In the end

And in the end 

I stand alone 

My skin is made of leather 

My heart is shielded in stone 

This is the way I must be 

Because they all betray me 

Nyx 

Within moments

Life is not a straight path

Within moments everything can change

Within a conversation

Within a glance

Within the choice to speak or remain silent

Your path will follow those actions

Without your control

You have to accept it

We have to see

That every decision we make

Leads us to our destiny

Nyx

Everyday I will fight

I breathe in the air

Tell myself to let go

I try to will the anxiety away

I need to stay focused

I need to find my way

I can not give up

I will try again

To pull myself through

I need to find strength in myself

I need to find it deep inside

Because I have nothing left to fear

Because I have nothing to hide

I just have to keep breathing

Until I find the path again

Then I will walk forward

I will find the light

Every day I remember

Every day I will fight

Nyx

What I feel today

At this moment

The agony grips my chest

I woke with hope today

Then it went away

Why do I continue to breathe

Why do I stay

On the inside

I feel myself decay

I feel myself dying slowly

Every single day

I try to fight it

I try to smile

But sometimes I just can not do it anymore

I shield myself in darkness

Hoping for some peace

Only to find the agony

That never goes away

This is what I feel today

Nyx

Battle

I hold my sword toward the sky

I feel everything

All the pain

All the loss

All the sorrow

I take the blade

I slice my hand

I watch the blood drip

Into the sand

In this moment I swear to myself

I will not fail

I will not stop

I look upon my enemy

I tell him to stand

Nyx

Without sound

She stood there

Her hair floated in the breeze

The pain it gripped her

Brought her to her knees

She screamed but no one heard her

She stretched out her arms

But no one saw

The scars that were red and raw

The sorrow and the screams were ignored

It was easier to look away

Than to look upon this girl

So they continued forward

As she stayed behind

To suffer alone

She was left there

Inside her home of pain

She was left there

And everyday she drowned

She was lost

She was seen

But without sound

Nyx

The damned

I feel the grass beneath my fingers as I walk

I feel the breeze as it brushes my face

I see the beauty of the sky

It is so blue today

I listen to the birds

As they sing to each other

I think of the comfort they have

From one another

Yet all of it does not take the agony away

All I can do is take the comfort that it brings

Maybe someday it will bring me the peace that I seek

Maybe someday I will be content in this life

Until then I try to live as I am

I have no choice

I am one of the damned

Nyx

A warrior

At the core of who I am

There is a warrior

A fighter that I know is there

I remember when I feel the pressure build

I remember when I will my heartbeat to slow

I remember and I make myself let everything go

Because I will keep fighting

This is something I must do

I fight for me

I fight for you

Nyx

Today

Today I question

Everything and everyone

Who am I

Who have I become

I feel so weary

As the anxiety

Brings me down

I feel so lost

I do not want to be found

I do not want to be consumed

By the pain that loneliness brings

By the fire that burns in my chest

I just want peace

I just want to rest

Nyx