thoughts
The clouds are closing in
Trying to push through today
But the clouds are closing in
They are there to remind me
That darkness hovers
It still exists within
Just beyond my currents thoughts
The darkness seeps through
I feel the pain as it starts to burn
Then I close my eyes and see
All the things I have seen before
And what is in front of me
The path is still there
It breaks off here again
Asking me if I want to go back
To my land of pretend
Nyx
Finding myself again
When all is lost I look inward
Finding myself again
Nothing has gone as planned
Yet I still stand
With my head high
As the world looks smaller below
I look to the sky
Nyx
Your end
I raise my head higher
Never looking down
My goal is to stay this predator that I am
In my empire I will stand
Without doubt, anger, or fear
My enemies will quiver when I am near
If you face me you will lose
In the end I always win
Play your hand my friend
It will be your end
Nyx
Blue skies
The demon I know
Or the unknown
There is no clear path shown
I wander away from the demon
Fighting through the trees
I hope I find blue skies today
As I continue to walk away
Nyx
Holding on
I keep my head held high
Hardening my heart as the day ticks by
Questioning my emotions
Letting my mind drift
Listening as the ocean
Pulls in the waves
Feeling the peace
That this sound brings
Holding on to who I am
As I feel my feet dig into the sand
Nyx
Insight
At this moment
I do not want to be me
Insight is a gift and a curse
It shows me things
Things I wish I could not see
Nyx
When hope leaves you
I sit here and reflect upon my life
I question my emotions
I question my decisions
I question where I am
How did I get here
Where do I go
Back to the familiar pain
Or forward to something
That may be the same
I feel the panic as it rises
Unsure which way to place my foot
Where do you go
When you have been here before
What do you do
When hope leaves you
Nyx
Beyond my ability
I have always strived to understand
The actions of those I have known
The selfishness they have shown
When they left me there
I have fought to overcome
What they have done
The selfishness I see
Is beyond my ability
What I do know is that it has hardened me
It has made me who I am
For that I am grateful
Even though I may never understand
Nyx
New eyes
The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes. Marcel Proust
