If I die today
That will be okay
Because I know longer care
Who I ever was
What I ever did
I live my life because
I must
And today I am free
Nyx
Words of Strength
Another place and time
Today I rise with hope
Hoping things will stay this way
Hoping that this time
I will have a hand to hold
There is so much more to me
Then one story to be told
There are many layers
Many scars beneath my skin
If you want to know who I am
The story starts within
I am shaped from betrayal
Pain and many lies
Shaped by those who have come and gone
With no need for goodbyes
If you look at me
I will show you what lies beneath
But only if you take my hand
And wander with me today
Only if you take my hand
And accept me as I am
Broken but still breathing
Mended here and there
I have dreams that keep me going
When it hurts I take myself there
To another place and time
That exists inside my mind
Come with me and you will see
All that is left of me
Nyx
A place for us
Deep within my soul
I know there are pieces left
Parts that will one day make me whole
Someday you will see
That there is so much more to me
Then the girl who walked away
There is so much more to me
Than just one story to be told
One day when I walk the earth
There will be others behind me
I will show them the way
I will show them where there is land
A place for all of us
It exists inside my heart
It is the home of the forgotten
The ones who were once lost
The ones that thought they were dammed
All they needed was compassion
I give to all of you my hand
With all my love,
Nyx
I win
It’s all about beating them
That’s what keeps me going
I always win
My heart still beats in my chest
I feel the anger build
I will never let you destroy me
I raise my shield
I hold my sword
Come and get me
Nyx
Today I fight
Today I am fighting
The void within my soul
If I do not it will destroy me
Everything will fade away
No one else can save me
Because no one else can see
The abyss that is beneath me
The pain that pulls me down
I have to find away
I have to save myself today
Nyx
Born in sin
She walked the world alone
Fighting through the images
Flashing through her mind
Always with a smile
Always so kind
Underneath it all
She feels herself rotting from within
She is not from this world
She was born in sin
Yet she exists
And she will keep fighting
She will win
Nyx
Drifting
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
Disclaimer
I appreciate all of my friends here. Thank you for all your kind words, all your support. It means more to me than you could ever know. 💕
Keep fighting
I keep fighting
Every single day
It will never end
But I will fight anyway
It is all I have ever known
All I will ever know
I walk this world alone
My heart a ball of stone
You can not defeat me
I will build my empire
That will be my home
Nyx
For them
Tomorrow the sun will rise
As I close my eyes
I see the world turn black
Sometimes I want to stay this way
Keep them closed forever
There are a few things that keep me here
So I will open them again tomorrow
Push past the sorrow
And walk out the door
Not for me but for them
I will fight until the end
Nyx
For just a moment
As she walks away
The grass dies beneath her feet
The trees are blown from sight
The clouds they turn to grey
As the storm comes
She looks to the sky
As the rain falls
She closes her eyes
For just a moment she feels peace
Nyx
