When the walls cave in on me
When it is too dark to see
I feel the anger beneath my skin
It is part of the darkness buried within
The rage pushes me forward
It gives me strength
I have reached a path
A path of no return
If you are in my gaze
You will burn
I have become a predator
All that I have seen
All that I have done
It has made me into what I am
A lion who fears no one
Nyx
I have been brought into moments of complete despair
But this is how I find my strength
This is how I find hope
I have embarked on a journey
Each stride a lesson to be learned
Each breath drawn is another that I live
Each day I am given a gift
Something that is taught to me
Something that I can give
My purpose is to educate
Those who are unaware
Of everyone in need of love
Of everyone in need of care
Someday I will fulfill this purpose
This I know is true
Because I am still standing here
Writing these lines to you
Nyx
Through the ups and downs I see
A bright light before me
A light that beckons me to follow
It is there no matter how far I have fallen
It is there no matter where I go
I know it will still exist
This light is there
Even as I fall
Into the depths of hell
Under the tides of the sea
Under the covers at night
With my eyes closed tight
I can still see the light
Nyx
I have become a lion
I sit as I wait for dinner to walk through
The valley of darkness is where I creep
I fight with sorrow
I fight with rage
Someone opened the latch
I stepped out of the cage
Now I stalk my prey
The ones who attack the defenseless
The ones who attack the weak
These are the ones I seek
With me or against me
This is what they will choose
Do what is right or I swear to you
You will lose
Nyx
Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half
Someone comes along and points you towards a new path
Sometimes doors do open
When they were shut before
Sometimes you can find someone
That you completely adore
When you feel like everything is caving in
Sometimes a hand breaks through
Holds on and pulls you out into the light
If this happens do not let go
True kindness and empathy is the best gift given
If we all gave more of this
This world would be a better place
Every word of empathy and kindness
Strengthens us as a whole
Because deep down we are the same
We are all connected
Regardless of mind and body
Everyone has a soul
Nyx
I write these lines to my guardians
For the people who saved my life
I will never forget you
I owe my strength
I owe my hope in humanity
To each and every one of you
To those who have fought for me
For those who stood beside a lost child
For those who showed me empathy
I will never forget you
In my heart you will always have a place
Each and every one of you
I will never forget your face
You have made me want to believe
That angels do exist in this life
For the few who fight for what is right
You are my guardians of the night
Nyx
With the ups and downs I see
Hills and mountains laid out before me
Here and there I find a path
Here and there I find a stream
Every now and then a valley
Like a story book from a dream
I cherish these moments
They are rare
When I suffer I take myself there
To my valley
By the stream
Where the grass is high
Where the water is blue
In this place I feel
Like I am home
In this place I feel
That there is nothing
That I cannot overcome
Nyx
I exist as a shell
My soul in eternal hell
The pain is too much
So I shut it all away
Lost again today
Lost my will to live
I did the best I could
I tried to distract
I tried to talk it through
I tried to push away from myself
Before I slammed the knife through
Yet here I am
Bleeding on the inside
Not bleeding out
I am grateful and yet I am not
For the battles I have fought and won
I fight for strength but today I have gone numb
Succumb to the pain I can no longer endure
All I can do is remember what I fight for
Nyx
Sometimes I think that I am beaten
Sometimes I think that I am done
That is when I stop and remember
Everything that you have done
These actions drive me forward
These memories that you made
You were the one I trusted
My life was in your hands
Everything I did to make you proud of me
Everything I did I wanted you to see
I was your daughter
I was the one you were supposed to protect
Instead all you did was lie to me
Confuse me with truths mixed with lies
Until all I wanted was to escape you
Everything I have done
Is a result of what you did
Everything I do
Is a fight to beat you
You are the reason I am who I am
Yet you are the reason I still breathe
You are the reason I stand
Well dear father someday you will see
What you created
What you made
Someday you will see
That you will never beat me
I may be bruised
My bones may break
I may wake up everyday and suffer
From eternal heartache
But when all is lost I see what you have done
This is what drives me forward
This is what makes me carry on
I will fight for those born to suffer
What you have put me through
I will fight through the pain
I will fight because I have no choice
There was no turning back when I broke the silence
There was no turning back when I used my voice
Nyx
Once again I rise with hope in my heart
That today will be better than yesterday
That I will not fall into despair
That I will not long for sleep
That I will not pray for peace
I may be lost
I may be broken
I may have lost the words to say
Words I have already spoken
Yet I am still here
I am still here breathing
I am still here fighting
I have risen again my friend
I will fight until I exhale my last breath
I will fight until there is nothing left
Nyx
