Without sound

She stood there

Her hair floated in the breeze

The pain it gripped her

Brought her to her knees

She screamed but no one heard her

She stretched out her arms

But no one saw

The scars that were red and raw

The sorrow and the screams were ignored

It was easier to look away

Than to look upon this girl

So they continued forward

As she stayed behind

To suffer alone

She was left there

Inside her home of pain

She was left there

And everyday she drowned

She was lost

She was seen

But without sound

Nyx

The damned

I feel the grass beneath my fingers as I walk

I feel the breeze as it brushes my face

I see the beauty of the sky

It is so blue today

I listen to the birds

As they sing to each other

I think of the comfort they have

From one another

Yet all of it does not take the agony away

All I can do is take the comfort that it brings

Maybe someday it will bring me the peace that I seek

Maybe someday I will be content in this life

Until then I try to live as I am

I have no choice

I am one of the damned

Nyx

A warrior

At the core of who I am

There is a warrior

A fighter that I know is there

I remember when I feel the pressure build

I remember when I will my heartbeat to slow

I remember and I make myself let everything go

Because I will keep fighting

This is something I must do

I fight for me

I fight for you

Nyx

Today

Today I question

Everything and everyone

Who am I

Who have I become

I feel so weary

As the anxiety

Brings me down

I feel so lost

I do not want to be found

I do not want to be consumed

By the pain that loneliness brings

By the fire that burns in my chest

I just want peace

I just want to rest

Nyx

Let go

I will not look behind me

I must be here today

I need to let go

Of the sorrows from yesterday

Because this is what must be done

Because this is what I do

Every day I rise

Trying to forget you

You are one of many

That I have to let go

My heart no longer aches

From the sorrow that you bring

The pain subsides

As I start to sing

This is what I must do

Walk away from you

Nyx

Wise words

“However difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.”

Stephen Hawking

I must continue

As I walk along the path

I listen as he speaks

Another person comes and goes

I had a few moments of peace

Before I realized once again

I haven’t found the one

I must continue to protect myself

As weary as I am

I must push myself to wake up

I must make myself stand

Nyx

I have to keep fighting

I try not to think about the past

The images that fly by so fast

The things that I see

I wish they were not real

I wish they were not a part

Of who I have become

The weight it is so heavy

The pain it turns to glass

The shards fly at me

With each obstacle that I face

Somedays I lose my faith

In the entire human race

But today I realize this does not matter

Because I must wake up

I cannot see the darkness

I watch it fade to grey

I have to keep fighting

If I do not it is all for nothing

Today I must be the lion

Or I will not survive

Today I must see the light

I must fight through the haze

All I can do

Is continue to fight you

Nyx

The setting sun

I love you and I hate you

This I know is true

You left me slowly dying

Like so many have done before

I screamed your name

As you walked through the door

There is nothing left

Of the person I was before

You are one of many

Yet you have left your own scar

The chunk you ripped was the last

Of a girl that has passed

Her death was grieved by no one

The shell that remains of me

Looks at the setting sun

I find resolve in who I have become

But I will never forget what you have done

Nyx

Loneliness is what I fear

The pain

It comes and goes

Hits me in waves

Sometimes it lasts for hours

Sometimes it lasts for days

Until I shut it down

It is often soothed

By the sound of someone else

Or the sound of music

Playing in my head

Sometimes when the pain is gone

All I feel is dread

Loneliness is what I fear

Night after night

Year after year

I do not want to be alone

I want to find my home

Nyx