I am lost in the dark
Running so far
It’s never fast enough
To forget what I have seen
Never fast enough
To forget who I thought you were
I thought that I would be true to you
No matter what you do
I was wrong
Nyx
Dark Poetry
The clouds are closing in
Trying to push through today
But the clouds are closing in
They are there to remind me
That darkness hovers
It still exists within
Just beyond my currents thoughts
The darkness seeps through
I feel the pain as it starts to burn
Then I close my eyes and see
All the things I have seen before
And what is in front of me
The path is still there
It breaks off here again
Asking me if I want to go back
To my land of pretend
Nyx
When my soul is gone
Sometimes despair drags me down
Through this haze of memories
Through years of turmoil
My body sinks
Until it is anchored down
Then the rooms fills with water
As I lay chained to the ground
Once again I gulp for air
Until I can no longer breathe
This is when the emptiness comes
This is when my soul is gone
Nyx
Ripped apart
Live and learn they say
Why do we have to learn
By being ripped apart
Where does the pain end
When does this learning start
I do not believe these words are true
Each piece that is pulled from me
Is another piece gone
I was always this strong
What I have learned is how not to fear
But this was after being beat down
Year after year
Losing everything
Again and again
Falling further and faster
With no where to land
Being pushed down
Until I could not stand
Having my head pushed under
Until I was swallowing water
This has made me fearless
A monster you see
Do you think I would be someone else
If this did not happen to me
No I would still be me
Nyx
Lost
I question everything
I question everyone
I don’t know where I am
I don’t know what I have done
I am lost right now
My steps have led me astray
I hope I find my way again today
Nyx
No one left
There are some things
I will never understand
A love I will never see
This was never meant for me
The type of love bonded through blood
This is forever lost
I fill the void in other ways
Sometimes it has a cost
I can fill my mind with wishes
Dreams and hopes of love
I can hope that I am guided
By love shining down from up above
But at the end of the day the truth is
There is no one left but me
Maybe my hardened heart
Will someday set me free
Maybe this is the only way
That I was meant to be
Nyx
Bleeding inside
Hopeful for a moment
Then the pain hit
I cannot control these emotions
I wish that I could
I wish that someone
Really understood
How unbearable the pain is
I sit hear bleeding inside
Trying to hold on yet again
I am so tired my friends
I just want it to end
Nyx
When hope leaves you
I sit here and reflect upon my life
I question my emotions
I question my decisions
I question where I am
How did I get here
Where do I go
Back to the familiar pain
Or forward to something
That may be the same
I feel the panic as it rises
Unsure which way to place my foot
Where do you go
When you have been here before
What do you do
When hope leaves you
Nyx
Nothing left
What do you have to be
To exist in this world
What do you have to become
In order to survive it
What do you do
When there is nothing left of you
Nyx
This monster that you made
I feel my heart stop beating
I feel myself break in half
Why am I always left here
Alone in this place
How many demons must I conquer
To forget your face
You have destroyed
Only to recreate
It is too late to change
This monster that you made
I try to dream
I try to float away
Instead I scream
As I drown on the inside
Remembering all the lies
I try to live in this moment
But this moment does not last
What I would not give
To be able to erase the past
Nyx
