tell myself to let go
I try to will the anxiety away
I need to stay focused
I need to find my way
I can not give up
I will try again
To pull myself through
I need to find strength in myself
I need to find it deep inside
Because I have nothing left to fear
Because I have nothing to hide
I just have to keep breathing
Until I find the path again
Then I will walk forward
I will find the light
Every day I remember
Every day I will fight
Nyx
I hold my sword toward the sky
I feel everything
All the pain
All the loss
All the sorrow
I take the blade
I slice my hand
I watch the blood drip
Into the sand
In this moment I swear to myself
I will not fail
I will not stop
I look upon my enemy
I tell him to stand
Nyx
At the core of who I am
There is a warrior
A fighter that I know is there
I remember when I feel the pressure build
I remember when I will my heartbeat to slow
I remember and I make myself let everything go
Because I will keep fighting
This is something I must do
I fight for me
I fight for you
Nyx
I will not look behind me
I must be here today
I need to let go
Of the sorrows from yesterday
Because this is what must be done
Because this is what I do
Every day I rise
Trying to forget you
You are one of many
That I have to let go
My heart no longer aches
From the sorrow that you bring
The pain subsides
As I start to sing
This is what I must do
Walk away from you
Nyx
“However difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.”
Stephen Hawking
As I walk along the path
I listen as he speaks
Another person comes and goes
I had a few moments of peace
Before I realized once again
I haven’t found the one
I must continue to protect myself
As weary as I am
I must push myself to wake up
I must make myself stand
Nyx
I try not to think about the past
The images that fly by so fast
The things that I see
I wish they were not real
I wish they were not a part
Of who I have become
The weight it is so heavy
The pain it turns to glass
The shards fly at me
With each obstacle that I face
Somedays I lose my faith
In the entire human race
But today I realize this does not matter
Because I must wake up
I cannot see the darkness
I watch it fade to grey
I have to keep fighting
If I do not it is all for nothing
Today I must be the lion
Or I will not survive
Today I must see the light
I must fight through the haze
All I can do
Is continue to fight you
Nyx
All that was left of her
Were ashes in the breeze
She fell to her knees
But no one heard her cries
No one heard her pleas
She slowly burned away
The pain was too great
She could no longer stay
She told herself to let go
To let the fire blaze inside
Then she felt her heart slow
Amongst the fire
Inside the flame
She let herself die
Nyx
I am always reminded
Of the uncertainty in this life
Of the things that I have lost
Of the cruelty
Of the ones who look away
And the ones who do not stay
I am left a wanderer
Lost in this world
Yet driven to be more than what I am
Pushing myself every day to stand
Sometimes the pain grips me so hard
I feel myself slowly
Being torn apart
I try never to forget
What it is I fight for
I try not to forget
What it felt like
When I walked out the door
I no longer know who I am
I no longer know who I was before
I sit here broken
Longing for something I will never get
The pain it lingers
But it has not defeated me yet
Nyx
There is nothing you can not accomplish
When you have nothing to lose
Nyx
