It’s all about beating them
That’s what keeps me going
I always win
My heart still beats in my chest
I feel the anger build
I will never let you destroy me
I raise my shield
I hold my sword
Come and get me
Nyx
fight
Today I fight
Today I am fighting
The void within my soul
If I do not it will destroy me
Everything will fade away
No one else can save me
Because no one else can see
The abyss that is beneath me
The pain that pulls me down
I have to find away
I have to save myself today
Nyx
Born in sin
She walked the world alone
Fighting through the images
Flashing through her mind
Always with a smile
Always so kind
Underneath it all
She feels herself rotting from within
She is not from this world
She was born in sin
Yet she exists
And she will keep fighting
She will win
Nyx
Drifting
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
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No one
There is no one here
To hold my hand
There is no one here
To tell me everything will be ok
There is no one here
To hold me and let me cry
There is no one here
To stop me from destroying myself
Nyx
Keep fighting
I keep fighting
Every single day
It will never end
But I will fight anyway
It is all I have ever known
All I will ever know
I walk this world alone
My heart a ball of stone
You can not defeat me
I will build my empire
That will be my home
Nyx
Perfection
She strives for perfection
In everything she does
The image she portrays
Hides everything inside
A life she should have lived
Love she was denied
Through this rejection
She never found herself
So she will continue
Wandering here and there
Still striving for perfection
Longing for someone to care
Nyx
For them
Tomorrow the sun will rise
As I close my eyes
I see the world turn black
Sometimes I want to stay this way
Keep them closed forever
There are a few things that keep me here
So I will open them again tomorrow
Push past the sorrow
And walk out the door
Not for me but for them
I will fight until the end
Nyx
Shut it down
In the end I see
There will be no one beside me
I have to make myself believe
That I will be alright someday
That somehow I can make myself
Shut it down again
All the pain inside
I have to make it stop
Nyx
As I walk through the storm
He made me cry
Before I said goodbyeÂ
There is no perfect mixÂ
No one who can seeÂ
Who I really amÂ
Who I strive to beÂ
I exist and yet I do notÂ
All my life I have foughtÂ
To find the balance that I needÂ
In order to push myselfÂ
I need to believeÂ
That someday I will findÂ
The one thing that I needÂ
Someone beside meÂ
As I walk through the storm
Arms to embrace meÂ
When I need it the most
I will find youÂ
This I know is trueÂ
I will not stop
Until I doÂ
Nyx
