Solace in the dark

Sitting in the dark

Crying again

Letting go of another person

Another strip of my heart is gone

The pain is so great

That I have to shut down

If I didn’t I would break completely

There is no coming back from this

There is no way to change it

I’m still here breathing

Enduring it all

I feel comfort in this time

I have found solitude

I have found solace in the darkness

It is where I belong

There is no human for me

There never will be

Nyx

False hope

I can have this hope

That someday I will write to you

And for longer than a few moments

A few precious hours I will not suffer

That hope dies a little more

Every single day

Today is another day

That a piece of me has been stripped away

Left to burn in the flames

Again all I feel right now is pain

Nyx

 

Dialogue with my friend darkness

“Hello Darkness my old friend

It’s nice to see you again”

“My sweet girl why are you so restless?

Can’t find that peace you still seek?

Can’t find an ear to listen to the screams?

Well here I am my dear

I will listen as you scream in pain

Then I will take you with me

I will lay my claim

In the end it will be the same

This is how it must be

Some day soon you will see

It has always been me

I am your true friend

I will show you how your life will end

Take my hand my dear”

I take his hand

“I know darkness

You are always right

Once again you are my only friend tonight”

Together we descend

That familiar feeling

I feel that familiar ache

It grips my chest again

The sadness lingers

Never far from the surface

Sadness brings this feeling

No words can truly describe it

All my life I have fought

This feeling that I must endure

I have learned I must embrace it

There is no cure

Maybe someday this will change

Maybe it will end

I just have to face this feeling

Until then

This is how it must be

I see darkness creeping toward me

I am still here my friend

But please go away

I do not have the strength

To walk with you again today

Nyx

Covered in paint and powder

She suffers in ways

That no one can see

The agony gets swept aside

By the powder she spreads across her face

Covering the darkness

Covering the scars

There is no part left to be seen

She covers it all

Underneath the paint

Underneath the skin

The darkness hides the flame

The fire that keeps her alive

The anger makes her move

When all hope is lost

Everyday a piece is taken

Living her life at this high cost

Broken and bleeding

Mended here and there

How she longs to have been anyone else, anywhere

Her pleas are unheard

Her tears are unseen

She will exist as she is

A plastered doll covered in paint and powder

Living in shame

I hear her as she screams louder

While she burns from within

Nyx

Dreams of peace

Will I find the peace I seek

I have hope in my heart tonight

I lay here in the dark

Under the glow of the stars

The minutes tick by

They become hours

There is peace in the silence, I feel it

I will live in this moment

These fleeting moments I must treasure

This is all I know

It has taken so long to feel this peace

I hope when the sun rises

My dreams will be real

Nyx

Welcome

Imagine the worst pain you have ever felt

When your heart was broken

When you were broken

Imagine having that pain

Over and over again

Every single day

All due to the words of someone else

Whoever is filling the void

My unattractive sickness

Is that what you see

Welcome to my reality

Nyx