Once again I long for death
Devastated and broken
By what I have spoken
To someone who cared about me
Sometimes I wonder if the pain will rip me apart
Sometimes I wonder if the pain will stop my heart
What would I be
If I was not me
Darkness and pain
Fire and anger that spreads
Underneath my chest
Is that all that I am
This thing that should not have been
This thing that suffers in the dark
Please someone help me
Please just take me away
Dear God please just kill me today
Nyx
I’ve been avoiding the sunlight
I’ve been avoiding my life
I am so tired of many things
Most of all I am tired of myself
Tired of the shame
Tired of the pain
Tired of existing as I am
What is the point of life
If I am unable to live it
Why give me so much love
And then make it so hard to give it
I have to find some hope
Because I have lost it again
The pain is so extreme
The pain is too much
There has to be a reason
There has to be a way
To pull myself away from this darkness
Once again today
Nyx
I hear the gate slam
As I fall into the flames
All I feel is emptiness and pain
I lie in the darkness
No longer wanting to exist in this world
With the gate slammed shut
I find my resolve
I have accepted my fate
I can not save myself
From my own mind
I just want to feel the flames
For the last time
Nyx
Only from the ashes of who we were
Can we rise up to become who we were meant to be
Nyx
Push him out
Let him in
Push him out
Let him in
Pain
Emptiness
More pain
I wish I could change
But I’ll probably just stay the same
I had a taste of my addiction
Now it’s gone
I just want to be dead
Nyx
I hear the tick
Of each moment in time
It comforts me
I know that with each tick I come closer to my end
I can’t wait for that last tick
Tick tock
Nyx
There’s the pain
If I go out
It will be with a bang
Nyx
I feel empty
Alone and guarded
Tired of the pain
The others always bring
I often feel
That I am an alien in this world
That I will never really belong here
My smile
My words
I fool you all
I have never been human
I am something else
And I am still here
Every day I wake
Indifferent to each breath I take
Maybe someday the emptiness will fill
Until then here I am
An alien that walks on land
Nyx
Sitting in the dark
Crying again
Letting go of another person
Another strip of my heart is gone
The pain is so great
That I have to shut down
If I didn’t I would break completely
There is no coming back from this
There is no way to change it
I’m still here breathing
Enduring it all
I feel comfort in this time
I have found solitude
I have found solace in the darkness
It is where I belong
There is no human for me
There never will be
Nyx
I can have this hope
That someday I will write to you
And for longer than a few moments
A few precious hours I will not suffer
That hope dies a little more
Every single day
Today is another day
That a piece of me has been stripped away
Left to burn in the flames
Again all I feel right now is pain
Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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