I win

It’s all about beating them

That’s what keeps me going

I always win

My heart still beats in my chest

I feel the anger build

I will never let you destroy me

I raise my shield

I hold my sword

Come and get me

Nyx

Today I fight

Today I am fighting

The void within my soul

If I do not it will destroy me

Everything will fade away

No one else can save me

Because no one else can see

The abyss that is beneath me

The pain that pulls me down

I have to find away

I have to save myself today

Nyx

Born in sin

She walked the world alone

Fighting through the images

Flashing through her mind

Always with a smile

Always so kind

Underneath it all

She feels herself rotting from within

She is not from this world

She was born in sin

Yet she exists

And she will keep fighting

She will win

Nyx

Drifting

I sit here and slip away

My body shuts down

I am lost

But I want to be found

I am reaching out for help today

It is like I am looking back

Yet here I am in the present

This haze of a person with no core self

Please someone help me

Please hold my hand

Please give me the strength

Please give me the foundation

To find the ground

To stop falling

To stand

Nyx

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No one

There is no one here

To hold my hand

There is no one here

To tell me everything will be ok

There is no one here

To hold me and let me cry

There is no one here

To stop me from destroying myself

Nyx

Keep fighting

I keep fighting

Every single day

It will never end

But I will fight anyway

It is all I have ever known

All I will ever know

I walk this world alone

My heart a ball of stone

You can not defeat me

I will build my empire

That will be my home

Nyx

Perfection

She strives for perfection

In everything she does

The image she portrays

Hides everything inside

A life she should have lived

Love she was denied

Through this rejection

She never found herself

So she will continue

Wandering here and there

Still striving for perfection

Longing for someone to care

Nyx

For them

Tomorrow the sun will rise

As I close my eyes

I see the world turn black

Sometimes I want to stay this way

Keep them closed forever

There are a few things that keep me here

So I will open them again tomorrow

Push past the sorrow

And walk out the door

Not for me but for them

I will fight until the end

Nyx

Shut it down

In the end I see

There will be no one beside me

I have to make myself believe

That I will be alright someday

That somehow I can make myself

Shut it down again

All the pain inside

I have to make it stop

Nyx

As I walk through the storm

He made me cry

Before I said goodbye 

There is no perfect mix 

No one who can see 

Who I really am 

Who I strive to be 

I exist and yet I do not 

All my life I have fought 

To find the balance that I need 

In order to push myself 

I need to believe 

That someday I will find 

The one thing that I need 

Someone beside me 

As I walk through the storm

Arms to embrace me 

When I need it the most

I will find you 

This I know is true 

I will not stop

Until I do 

Nyx