I suffer every single day
There is nothing that will take the pain away
I exist in my own hell
What I feel inside
Know one will ever know
The pain is so great
It quickly turns to hate
I will rip you down
Before I raise my voice
I won’t need to
I will paint you black
Then I will walk away
Because in the end
There is nothing left
I do not exist in this world
And I never will
Nyx
I exist
As a shadow
I float through the world
They hear my voice
But I do not let them see through the smoke
As I flow through the air
Because I know that I can switch it off
And no longer care
A blessing and a curse
Forward than reverse
I long to be whole
But maybe this will never be
All I can do is hope
Nyx
There is no one here
To hold my hand
There is no one here
To tell me everything will be ok
There is no one here
To hold me and let me cry
There is no one here
To stop me from destroying myself
Nyx
I exist in my own hell
A busted broken shell
I break everyday
Nothing takes the pain away
There is no song that brings lasting peace
There is no wind on my face
There is no ground to walk on
There is nothing anyone can say
Because they all walk away
I wish I did not exist
But here I am
Living this life of pain
I will never be the same
I cannot fix what they have done
I was created and at the moment
My creators have won
I no longer see the beauty of the sun
I no longer see a blue sky
In this moment all I want to
Is die
Nyx
I barely make it through
Everything that I do
No matter what I have done
I have yet to feel the sun
It does not shine upon my face
There is no warm welcoming embrace
As I find myself here
There is no one near
No one to wipe away my tears
No one to soothe me
No one to shield me from my fears
So, I just fall
Further into the dark
I see nothing in this place
So, I close my eyes
And let go
Nyx
Nothing can fill this void
This void within my soul
Will I ever feel whole
Nyx
You cannot fill the void
This hollow shell that I am
It will never be enough
Nyx
Will you keep loving me
When you see who I really am
When you see inside
When you find out
I am one of the damned
Nyx
I reach for your hand
But you let it go
You watched me fall
You watched me fade away
I would have lived if you had stayed
But I did not matter enough
Disclaimer
When I speak of death it is often a representation of an end. I do not want this to be misinterpreted because I know I have friends on here who care. I appreciate all of you.
Peace and love,
Nyx
I had to let you go
That short lived feeling
Has long passed
I need to find a way
To be ok today
I need to find a way
To stop the pain again
What the hell do I do
When all I want is to escape
To feel something else
Besides this eternal heartache
I know longer care
If I win or lose
I know longer know
Who I even am
All I have ever done
Is fight to want to live
Without this dream I have
There is nothing left to give
A wanderer is what I am
A warrior as well
I hold my shield up
But my arms they grow weary
And sometimes I take a hit
When I let the shield fall
This is when you see it all
The pain is on my face
The plastered pieces start to crumple
And the fissures and scars all show
This is what I am
A scarred and broken thing
Like a beautiful bird
With a broken wing
I cannot sing
I cannot fly
The truth is that every day
What I long for
Is to simply die
I try to see the beauty in the world
I try to look toward the sky
I try to ask myself questions
I start to wonder why
Peace has not found me
This is when I cry
Nyx
