This is not the end

I have lived a lonely life

Many have come and gone

But Jack my dear you stood out

With all your smiles and your cheer

You became my friend

Within moments of meeting me

It was your actions, not your words

That showed me who you are

A beautiful soul who embraces life

You have walked your own path

Giving me great respect for you

Dear Jack, I believe you are not gone

You live on in my heart

You will live on in each of us

As we walk toward our separate paths

To different places in the world

You gave us another story

About a soul that was so beautiful, so bold

I am grateful to know you

You have reminded me that I am strong

I will keep fighting for both of us

Rest in peace my friend

But this is not the end

Nyx

 

Drifting

I used to think that love was the only way

To lead me to my home

But now I feel myself drifting slowly

I do not feel the pull

I have found a way

To walk this world alone

I still feel tinges of the pain

The scars still tear away

And the blood still bleeds through

But I have found a way

To stop searching for you

Nyx

A place for us

Deep within my soul

I know there are pieces left

Parts that will one day make me whole

Someday you will see

That there is so much more to me

Then the girl who walked away

There is so much more to me

Than just one story to be told

One day when I walk the earth

There will be others behind me

I will show them the way

I will show them where there is land

A place for all of us

It exists inside my heart

It is the home of the forgotten

The ones who were once lost

The ones that thought they were dammed

All they needed was compassion

I give to all of you my hand

With all my love,

Nyx

I win

It’s all about beating them

That’s what keeps me going

I always win

My heart still beats in my chest

I feel the anger build

I will never let you destroy me

I raise my shield

I hold my sword

Come and get me

Nyx

Today I fight

Today I am fighting

The void within my soul

If I do not it will destroy me

Everything will fade away

No one else can save me

Because no one else can see

The abyss that is beneath me

The pain that pulls me down

I have to find away

I have to save myself today

Nyx

Born in sin

She walked the world alone

Fighting through the images

Flashing through her mind

Always with a smile

Always so kind

Underneath it all

She feels herself rotting from within

She is not from this world

She was born in sin

Yet she exists

And she will keep fighting

She will win

Nyx

Drifting

I sit here and slip away

My body shuts down

I am lost

But I want to be found

I am reaching out for help today

It is like I am looking back

Yet here I am in the present

This haze of a person with no core self

Please someone help me

Please hold my hand

Please give me the strength

Please give me the foundation

To find the ground

To stop falling

To stand

Nyx

Disclaimer

I appreciate all of my friends here. Thank you for all your kind words, all your support. It means more to me than you could ever know. 💕

No one

There is no one here

To hold my hand

There is no one here

To tell me everything will be ok

There is no one here

To hold me and let me cry

There is no one here

To stop me from destroying myself

Nyx

Keep fighting

I keep fighting

Every single day

It will never end

But I will fight anyway

It is all I have ever known

All I will ever know

I walk this world alone

My heart a ball of stone

You can not defeat me

I will build my empire

That will be my home

Nyx

Perfection

She strives for perfection

In everything she does

The image she portrays

Hides everything inside

A life she should have lived

Love she was denied

Through this rejection

She never found herself

So she will continue

Wandering here and there

Still striving for perfection

Longing for someone to care

Nyx