Just another day

Once again I was fooled

I thought I would see the sun

I thought I would see the flowers bloom

I was wrong

The time will never come

There is no time for us

The clouds grow dark

The sky turns grey

Today is just another

Day like yesterday

I feel so alone

As I sit here in the dark

My heart breaks

I feel the pain again

This is what happens

This cycle that never ends

The cause does not matter

It always feels the same

There is nothing left of me

There is nothing left to gain

Anything that was human has died

A thousand times before

I exist and stand

Only for what I fight for

Nyx

The void

There is a hole

Where my heart used to be

It was ripped out

It was taken from me

The hole grows a little more each day

This feeling of despair

It takes me away

I exist as darkness

There is nothing left

Just this void in my chest

Nyx

Broken star

Sometimes the veil is lifted

This is when I see who we really are

You have become the hero

The one I always knew you would be

You are half of a broken star

The piece of me that is missing

That is what you are

Nyx

Nothing Left to Say

There are so many words that I have said

There are so many words that I have written

None of it really matters

When I am talking into the wind

When a face becomes a shadow

Where a person used to be

The words they are so hollow

No one ever really hears me

I am not a person

I am a just a thing

All I can do is hope

That my heart will beat someday

In the meantime, I sit here

I have nothing left to say

Nyx

Solace in the dark

Sitting in the dark

Crying again

Letting go of another person

Another strip of my heart is gone

The pain is so great

That I have to shut down

If I didn’t I would break completely

There is no coming back from this

There is no way to change it

I’m still here breathing

Enduring it all

I feel comfort in this time

I have found solitude

I have found solace in the darkness

It is where I belong

There is no human for me

There never will be

Nyx

False hope

I can have this hope

That someday I will write to you

And for longer than a few moments

A few precious hours I will not suffer

That hope dies a little more

Every single day

Today is another day

That a piece of me has been stripped away

Left to burn in the flames

Again all I feel right now is pain

Nyx

 

Dialogue with my friend darkness

“Hello Darkness my old friend

It’s nice to see you again”

“My sweet girl why are you so restless?

Can’t find that peace you still seek?

Can’t find an ear to listen to the screams?

Well here I am my dear

I will listen as you scream in pain

Then I will take you with me

I will lay my claim

In the end it will be the same

This is how it must be

Some day soon you will see

It has always been me

I am your true friend

I will show you how your life will end

Take my hand my dear”

I take his hand

“I know darkness

You are always right

Once again you are my only friend tonight”

Together we descend

That familiar feeling

I feel that familiar ache

It grips my chest again

The sadness lingers

Never far from the surface

Sadness brings this feeling

No words can truly describe it

All my life I have fought

This feeling that I must endure

I have learned I must embrace it

There is no cure

Maybe someday this will change

Maybe it will end

I just have to face this feeling

Until then

This is how it must be

I see darkness creeping toward me

I am still here my friend

But please go away

I do not have the strength

To walk with you again today

Nyx