I keep fighting
Every single day
It will never end
But I will fight anyway
It is all I have ever known
All I will ever know
I walk this world alone
My heart a ball of stone
You can not defeat me
I will build my empire
That will be my home
Nyx
fight
Perfection
She strives for perfection
In everything she does
The image she portrays
Hides everything inside
A life she should have lived
Love she was denied
Through this rejection
She never found herself
So she will continue
Wandering here and there
Still striving for perfection
Longing for someone to care
Nyx
For them
Tomorrow the sun will rise
As I close my eyes
I see the world turn black
Sometimes I want to stay this way
Keep them closed forever
There are a few things that keep me here
So I will open them again tomorrow
Push past the sorrow
And walk out the door
Not for me but for them
I will fight until the end
Nyx
Shut it down
In the end I see
There will be no one beside me
I have to make myself believe
That I will be alright someday
That somehow I can make myself
Shut it down again
All the pain inside
I have to make it stop
Nyx
As I walk through the storm
He made me cry
Before I said goodbye
There is no perfect mix
No one who can see
Who I really am
Who I strive to be
I exist and yet I do not
All my life I have fought
To find the balance that I need
In order to push myself
I need to believe
That someday I will find
The one thing that I need
Someone beside me
As I walk through the storm
Arms to embrace me
When I need it the most
I will find you
This I know is true
I will not stop
Until I do
Nyx
Which path
What do I want
Which path do I choose
How will I know
Whether I will win or lose
I fight but I do not know
Whether my feet will hit the ground
Will I stand
Or will I fall
Nyx
I want to find my home
My whole life I have suffered
When will it end
I am so tired
Of pretending I am ok
I sit here and cry
As another walks away
They come and they go
I throw them out of my life
It is never enough
I need more than they can give
I cannot breathe
As the pain grips my chest
The loneliness a reminder
Of a life lived alone
I just want to find some peace
I want to find my home
Nyx
A heart of stone
My heart has hardened
Like a ball of stone
It sits inside my chest
As it beats it cracks and crumbles
A little more each day
This is what I need
A heart covered in stone
I need to find myself
Before I can go home
Nyx
Is it all in my head ?
I feel the sadness as it starts to spread
Is there something wrong
Or is it all in my head
I do not know where I am going
All is feel is my world turning
In my chest I feel the pain
The ache that never goes away
I am lost beyond this world
Everyone goes
No one will stay
When I stop it hits me hard
Bruised and broken
Beaten and scarred
I have to shut it off
I have to leave this place
There is no solace here
I feel my heart
It begins to race
When I see that look
Upon your face
Nyx
Emptiness
As I get older
My heart grows colder
I try to accept things as they are
Knowing that I am stronger every day
As I continually search for something more
I try to be happy just being me
I want the world to see
The smile I spread on my face
But, on the inside all I feel
Is emptiness
Nyx
