I will never stop fighting 

I feel the emptiness as it starts to grow 

I feel it slip through the cracks 

It is starting to show 

My face no longer wants to smile 

The anger inside me 

It just continues to build 

The rage it boils 

The pain burns 

As my fists clench 

I know I will fight you all 

Until my last breath I swear it 

Step in front of me I dare you 

I will not spare you 

You will lose 

Nyx

My forever 

In my mind I see fields 

Filled with flowers of color 

Filled with grass so green 

I feel the breeze

Sweep across my face 

Peace fills me in this place 

I see myself as beautiful 

As I walk slowly 

Moving with grace 

This is how I want to see myself 

Smiling in this field 

Forever feeling the breeze 

This is my escape 

This is my home 

Nyx

Lost in the dark 

I am lost in the dark 

Running so far 

It’s never fast enough 

To forget what I have seen 

Never fast enough 

To forget who I thought you were 

I thought that I would be true to you 

No matter what you do 

I was wrong 

Nyx 

 

To be free

I feel so heavy 

So weighed down

I feel the darkness 

Rise above my head 

Pulling me further 

Filling me with dread

Maybe I will make it

Maybe I will not

Maybe I will find a way 

To fix myself again 

Maybe I will wake up 

When all I want is sleep 

Maybe I will pull the blade out 

The one that’s in so deep 

Maybe I will find a way  

To be free 

Nyx

I have to prevail

The anxiety smoothers me

I can no longer breathe

Survival is what I need

In order to succeed

The struggle to keep my head above water

It gets harder everyday

If only I could find someway

To assure I will make it

If only I could find someway

To feel safe again

As my breath leaves me

I start to feel the pain

The constant worry

It is always the same

Will I make it

Or will I fail

I know that somehow

I have to do this

I have to prevail

Nyx

Time to feel

We are only a moment

But while we are here 

I will love you my dear 

With all that I am 

With all that I will ever be 

With the best and the worst

Parts of what is left of me 

I will allow myself this time to feel 

To let myself believe that true love is real 

Nyx

Within my dream

I see what he has done 

I see the grass that has grown brown 

I see the trees wither and die around me

I see the sky fade into grey 

I walk away from the dark  

With every tear I shed 

With every sting that this nightmare brings 

I push forward 

And as I go 

I will my heartbeat to slow 

I will my sorrow away 

I take a seed and plant it 

With my love I know it will grow 

Someday I will see the trees again 

Someday I will see the green 

Someday the sky will shine with color 

Beauty will not be forgotten 

It will be seen 

I will live my life again 

I will live within my dream 

Nyx

Turning the page

I sit here hoping I can keep

This eternal peace that I seek

Today I have won

I have felt the light

Shine down from the sun

I have felt the breeze on my face

I ran through the woods

At my own pace

I will keep this hope in my heart

As I turn the page

Waiting for this new chapter to start

Nyx

As the water falls 

I listen as the water falls 

What a soothing sound 

I feel my body go still 

I let go of worry

I let go of sorrow 

I just sit here and listen 

As it all fades away 

Closing my eyes 

I find some peace today 

Nyx