The clouds are closing in

Trying to push through today

But the clouds are closing in

They are there to remind me

That darkness hovers

It still exists within

Just beyond my currents thoughts

The darkness seeps through

I feel the pain as it starts to burn

Then I close my eyes and see

All the things I have seen before

And what is in front of me

The path is still there

It breaks off here again

Asking me if I want to go back

To my land of pretend

Nyx

Finding myself again

When all is lost I look inward 

Finding myself again 

Nothing has gone as planned 

Yet I still stand 

With my head high 

As the world looks smaller below 

I look to the sky 

Nyx

Your end 

I raise my head higher

Never looking down 

My goal is to stay this predator that I am 

In my empire I will stand 

Without doubt, anger, or fear 

My enemies will quiver when I am near 

If you face me you will lose 

In the end I always win 

Play your hand my friend 

It will be your end 

Nyx

Blue skies 

The demon I know 

Or the unknown 

There is no clear path shown 

I wander away from the demon

Fighting through the trees 

I hope I find blue skies today 

As I continue to walk away 

Nyx

Holding on

I keep my head held high 

Hardening my heart as the day ticks by

Questioning my emotions 

Letting my mind drift 

Listening as the ocean

Pulls in the waves 

Feeling the peace 

That this sound brings 

Holding on to who I am 

As I feel my feet dig into the sand 

Nyx 

Insight 

At this moment 

I do not want to be me 

Insight is a gift and a curse 

It shows me things 

Things I wish I could not see 

Nyx 

When hope leaves you 

I sit here and reflect upon my life 

I question my emotions 

I question my decisions 

I question where I am 

How did I get here 

Where do I go 

Back to the familiar pain 

Or forward to something 

That may be the same 

I feel the panic as it rises 

Unsure which way to place my foot 

Where do you go 

When you have been here before 

What do you do 

When hope leaves you 

Nyx

Beyond my ability

I have always strived to understand 

The actions of those I have known 

The selfishness they have shown 

When they left me there

I have fought to overcome 

What they have done 

The selfishness I see 

Is beyond my ability 

What I do know is that it has hardened me 

It has made me who I am 

For that I am grateful 

Even though I may never understand 

Nyx