In my mind I see fields
Filled with flowers of color
Filled with grass so green
I feel the breeze
Sweep across my face
Peace fills me in this place
I see myself as beautiful
As I walk slowly
Moving with grace
This is how I want to see myself
Smiling in this field
Forever feeling the breeze
This is my escape
This is my home
Nyx
I feel so heavy
So weighed down
I feel the darkness
Rise above my head
Pulling me further
Filling me with dread
Maybe I will make it
Maybe I will not
Maybe I will find a way
To fix myself again
Maybe I will wake up
When all I want is sleep
Maybe I will pull the blade out
The one that’s in so deep
Maybe I will find a way
To be free
Nyx
The anxiety smoothers me
I can no longer breathe
Survival is what I need
In order to succeed
The struggle to keep my head above water
It gets harder everyday
If only I could find someway
To assure I will make it
If only I could find someway
To feel safe again
As my breath leaves me
I start to feel the pain
The constant worry
It is always the same
Will I make it
Or will I fail
I know that somehow
I have to do this
I have to prevail
Nyx
I see what he has done
I see the grass that has grown brown
I see the trees wither and die around me
I see the sky fade into grey
I walk away from the dark
With every tear I shed
With every sting that this nightmare brings
I push forward
And as I go
I will my heartbeat to slow
I will my sorrow away
I take a seed and plant it
With my love I know it will grow
Someday I will see the trees again
Someday I will see the green
Someday the sky will shine with color
Beauty will not be forgotten
It will be seen
I will live my life again
I will live within my dream
Nyx
I sit here hoping I can keep
This eternal peace that I seek
Today I have won
I have felt the light
Shine down from the sun
I have felt the breeze on my face
I ran through the woods
At my own pace
I will keep this hope in my heart
As I turn the page
Waiting for this new chapter to start
Nyx
I listen as the water falls
What a soothing sound
I feel my body go still
I let go of worry
I let go of sorrow
I just sit here and listen
As it all fades away
Closing my eyes
I find some peace today
Nyx
I hear the sound of the world outside
As I try to find balance in my life
I have always struggled to get by
I have never stopped asking myself why
I have made the decisions I have so far
Then I reflect and tell myself
This is who you are
With every step forward
And every step back
I try to fill the pieces
That have chipped away
I push myself again today
To find the balance and the strength
That I need to succeed
Nyx
I hear the raindrops
Tick off my armor
As I stand in the valley
Ready for battle
I hold my sword to the sky
As I watch you quiver with fear
I look in your eyes
Before I say good bye
Nyx
When all is lost I look inward
Finding myself again
Nothing has gone as planned
Yet I still stand
With my head high
As the world looks smaller below
I look to the sky
Nyx
Today I rise with certainty
Knowing my mind is too busy to be held down
This is how I escape my hell
Nyx
