This monster that you made

I feel my heart stop beating  

I feel myself break in half 

Why am I always left here 

Alone in this place 

How many demons must I conquer

To forget your face 

You have destroyed 

Only to recreate 

It is too late to change 

This monster that you made 

I try to dream 

I try to float away 

Instead I scream

As I drown on the inside

Remembering all the lies 

I try to live in this moment 

But this moment does not last 

What I would not give 

To be able to erase the past

Nyx 

The tide 

I try to push the feeling away 

But as the panic rises 

I have no control 

It bursts through me like a tidal wave

There is nothing I can do today 

The tide has blown me away 

Nyx 

Drifting 

Underneath the lamplight

I lay my weary head

Thinking I might be safer

But still wishing I was dead

A drifter is what I was

I guess I still am

Drifting from here to there

Going no where

Stepping forward

Then stepping back

Waiting for the next swing

Bracing myself for the next hit

Wondering when I will lose it

Nyx

Believe in you

There are moments when I lose hope in everyone

Then I realize that I do not need them

The only thing I need

Is to believe in me

Nyx

Never slowing down

As my world spins and spins around me 

My thoughts a shattered mess 

I stop to think to myself 

When is the next test 

Waiting for the next battle 

Never resting 

Never slowing down 

Feeling chained and completely bound 

I only feel peace 

When I listen to the sound 

The music soothes my ranting mind

When I am chained and completely bound 

By everything that crashes through my head 

When I think to myself I’d be better off dead 

When I want to be surrounded by nothing 

I find the one thing that makes me feel human 

The one thing that is always there

Peace is what I find 

When music soothes my mind 

Nyx

All that is left of me 

When he looks at me I see 

Nothing but love looking back at me 

Nothing in this life is certain

As I fight this continuous storm 

What I do know is that he stays by my side 

In this battle he meets my stride 

Whether he is near or far away 

I know he will fight for me 

He is the only one who can see

All that is left of me

Nyx