Alone I sit
Trying to make myself numb
It is not working today
As I push another away
I feel the pain in my chest
I am attracted to destruction
In this attraction I feel no shame
It is only myself
That I have to blame
I am trying to remember something good
I just cannot do it today
Nyx
The loneliness
It cripples me
People only care
To some degree
I see this when they walk away
Because they always leave
Today there is no light
Today I cannot see
There is only darkness
There is only pain
There are no roses
There is only rain
The agony is always there
When I let myself feel
When I let myself care
Nyx
I do not know where I am going
My footsteps pound upon the ground
I have nothing to hold onto
I walk forward
There is no sound
No voice to lead the way
I just feel lost
I feel so lost today
Nyx
I feel the sadness as it starts to spread
Is there something wrong
Or is it all in my head
I do not know where I am going
All is feel is my world turning
In my chest I feel the pain
The ache that never goes away
I am lost beyond this world
Everyone goes
No one will stay
When I stop it hits me hard
Bruised and broken
Beaten and scarred
I have to shut it off
I have to leave this place
There is no solace here
I feel my heart
It begins to race
When I see that look
Upon your face
Nyx
As I get older
My heart grows colder
I try to accept things as they are
Knowing that I am stronger every day
As I continually search for something more
I try to be happy just being me
I want the world to see
The smile I spread on my face
But, on the inside all I feel
Is emptiness
Nyx
The world it spins
Round and round I go
In a daze
I feel the pain
I will never be the same
I keep changing
As the leather gets thicker around me
It keeps me safe
I know longer long for anything
I know longer long for anyone
I am a warrior
Alone I walk this path
I know where I am going
I will not look back
Nyx
And in the end
I stand alone
My skin is made of leather
My heart is shielded in stone
This is the way I must be
Because they all betray me
Nyx
At this moment
The agony grips my chest
I woke with hope today
Then it went away
Why do I continue to breathe
Why do I stay
On the inside
I feel myself decay
I feel myself dying slowly
Every single day
I try to fight it
I try to smile
But sometimes I just can not do it anymore
I shield myself in darkness
Hoping for some peace
Only to find the agony
That never goes away
This is what I feel today
Nyx
She stood there
Her hair floated in the breeze
The pain it gripped her
Brought her to her knees
She screamed but no one heard her
She stretched out her arms
But no one saw
The scars that were red and raw
The sorrow and the screams were ignored
It was easier to look away
Than to look upon this girl
So they continued forward
As she stayed behind
To suffer alone
She was left there
Inside her home of pain
She was left there
And everyday she drowned
She was lost
She was seen
But without sound
Nyx
I feel the grass beneath my fingers as I walk
I feel the breeze as it brushes my face
I see the beauty of the sky
It is so blue today
I listen to the birds
As they sing to each other
I think of the comfort they have
From one another
Yet all of it does not take the agony away
All I can do is take the comfort that it brings
Maybe someday it will bring me the peace that I seek
Maybe someday I will be content in this life
Until then I try to live as I am
I have no choice
I am one of the damned
Nyx
