This was the first year of my life
That I stopped the cycle
The cycle that led me back
To the high of the chase
Then the low from the agony
There has been a void
That my mind used to fill
I have lived this year
Facing the thing I fear the most
I am alone
Nyx
A path I thought was certain
Is no longer there for me
I know I must accept this
But the anxiety burns my chest
I was so sure of myself
So sure of who I would be
So sure of what I would do
It filled me with joy
These thoughts of the path I always dreamed of
I did not see this loss
After coming this far I had no doubts
Yet humbled I have become
Reminded that this is a fight I have not won
So quickly things can change
So quickly hope can lead to pain
I have to find a new path
I have to learn from this
I have to accept this failure
See it for what it is
This was not meant to be
I cannot let this failed dream beat me
Nyx
I feel pride in how far I have come
I have fell down more times than I can count
But I do get up eventually, and after every fall
I remember who I am now
What I have grown into
A warrior with a voice so loud and clear
That people listen now
A voice so loud and clear
That strength and passion flows through me
Maybe someday I will get to where I need to be
As long as I keep getting up I believe I will succeed
Nyx
Uncertainty ruled my thoughts today
But self reflection guided me
Onto a better path
It showed me what I needed to see
There is no certainty in the steps we take in life
But there is faith in a future that can be bright
Nyx
Darkness has reminded me of the agony
That sadness brings
I will feel euphoria
Until it all comes crashing down
This is when I feel him near me
This is when he brings the pain
He is my reminder of who I used to be
He is my reminder of the torment I have felt
He is my reminder that everyone walked away
But today I fight him because I must
I have to remind myself
That I have always gotten back up
Every time I fell
I have to remind myself
That there is a way out of hell
Nyx
Today I wake up to new challenges
I am reminded of the uncertainty
That each day brings
And with each day a new dawn rises
Giving me the chance to start again
Giving me the energy to push myself forward
Because I either rise or fall
That decision is mine to make
With every step I do or do not take
Today I am taking a step
Because that is what I choose to do
Nyx
Only from the ashes of who we were
Can we rise up to become who we were meant to be
Nyx
Today I try to be grateful
For how far I have come
But life does take a toll
After so many battles fought
Some I have lost
Some I have won
All I can do is hope
That there is something beyond this life
All I can do is feel love
For the things that I do have
As long as there is love
Everything is worth the cost
Nyx
In the end I see
Clear blue skies await me
With every rising sun
As a new day has begun
I have hope in my heart
Hope I did not have before
After every battle I have fought and won
Finally peace finds me with the dawn of this new sun
Nyx
Will I find the peace I seek
I have hope in my heart tonight
I lay here in the dark
Under the glow of the stars
The minutes tick by
They become hours
There is peace in the silence, I feel it
I will live in this moment
These fleeting moments I must treasure
This is all I know
It has taken so long to feel this peace
I hope when the sun rises
My dreams will be real
Nyx
