I feel the emptiness as it starts to grow
I feel it slip through the cracks
It is starting to show
My face no longer wants to smile
The anger inside me
It just continues to build
The rage it boils
The pain burns
As my fists clench
I know I will fight you all
Until my last breath I swear it
Step in front of me I dare you
I will not spare you
You will lose
Nyx
I feel so heavy
So weighed down
I feel the darkness
Rise above my head
Pulling me further
Filling me with dread
Maybe I will make it
Maybe I will not
Maybe I will find a way
To fix myself again
Maybe I will wake up
When all I want is sleep
Maybe I will pull the blade out
The one that’s in so deep
Maybe I will find a way
To be free
Nyx
The anxiety smoothers me
I can no longer breathe
Survival is what I need
In order to succeed
The struggle to keep my head above water
It gets harder everyday
If only I could find someway
To assure I will make it
If only I could find someway
To feel safe again
As my breath leaves me
I start to feel the pain
The constant worry
It is always the same
Will I make it
Or will I fail
I know that somehow
I have to do this
I have to prevail
Nyx
I see what he has done
I see the grass that has grown brown
I see the trees wither and die around me
I see the sky fade into grey
I walk away from the dark
With every tear I shed
With every sting that this nightmare brings
I push forward
And as I go
I will my heartbeat to slow
I will my sorrow away
I take a seed and plant it
With my love I know it will grow
Someday I will see the trees again
Someday I will see the green
Someday the sky will shine with color
Beauty will not be forgotten
It will be seen
I will live my life again
I will live within my dream
Nyx
I hear the sound of the world outside
As I try to find balance in my life
I have always struggled to get by
I have never stopped asking myself why
I have made the decisions I have so far
Then I reflect and tell myself
This is who you are
With every step forward
And every step back
I try to fill the pieces
That have chipped away
I push myself again today
To find the balance and the strength
That I need to succeed
Nyx
I hear the raindrops
Tick off my armor
As I stand in the valley
Ready for battle
I hold my sword to the sky
As I watch you quiver with fear
I look in your eyes
Before I say good bye
Nyx
Live and learn they say
Why do we have to learn
By being ripped apart
Where does the pain end
When does this learning start
I do not believe these words are true
Each piece that is pulled from me
Is another piece gone
I was always this strong
What I have learned is how not to fear
But this was after being beat down
Year after year
Losing everything
Again and again
Falling further and faster
With no where to land
Being pushed down
Until I could not stand
Having my head pushed under
Until I was swallowing water
This has made me fearless
A monster you see
Do you think I would be someone else
If this did not happen to me
No I would still be me
Nyx
I question everything
I question everyone
I don’t know where I am
I don’t know what I have done
I am lost right now
My steps have led me astray
I hope I find my way again today
Nyx
Today I rise with certainty
Knowing my mind is too busy to be held down
This is how I escape my hell
Nyx
I raise my head higher
Never looking down
My goal is to stay this predator that I am
In my empire I will stand
Without doubt, anger, or fear
My enemies will quiver when I am near
If you face me you will lose
In the end I always win
Play your hand my friend
It will be your end
Nyx
