Where do I begin 

Beneath the surface all I see 

Are fissures filled with darkness 

Cracks in my soul 

Spread throughout and hardened 

With each hardship, with each toll

They spread further and wider 

Right beneath the surface 

Right beneath the skin 

Where does the darkness end 

When do I begin 

Dead Inside

I wish I knew what was wrong with me

Sometimes I wish that I couldn’t see

I wish I was blind to everything

I wish I was blind to everyone

I just want to escape this life

I just want to be someone else

I don’t want to feel this pain anymore

I don’t want to feel anything at all

What is it that I am fighting for

Is it freedom, or is it something more

Maybe I will find the answer

Or maybe I will never get that far

I guess it doesn’t really matter

I am still locked inside a cage

With agony trapped inside

Mixed with sorrow and with rage

Here I am again, back and forth I go

I would love to feel peace for just a moment

I would love for my heart rate to slow

I give up on hopes and wishes

I give up on dreams today

I just want to lay here tonight

Dead inside as I wait for the sun to rise

 

Nyx

Hello Darkness my dear 

Hello darkness my old friend

It’s nice to see you again 

I know you’re creeping 

As I’m sleeping 

I know you’ll be there in the end 

Oh dear friend how are you 

It hasn’t been too long 

Are you hear to catch my tears 

Are you hear to sing me a song 

Well darkness at least I know you 

You are definitely real 

In the end when you take me 

Can you take away my ability to feel 

Mortar and stone

I long to be covered in brick

With mortar and stone

With walls so thick

No one can get to me

No one can push through

Just leave me alone

That is all that I ask of you

The Labyrinth 

My hope comes crashing down

Whenever you are around

You crush out the spark

Push me into the dark

Darkness grabs me then

He pulls me down with him

Leaving me in a daze

I see my life through smeared glass

As I walk along this maze

This labyrinth that changes form and shape

This labyrinth I can not escape

Nyx

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In the end 

Your past becomes a fog within you 

Underneath the skin 

I have become such a damaged thing 

Like a bird with a broken wing

I walk this world alone 

Broken but yet I move 

The only thing that drives me 

This broken busted thing 

Is that I refuse to give up

I refuse to let you fuckers win 

Bring the lies and the pain 

Give me all you’ve got 

I can take it all you mother fuckers

In the end I will still be standing 

In the end I will still be here 

In the end I am the one 

You are going to fucking fear 

Nyx

All that is left of me 

And hell will follow me

Wherever I go

Such is this life

This I just know

I will race ahead

Leave it behind

But if I stumble

If it catches me

Darkness is nothing

Compared to this agony

It will follow

But I will not look back

I will not stumble

I will stay on track

I have no choice

I used my voice

There is no turning around

Just each step forward

As I push from the ground

Look ahead not behind you

Or fear will blind you

If you love me you will see

All I ever was, and all that is left of me

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Hello Darkness

Hello Darkness there you are

Just in time to pull me down

I see you creeping in the shadows

Waiting for your chance

Come on darkness grab me now

Take me to another place

Take me to another time

Take me with you down below

Take me slowly so I don’t know

Listen now as my heart beats low

Softer and softer until there is no sound

I feel my body as it grows cold

I feel myself fall and hit the ground

Oh sweet darkness you are my friend

I’m so glad it was you who took me

In the end

Nyx

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My beating heart

Sometimes I feel the dread creep into my heart

Sometimes I wonder what is wrong with my head

You brought back a beating heart that was dead

But what will you do when you see the scars

What will you do when you see the sadness

The darkness buried beneath my skin

Nyx

 

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One of the damned 

I hear music in my head

Repeating round and round

It soothes me when I hurt inside

It soothes me when I’m down

I wish I wasn’t the way that I am

But there is nothing I can do

Sometimes I think I torture myself on purpose

Just to prove that there is nothing I cannot live through

But this is who I am

Forever walking alone

This is who I am

An abandoned soul who walks the world

This is who I am

I am one of the damned

Nyx

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