How do I make it stop
How do I escape
This hell that is my fate
Nyx
agony
Fate
Will I be alone forever
I fear I must accept my fate
The loneliness it grips me hard
The pain it rips me apart
Once again I wish I was gone
Maybe there is a place I belong
Right now as I cry in the dark
I care about nothing because I cannot
I cannot care because my whole life I have sought
The one thing I will never have
It is just not meant to be
I was meant to live this life alone
All I will ever have is me
Nyx
Broken
I exist in my own hell
A busted broken shell
I break everyday
Nothing takes the pain away
There is no song that brings lasting peace
There is no wind on my face
There is no ground to walk on
There is nothing anyone can say
Because they all walk away
I wish I did not exist
But here I am
Living this life of pain
I will never be the same
I cannot fix what they have done
I was created and at the moment
My creators have won
I no longer see the beauty of the sun
I no longer see a blue sky
In this moment all I want to
Is die
Nyx
Need to pretend
I would rather suffer
In any other way
Then feel the things I feel
Every single day
It does not stop this cycle
Will it ever end
When will I find peace
When will I no longer
Need to pretend
Nyx
Pain
I feel myself fall
Farther and farther
I go
Into the depths below
It never stops
This cycle that is my life
There is no end to this game
I will never be the same
As I lay here broken
Pieces of me slip away
Once again all I feel is pain
Nyx
Dark thoughts
When I sit still
Some times the pain is just too much
I do not know what to do
I no longer have words to say
The pain hits me
Every single day
I do not want to think
I do not want to cry
All I want to do
Is say goodbye
Nyx
Pandora’s box
I sit here numb
To everything around me
I feel the world cave in
As I look down at the water
I feel the apathy
As I make my choice
A choice I have made before
With every closing door
I take one last moment
To let myself feel the pain
It cuts so deep
I will never be the same
I look at the sky
Before I jump
Into the cold water below
This is where I belong
So this is where I go
When all is lost
I will take myself there
To Pandora’s box
Hoping for the darkness
Hoping for some peace
Hoping that this time
I do not come back
I just want the darkness
I just want to see the sky
I just want to see the sea
Then I want to die
Nyx
The bridge
I see the bridge
So beautiful
So bright
It lights up the sky
On the darkest night
At my darkest hour
This is where I fall
Into Pandora’s box
There is no night
There is no day
This is where I rest
This is where I stay
Disclaimer
This is not a reflection of me, but a reflection of many who have suffered enough to take their own lives. Peace and love, Nyx
No goodbyes
I feel another piece break off
It crumbles before it hits the ground
How I wish there was nothing left
How I long to cease to exist
The pain it cuts so deep
I will never find the peace I seek
I just want to fade away
No more sorrow
No more pain
Please just take it all
Strike me down and end it
I just want it all to stop
No goodbyes
No final thought
I just want it to stop
Nyx
Bleeding inside
Hopeful for a moment
Then the pain hit
I cannot control these emotions
I wish that I could
I wish that someone
Really understood
How unbearable the pain is
I sit hear bleeding inside
Trying to hold on yet again
I am so tired my friends
I just want it to end
Nyx
