“I am not sorry for what I had to become in order to survive.” Schuyler Peck
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Believe in you
There are moments when I lose hope in everyone
Then I realize that I do not need them
The only thing I need
Is to believe in me
Nyx
A lion who fears no one
When the walls cave in on me
When it is too dark to see
I feel the anger beneath my skin
It is part of the darkness buried within
The rage pushes me forward
It gives me strength
I have reached a path
A path of no return
If you are in my gaze
You will burn
I have become a predator
All that I have seen
All that I have done
It has made me into what I am
A lion who fears no one
Nyx
Never slowing down
As my world spins and spins around me
My thoughts a shattered mess
I stop to think to myself
When is the next test
Waiting for the next battle
Never resting
Never slowing down
Feeling chained and completely bound
I only feel peace
When I listen to the sound
The music soothes my ranting mind
When I am chained and completely bound
By everything that crashes through my head
When I think to myself I’d be better off dead
When I want to be surrounded by nothing
I find the one thing that makes me feel human
The one thing that is always there
Peace is what I find
When music soothes my mind
Nyx
Yearning for peace
Once again I feel my chest cave in
I feel my head ache
I long for an escape
I long for peace from this life
I long to escape today
Go somewhere far away
Sometimes I dream of being someone else
Ignorant to the world around me
I do not want to be aware of the things I see
I just want to feel no pain
I want to know that I am sane
But here I sit the same as before
In pain yearning for peace once more
Nyx
My purpose
I have been brought into moments of complete despair
But this is how I find my strength
This is how I find hope
I have embarked on a journey
Each stride a lesson to be learned
Each breath drawn is another that I live
Each day I am given a gift
Something that is taught to me
Something that I can give
My purpose is to educate
Those who are unaware
Of everyone in need of love
Of everyone in need of care
Someday I will fulfill this purpose
This I know is true
Because I am still standing here
Writing these lines to you
Nyx
Jackal with a latch
I wake up and I wait to see
Where these next few steps will take me
I am walking away from the life I lived before
To walk alone again once more
There are no serpents in the grass
Just a jackal with a latch
I must be careful as I make my move
I must brace myself and keep my head held high
Today is the first day of my official good bye
Nyx
I see the light
Through the ups and downs I see
A bright light before me
A light that beckons me to follow
It is there no matter how far I have fallen
It is there no matter where I go
I know it will still exist
This light is there
Even as I fall
Into the depths of hell
Under the tides of the sea
Under the covers at night
With my eyes closed tight
I can still see the light
Nyx
The Lion
I have become a lion
I sit as I wait for dinner to walk through
The valley of darkness is where I creep
I fight with sorrow
I fight with rage
Someone opened the latch
I stepped out of the cage
Now I stalk my prey
The ones who attack the defenseless
The ones who attack the weak
These are the ones I seek
With me or against me
This is what they will choose
Do what is right or I swear to you
You will lose
Nyx
When doors open
Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half
Someone comes along and points you towards a new path
Sometimes doors do open
When they were shut before
Sometimes you can find someone
That you completely adore
When you feel like everything is caving in
Sometimes a hand breaks through
Holds on and pulls you out into the light
If this happens do not let go
True kindness and empathy is the best gift given
If we all gave more of this
This world would be a better place
Every word of empathy and kindness
Strengthens us as a whole
Because deep down we are the same
We are all connected
Regardless of mind and body
Everyone has a soul
Nyx
