I breathe in the air
Tell myself to let go
I try to will the anxiety away
I need to stay focused
I need to find my way
I can not give up
I will try again
To pull myself through
I need to find strength in myself
I need to find it deep inside
Because I have nothing left to fear
Because I have nothing to hide
I just have to keep breathing
Until I find the path again
Then I will walk forward
I will find the light
Every day I remember
Every day I will fight
Nyx
I hold my sword toward the sky
I feel everything
All the pain
All the loss
All the sorrow
I take the blade
I slice my hand
I watch the blood drip
Into the sand
In this moment I swear to myself
I will not fail
I will not stop
I look upon my enemy
I tell him to stand
Nyx
At the core of who I am
There is a warrior
A fighter that I know is there
I remember when I feel the pressure build
I remember when I will my heartbeat to slow
I remember and I make myself let everything go
Because I will keep fighting
This is something I must do
I fight for me
I fight for you
Nyx
I will not look behind me
I must be here today
I need to let go
Of the sorrows from yesterday
Because this is what must be done
Because this is what I do
Every day I rise
Trying to forget you
You are one of many
That I have to let go
My heart no longer aches
From the sorrow that you bring
The pain subsides
As I start to sing
This is what I must do
Walk away from you
Nyx
As I walk along the path
I listen as he speaks
Another person comes and goes
I had a few moments of peace
Before I realized once again
I haven’t found the one
I must continue to protect myself
As weary as I am
I must push myself to wake up
I must make myself stand
Nyx
I try not to think about the past
The images that fly by so fast
The things that I see
I wish they were not real
I wish they were not a part
Of who I have become
The weight it is so heavy
The pain it turns to glass
The shards fly at me
With each obstacle that I face
Somedays I lose my faith
In the entire human race
But today I realize this does not matter
Because I must wake up
I cannot see the darkness
I watch it fade to grey
I have to keep fighting
If I do not it is all for nothing
Today I must be the lion
Or I will not survive
Today I must see the light
I must fight through the haze
All I can do
Is continue to fight you
Nyx
I love you and I hate you
This I know is true
You left me slowly dying
Like so many have done before
I screamed your name
As you walked through the door
There is nothing left
Of the person I was before
You are one of many
Yet you have left your own scar
The chunk you ripped was the last
Of a girl that has passed
Her death was grieved by no one
The shell that remains of me
Looks at the setting sun
I find resolve in who I have become
But I will never forget what you have done
Nyx
As the sun sets
I feel some peace
At last
How I wish that it would stay
When the sun shines I feel the panic
My heart starts to race
These feelings I cannot control
These feelings I cannot face
What do you do
When you can no longer run
You have to look back and see
Everything you have done
Watch yourself as you fell
Into the depths of hell
I am so grateful for this moment
This moment of peace
Nyx
There is no rhyme or reason
For the way I feel
All that I can say
Is that the agony is real
It comes in waves
This feeling of despair
Sometimes it hits me hard
Then it is not there
This feeling slowly wears me down
As the days pass by
It wears me down so much
That all I can do is cry
As strong as I try to be
It never defeats the agony
But here I am once again
Pulling myself up
Making myself stand
It is all that I can do
It is all that I have ever done
I will not stop
Until I have won
Nyx
In my mind I see
No clear path before me
I push forward
Every day
Hoping I will find the way
Hoping that the emptiness will subside
Hoping that the pain will stop
I try to live in each moment
With hope in my heart
That I will find the peace I seek
That I will find my home
Nyx
