I just want to live

I do not want to think

About the things I could regret

I do not want to know

Anything right now

I just want to escape

All the things you create

These images in my mind

The ones that take me back in time

I have nothing to say

I have nothing to give

I do not know where I am going

I forget where I have been

All I can think right now is

I just want to live

Nyx

On my own

I am still floating in the air

I will not know where I am going

Until I get there

What do you do

When the world crashes down

Where do you turn

When no ones around

I keep walking forward

Somehow I do

Some days are so hard

Just to live through

Maybe some day I will find my home

Until then I will continue to walk forward

On my own

Nyx

Treading water

Today I feel broken

As I push myself to do

What needs to be done

Once again relying on no one

Every turn leads to a wall

Before the foundation gives

Before I fall

I see the water below

It lies beneath as the ground gives way

I am treading water today

Nyx

New beginnings

Things are changing

Once again

I found an end

As a new beginning starts

A new path has cleared

With all the things I have fought

And everything I have feared

I make myself walk forward

Because it is what I do

I adapt because I can

This is who I am

Nyx

Believe

Everyday I fight

I put one foot in front of the other

Some days I fall

Others I keep walking

I try not to think

About what has happened before

When I think about my past

I open a door

Within it is this person

So lonely and so still

She sits there in silence

Broken with no will

This is something I strive not to be

This image that is broken in front of me

There is more to life than this

There is more to live for

There is more to see

I just have to once again remind myself

All I have to do

Is believe in me

Nyx

Obstacles

With every obstacle that I face

I know there will be another

To take its place

It does not matter

Let them come

As long as I am still breathing

I will not stop

Until I have won

Nyx

Not slowing down

One door closes

As another opens

I have chosen to walk forward

Picking paths as I go

Not slowing down

Until I have found

What I am looking for

Nyx

The changing season

As the leaves fall around me

I see the beauty in the changing season

Sometimes there is no need to reason

Everything that people do

I try to remember that when I feel pain

I have to look inside myself again

Find the inner beauty of who I am

As I find the ground

I need to walk on again

Nyx

A new path

The path before me

Filled with branches and thorns

I had to step away

I see a new path ahead

Let’s see where it leads today

Nyx

 

Still as stone

I stand alone in the valley

Still as stone I wait

I hear the footsteps

I know it is too late

I brace myself

Listening as he comes closer

I am ready

Nyx