As I walk through the trees
I feel the breeze
It is all I have to calm me
In this moment as I grieve
For the wishes and dreams I did not receive
For the ashes of what once was
For the memories that you gave me
For the days that I have wept
For something that was never real
There is no one that can save me
From the fall that has begun
There is no one that can reverse
All the damage you have done
As the anger subsides
I find my resolve
You are just another puzzle
I was meant to solve
Nyx
Here comes another piece of metal
Thrown my way
I raise my shield
Getting angrier every day
I will bring justice
I have no choice
I do not have a sword
But I have my mind
Underestimate me
Then you will see
Your fate is sealed
I will strip your life away
A little more every day
You will know what real pain is
When you feel the fear that justice brings
I will see it in your eyes
I will smell it too
When one fears nothing
They can smell it on you
I swear to you I will fight
With everything I have
With everything that is left of me
I will bring all of you down
You will pay for what you have done
I will not rest until I have won
Nyx
I wake up and try to think
I can do this today
I can will the anxiety away
I try not to worry about tomorrow
I try not to worry about yesterday
Somehow this doesn’t matter
No matter what I tell myself
No matter what you say to me
Anxiety, It takes away the words you say
It takes away my rational mind
Until there is nothing left
But this electricity is wired around me
It is my bind
If only I could find a way to escape it
Before I completely lose my mind
Everything is worse to me than it seems
But maybe I can rest again in my dreams
Nyx
When I feel defeated
When I want to stay down
I find the anger
I find it somehow
I remember what they have done
This is why I fight
This is why I have to will myself to move
This is why I strive to be better
Every single day
This is how I find the strength to tell you
That I will win again today
Nyx
For the arms I have not felt
For the tears I have not shed
For the loneliness your absence brings
For the years of torment and pain
I hope you got what you needed from me
I hope what you stole was worth it to you
You created a monster that day
The day you took my innocence away
The day you pierced the knife in
But never stuck it all the way through
The moments I will never forget
The things I never wanted to see
You buried them in the ashes of my heart
So easy to brush away and see
Everything you did to me
I hope that someday your heart burns
I hope that someday you feel the pain
In the meantime
I will keep fighting every day
In the meantime I will survive despite you
Because that is the only thing
That I can do
Nyx
I feel the emptiness as it starts to grow
I feel it slip through the cracks
It is starting to show
My face no longer wants to smile
The anger inside me
It just continues to build
The rage it boils
The pain burns
As my fists clench
I know I will fight you all
Until my last breath I swear it
Step in front of me I dare you
I will not spare you
You will lose
Nyx
The anxiety smoothers me
I can no longer breathe
Survival is what I need
In order to succeed
The struggle to keep my head above water
It gets harder everyday
If only I could find someway
To assure I will make it
If only I could find someway
To feel safe again
As my breath leaves me
I start to feel the pain
The constant worry
It is always the same
Will I make it
Or will I fail
I know that somehow
I have to do this
I have to prevail
Nyx
I see what he has done
I see the grass that has grown brown
I see the trees wither and die around me
I see the sky fade into grey
I walk away from the dark
With every tear I shed
With every sting that this nightmare brings
I push forward
And as I go
I will my heartbeat to slow
I will my sorrow away
I take a seed and plant it
With my love I know it will grow
Someday I will see the trees again
Someday I will see the green
Someday the sky will shine with color
Beauty will not be forgotten
It will be seen
I will live my life again
I will live within my dream
Nyx
