Everyday I will fight

I breathe in the air

Tell myself to let go

I try to will the anxiety away

I need to stay focused

I need to find my way

I can not give up

I will try again

To pull myself through

I need to find strength in myself

I need to find it deep inside

Because I have nothing left to fear

Because I have nothing to hide

I just have to keep breathing

Until I find the path again

Then I will walk forward

I will find the light

Every day I remember

Every day I will fight

Nyx

Battle

I hold my sword toward the sky

I feel everything

All the pain

All the loss

All the sorrow

I take the blade

I slice my hand

I watch the blood drip

Into the sand

In this moment I swear to myself

I will not fail

I will not stop

I look upon my enemy

I tell him to stand

Nyx

A warrior

At the core of who I am

There is a warrior

A fighter that I know is there

I remember when I feel the pressure build

I remember when I will my heartbeat to slow

I remember and I make myself let everything go

Because I will keep fighting

This is something I must do

I fight for me

I fight for you

Nyx

Let go

I will not look behind me

I must be here today

I need to let go

Of the sorrows from yesterday

Because this is what must be done

Because this is what I do

Every day I rise

Trying to forget you

You are one of many

That I have to let go

My heart no longer aches

From the sorrow that you bring

The pain subsides

As I start to sing

This is what I must do

Walk away from you

Nyx

Wise words

“However difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.”

Stephen Hawking

I must continue

As I walk along the path

I listen as he speaks

Another person comes and goes

I had a few moments of peace

Before I realized once again

I haven’t found the one

I must continue to protect myself

As weary as I am

I must push myself to wake up

I must make myself stand

Nyx

I have to keep fighting

I try not to think about the past

The images that fly by so fast

The things that I see

I wish they were not real

I wish they were not a part

Of who I have become

The weight it is so heavy

The pain it turns to glass

The shards fly at me

With each obstacle that I face

Somedays I lose my faith

In the entire human race

But today I realize this does not matter

Because I must wake up

I cannot see the darkness

I watch it fade to grey

I have to keep fighting

If I do not it is all for nothing

Today I must be the lion

Or I will not survive

Today I must see the light

I must fight through the haze

All I can do

Is continue to fight you

Nyx

Inside the flame

All that was left of her

Were ashes in the breeze

She fell to her knees

But no one heard her cries

No one heard her pleas

She slowly burned away

The pain was too great

She could no longer stay

She told herself to let go

To let the fire blaze inside

Then she felt her heart slow

Amongst the fire

Inside the flame

She let herself die

Nyx

Broken

I am always reminded

Of the uncertainty in this life

Of the things that I have lost

Of the cruelty

Of the ones who look away

And the ones who do not stay

I am left a wanderer

Lost in this world

Yet driven to be more than what I am

Pushing myself every day to stand

Sometimes the pain grips me so hard

I feel myself slowly

Being torn apart

I try never to forget

What it is I fight for

I try not to forget

What it felt like

When I walked out the door

I no longer know who I am

I no longer know who I was before

I sit here broken

Longing for something I will never get

The pain it lingers

But it has not defeated me yet

Nyx