I feel myself fall
Farther and farther
I go
Into the depths below
It never stops
This cycle that is my life
There is no end to this game
I will never be the same
As I lay here broken
Pieces of me slip away
Once again all I feel is pain
Nyx
agony
Dark thoughts
When I sit still
Some times the pain is just too much
I do not know what to do
I no longer have words to say
The pain hits me
Every single day
I do not want to think
I do not want to cry
All I want to do
Is say goodbye
Nyx
Pandora’s box
I sit here numb
To everything around me
I feel the world cave in
As I look down at the water
I feel the apathy
As I make my choice
A choice I have made before
With every closing door
I take one last moment
To let myself feel the pain
It cuts so deep
I will never be the same
I look at the sky
Before I jump
Into the cold water below
This is where I belong
So this is where I go
When all is lost
I will take myself there
To Pandora’s box
Hoping for the darkness
Hoping for some peace
Hoping that this time
I do not come back
I just want the darkness
I just want to see the sky
I just want to see the sea
Then I want to die
Nyx
The bridge
I see the bridge
So beautiful
So bright
It lights up the sky
On the darkest night
At my darkest hour
This is where I fall
Into Pandora’s box
There is no night
There is no day
This is where I rest
This is where I stay
Disclaimer
This is not a reflection of me, but a reflection of many who have suffered enough to take their own lives. Peace and love, Nyx
No goodbyes
I feel another piece break off
It crumbles before it hits the ground
How I wish there was nothing left
How I long to cease to exist
The pain it cuts so deep
I will never find the peace I seek
I just want to fade away
No more sorrow
No more pain
Please just take it all
Strike me down and end it
I just want it all to stop
No goodbyes
No final thought
I just want it to stop
Nyx
Bleeding inside
Hopeful for a moment
Then the pain hit
I cannot control these emotions
I wish that I could
I wish that someone
Really understood
How unbearable the pain is
I sit hear bleeding inside
Trying to hold on yet again
I am so tired my friends
I just want it to end
Nyx
This monster that you made
I feel my heart stop beating
I feel myself break in half
Why am I always left here
Alone in this place
How many demons must I conquer
To forget your face
You have destroyed
Only to recreate
It is too late to change
This monster that you made
I try to dream
I try to float away
Instead I scream
As I drown on the inside
Remembering all the lies
I try to live in this moment
But this moment does not last
What I would not give
To be able to erase the past
Nyx
Monotonous life
Each day I rise with hope
Some days it lasts
Some days it does not
Today I hope I find the peace that I seek
I hope that in a few hours
I do not feel weak
I hope that deep inside I keep
Some form of strength left
Because I feel beaten down
I feel so weary
Right now everything I see is dark
Everything is dreary
Each day seems the same as the last
Constantly fighting the past
I live as this broken person
With a smile plastered on my face
On the inside all I feel is disgrace
Everyday to me is exactly the same
This monotonous life of pain
I will try to escape from the pain today
Let’s see if I succeed
Nyx
I have lost all hope
I have moments of peace
They do not last long
Then I feel the pain
As I try to sing along
Sometimes words may help me
Sometimes they do not
All I know for sure
Is peace is all I have ever sought
No matter how much I have cried
No matter how much I have fought
I have yet to find it
Maybe someday I will
Maybe someday the earth will stay still
Just maybe I will find the one
To make me feel safe from it all
To protect me from harm
Maybe he will grab my hand
Before I hit the ground
At this moment I have no hope
All I do today is
Find the strength to go on
Find the strength to cope
This loneliness will stay
It must be my eternal debt to pay
I guess I just have to except it
This is just the way it is
I have lost all hope
That someday I will truly be his
Nyx
How I breathe today
When I reflect
When I stop
When I think about
Where I come from
All I feel is pain
An agony so piercing
An agony so deep
It is all consuming
This agony I feel
What I wouldn’t give
For it not to be real
These images of my past
And all the pain that they bring
Thankfully they do not last
Because I shut them away
This is how I survive
This is how I breathe today
Nyx
