And in the end
I stand alone
My skin is made of leather
My heart is shielded in stone
This is the way I must be
Because they all betray me
Nyx
Dark Poetry
What I feel today
At this moment
The agony grips my chest
I woke with hope today
Then it went away
Why do I continue to breathe
Why do I stay
On the inside
I feel myself decay
I feel myself dying slowly
Every single day
I try to fight it
I try to smile
But sometimes I just can not do it anymore
I shield myself in darkness
Hoping for some peace
Only to find the agony
That never goes away
This is what I feel today
Nyx
Without sound
She stood there
Her hair floated in the breeze
The pain it gripped her
Brought her to her knees
She screamed but no one heard her
She stretched out her arms
But no one saw
The scars that were red and raw
The sorrow and the screams were ignored
It was easier to look away
Than to look upon this girl
So they continued forward
As she stayed behind
To suffer alone
She was left there
Inside her home of pain
She was left there
And everyday she drowned
She was lost
She was seen
But without sound
Nyx
The damned
I feel the grass beneath my fingers as I walk
I feel the breeze as it brushes my face
I see the beauty of the sky
It is so blue today
I listen to the birds
As they sing to each other
I think of the comfort they have
From one another
Yet all of it does not take the agony away
All I can do is take the comfort that it brings
Maybe someday it will bring me the peace that I seek
Maybe someday I will be content in this life
Until then I try to live as I am
I have no choice
I am one of the damned
Nyx
Loneliness is what I fear
The pain
It comes and goes
Hits me in waves
Sometimes it lasts for hours
Sometimes it lasts for days
Until I shut it down
It is often soothed
By the sound of someone else
Or the sound of music
Playing in my head
Sometimes when the pain is gone
All I feel is dread
Loneliness is what I fear
Night after night
Year after year
I do not want to be alone
I want to find my home
Nyx
Cold and still
I am lost
Dead inside
I am no one
I am nothing
I do not see the sun
I do not see the sky
I know longer feel the pain
Nothing is the same
My feet no longer move
I lay here cold and still
I have lost my will
Nyx
Inside the flame
All that was left of her
Were ashes in the breeze
She fell to her knees
But no one heard her cries
No one heard her pleas
She slowly burned away
The pain was too great
She could no longer stay
She told herself to let go
To let the fire blaze inside
Then she felt her heart slow
Amongst the fire
Inside the flame
She let herself die
Nyx
Broken
I am always reminded
Of the uncertainty in this life
Of the things that I have lost
Of the cruelty
Of the ones who look away
And the ones who do not stay
I am left a wanderer
Lost in this world
Yet driven to be more than what I am
Pushing myself every day to stand
Sometimes the pain grips me so hard
I feel myself slowly
Being torn apart
I try never to forget
What it is I fight for
I try not to forget
What it felt like
When I walked out the door
I no longer know who I am
I no longer know who I was before
I sit here broken
Longing for something I will never get
The pain it lingers
But it has not defeated me yet
Nyx
Loneliness
I ask myself why
I can not be alone
Why does the pain hit
When I sit here in silence
Why does it go away
Only when someone is near
This is what I fear
That this loneliness
Will consume me
That the pain will never leave
Why does it have to hurt so much
Why won’t it go away
Why do I have to fight this pain
Every single day
Nyx
No one
I feel the sadness
It is coming on
I do not know why
I do not know how to fix it
All I want to do is cry
I am not as strong
As I want to be
Because I can not live
Without someone beside me
This makes me weak
This person that I seek
I just want to be strong
I just want to move on
Alone with no one
Nyx
