Drifting 

Underneath the lamplight

I lay my weary head

Thinking I might be safer

But still wishing I was dead

A drifter is what I was

I guess I still am

Drifting from here to there

Going no where

Stepping forward

Then stepping back

Waiting for the next swing

Bracing myself for the next hit

Wondering when I will lose it

Nyx

Hoping I make it back to you

Life is an endless array of obstacles

This I know is true

All I do is bear it and keep going

All I do is hope I make it through

These obstacles block the way home

They make me crawl inside myself

Longing to be alone

I always see them coming

These obstacles you see

I brace myself hoping I am wrong

Then I realize I cannot change what is coming

It is my destiny

My fate

There is nothing I can do

It is always too late

It seems some things have been decided

But maybe this is untrue

All I can do is keep moving forward

Hoping I make it back to you

Nyx

Believe in you

There are moments when I lose hope in everyone

Then I realize that I do not need them

The only thing I need

Is to believe in me

Nyx

A lion who fears no one

When the walls cave in on me 

When it is too dark to see 

I feel the anger beneath my skin 

It is part of the darkness buried within

The rage pushes me forward 

It gives me strength 

I have reached a path 

A path of no return 

If you are in my gaze 

You will burn 

I have become a predator 

All that I have seen 

All that I have done 

It has made me into what I am 

A lion who fears no one 

Nyx

Never slowing down

As my world spins and spins around me 

My thoughts a shattered mess 

I stop to think to myself 

When is the next test 

Waiting for the next battle 

Never resting 

Never slowing down 

Feeling chained and completely bound 

I only feel peace 

When I listen to the sound 

The music soothes my ranting mind

When I am chained and completely bound 

By everything that crashes through my head 

When I think to myself I’d be better off dead 

When I want to be surrounded by nothing 

I find the one thing that makes me feel human 

The one thing that is always there

Peace is what I find 

When music soothes my mind 

Nyx

My purpose 

I have been brought into moments of complete despair 

But this is how I find my strength 

This is how I find hope 

I have embarked on a journey 

Each stride a lesson to be learned 

Each breath drawn is another that I live

Each day I am given a gift 

Something that is taught to me 

Something that I can give 

My purpose is to educate 

Those who are unaware 

Of everyone in need of love 

Of everyone in need of care

Someday I will fulfill this purpose 

This I know is true 

Because I am still standing here 

Writing these lines to you 

Nyx 

I see the light 

Through the ups and downs I see

A bright light before me

A light that beckons me to follow

It is there no matter how far I have fallen

It is there no matter where I go

I know it will still exist

This light is there

Even as I fall

Into the depths of hell

Under the tides of the sea

Under the covers at night

With my eyes closed tight

I can still see the light

Nyx

The Lion

I have become a lion 

I sit as I wait for dinner to walk through 

The valley of darkness is where I creep 

I fight with sorrow 

I fight with rage 

Someone opened the latch 

I stepped out of the cage 

Now I stalk my prey 

The ones who attack the defenseless 

The ones who attack the weak 

These are the ones I seek 

With me or against me 

This is what they will choose 

Do what is right or I swear to you 

You will lose 
Nyx

When doors open 

Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half

Someone comes along and points you towards a new path

Sometimes doors do open

When they were shut before

Sometimes you can find someone

That you completely adore

When you feel like everything is caving in

Sometimes a hand breaks through

Holds on and pulls you out into the light

If this happens do not let go

True kindness and empathy is the best gift given

If we all gave more of this

This world would be a better place

Every word of empathy and kindness

Strengthens us as a whole

Because deep down we are the same

We are all connected

Regardless of mind and body

Everyone has a soul

Nyx