Reality

Some days I just want to sleep

It’s like I can no longer feel

There is no good

There is no bad

There is just this monotonous reality

Nyx

Content

Feeling content is a gift

A break from sadness and pain

I am grateful for this feeling

I appreciate the lack of pain

I accept this gift

Nyx

Peace

Sometimes I find these moments

Moments of peace

Peace I thought I would never find

Peace has finally found me

Nyx

The hole within my soul

I still can’t fill the pit

The hole within my soul

It grows larger every minute

With nothing left to throw inside

I just feel discontent

Hollow and unhappy in my own skin

Nyx

Dreams

I dream of a world beyond what I see before me

I dream of a world filled with beauty

I dream of a world of peace

Nyx

Exist as I am

It is hard to ignore this loneliness

I feel this need for connection

A connection to someone else

In the meantime I lay here

Listening as the clock keeps ticking

Aware of time that is passing by

Knowing that being here alone is not enough

But accepting it anyway

This is what is best

I will keep trying to be better

I will exist as I am

Nyx

Happily ever after

I try to cherish these moments

These moments of clarity

These moments when I feel ok

This fleeting time has come and gone

The hours and days go faster

All I can do is hope that some day

I will find my happily ever after

Nyx

There is no escaping who you are

What do you do when you want to escape your own skin

What do you do when you are tired of the emptiness

What do you do when your tired of that uneasy feeling

There is no escaping who you are

Nyx

This face

What have I become

Who was I before

I do not recognize

This face I see reflected at me

Maybe I am already

Everything I was meant to be

Nyx

Wishes

There are so many things

That we just do not know

What tomorrow will bring

How today will go

It is comforting to see

That you have each other

I truly want to believe

That we have a destiny

That you were meant to find each other

That things are the way they were meant to be

All I know for sure

Is that I see love in both of your eyes

I wish you nothing but happiness and love

Nyx