thoughts

Dialogue with my friend darkness

/ Nyx / 7 Comments

“Hello Darkness my old friend

It’s nice to see you again”

“My sweet girl why are you so restless?

Can’t find that peace you still seek?

Can’t find an ear to listen to the screams?

Well here I am my dear

I will listen as you scream in pain

Then I will take you with me

I will lay my claim

In the end it will be the same

This is how it must be

Some day soon you will see

It has always been me

I am your true friend

I will show you how your life will end

Take my hand my dear”

I take his hand

“I know darkness

You are always right

Once again you are my only friend tonight”

Together we descend

Walk away

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I see those eyes

Glare through the night

The blue so beautiful and bright

Beyond those eyes

A hollow soul lies

With no empathy or emotion

No capability of devotion

A predator waiting for prey

He eats you

Then tosses you away

You will pine for him

Because he draws you in

His fake smile shows no remorse

Because he does not care about you

He will rip you apart

Then tear out your heart

You will be left there to bleed

Until you gain the strength

To quench the need

And walk away

Nyx

Until I say goodbye

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There is no grey

I will hate you today

I will love you tomorrow

You will be the focus of my feelings

You will see my sorrow

All I see is black and white

Until I say goodbye

I can no longer stay

It hurts too much inside

All I do is wait

To hear the final lie

This is when I shut down

And let myself cry

Nyx

Which path

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What do I want

Which path do I choose

How will I know

Whether I will win or lose

I fight but I do not know

Whether my feet will hit the ground

Will I stand

Or will I fall

Nyx

A heart of stone

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My heart has hardened

Like a ball of stone

It sits inside my chest

As it beats it cracks and crumbles

A little more each day

This is what I need

A heart covered in stone

I need to find myself

Before I can go home

Nyx

Apathy

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My heart pounds in my chest

Will I ever rest

Or will I continue to wander

Lost without a home

As people come and go

I feel so alone

All I can see

Are forks in the road ahead of me

All I can feel

Is complete apathy

I have no remorse

For the decisions I have made

I do not walk in the sun

I linger in the shade

This is who I am

Who I will forever be

This is what is left of me

Nyx

Today

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Today I question

Everything and everyone

Who am I

Who have I become

I feel so weary

As the anxiety

Brings me down

I feel so lost

I do not want to be found

I do not want to be consumed

By the pain that loneliness brings

By the fire that burns in my chest

I just want peace

I just want to rest

Nyx

Loneliness is what I fear

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The pain

It comes and goes

Hits me in waves

Sometimes it lasts for hours

Sometimes it lasts for days

Until I shut it down

It is often soothed

By the sound of someone else

Or the sound of music

Playing in my head

Sometimes when the pain is gone

All I feel is dread

Loneliness is what I fear

Night after night

Year after year

I do not want to be alone

I want to find my home

Nyx