In the darkness
I hide from you
The pain slips out
A little with each cut
Never enough to stop
Nyx
heartache
Burning
There it is again
That old familiar pain
Taking away another piece of me
What do you do
When all hope is gone
Where do you go
When there is nowhere left
There is nowhere I can feel peace for long
Nowhere that it does not hurt
Everything that is wrong with me
I see it for what it is
There is nothing more I can do right now
This is all I have left to give
My honesty shows the truth
I have never wanted to live
I am still here
Burning on the inside
Living in fear of the pain
What do you want from me
What is left for you to gain
You got what you wanted
Now leave me alone
Nyx
Fate
Will I be alone forever
I fear I must accept my fate
The loneliness it grips me hard
The pain it rips me apart
Once again I wish I was gone
Maybe there is a place I belong
Right now as I cry in the dark
I care about nothing because I cannot
I cannot care because my whole life I have sought
The one thing I will never have
It is just not meant to be
I was meant to live this life alone
All I will ever have is me
Nyx
My world of darkness
I live in my own world of darkness
I do not see the light
I feel so alone
I feel so sad
I am still grieving over something
I never had
The sadness turns to pain
So similar than before
Except this time I feel less strength
It is hard to remember what I fight for
It hurts today
As I lay here in the dark
Wondering why I cannot be ok
With being alone again today
Nyx
One of the damned
Will you keep loving me
When you see who I really am
When you see inside
When you find out
I am one of the damned
Nyx
Loneliness
I ask myself why
I can not be alone
Why does the pain hit
When I sit here in silence
Why does it go away
Only when someone is near
This is what I fear
That this loneliness
Will consume me
That the pain will never leave
Why does it have to hurt so much
Why won’t it go away
Why do I have to fight this pain
Every single day
Nyx
Dark thoughts
When I sit still
Some times the pain is just too much
I do not know what to do
I no longer have words to say
The pain hits me
Every single day
I do not want to think
I do not want to cry
All I want to do
Is say goodbye
Nyx
On my own
I am still floating in the air
I will not know where I am going
Until I get there
What do you do
When the world crashes down
Where do you turn
When no ones around
I keep walking forward
Somehow I do
Some days are so hard
Just to live through
Maybe some day I will find my home
Until then I will continue to walk forward
On my own
Nyx
Because of you
I have lost faith in the world
Because of you
I believe in nothing
Because of you
You had a mouth full of promises
But a pocket full of secrets
All the lies that you told me
All the things that I did not see
They almost caused my demise
Why couldn’t I see it in your eyes
Why couldn’t I see the lies
Maybe my heart will beat again someday
It does not beat today
Nyx
Disclaimer
This was inspired from the song mouthful of diamonds from the band phantogram.
Great song.
Pandora’s box
I sit here numb
To everything around me
I feel the world cave in
As I look down at the water
I feel the apathy
As I make my choice
A choice I have made before
With every closing door
I take one last moment
To let myself feel the pain
It cuts so deep
I will never be the same
I look at the sky
Before I jump
Into the cold water below
This is where I belong
So this is where I go
When all is lost
I will take myself there
To Pandora’s box
Hoping for the darkness
Hoping for some peace
Hoping that this time
I do not come back
I just want the darkness
I just want to see the sky
I just want to see the sea
Then I want to die
Nyx
