Broken

I am always reminded

Of the uncertainty in this life

Of the things that I have lost

Of the cruelty

Of the ones who look away

And the ones who do not stay

I am left a wanderer

Lost in this world

Yet driven to be more than what I am

Pushing myself every day to stand

Sometimes the pain grips me so hard

I feel myself slowly

Being torn apart

I try never to forget

What it is I fight for

I try not to forget

What it felt like

When I walked out the door

I no longer know who I am

I no longer know who I was before

I sit here broken

Longing for something I will never get

The pain it lingers

But it has not defeated me yet

Nyx

Pain

I feel myself fall

Farther and farther

I go

Into the depths below

It never stops

This cycle that is my life

There is no end to this game

I will never be the same

As I lay here broken

Pieces of me slip away

Once again all I feel is pain

Nyx

I just want to live

I do not want to think

About the things I could regret

I do not want to know

Anything right now

I just want to escape

All the things you create

These images in my mind

The ones that take me back in time

I have nothing to say

I have nothing to give

I do not know where I am going

I forget where I have been

All I can think right now is

I just want to live

Nyx

On my own

I am still floating in the air

I will not know where I am going

Until I get there

What do you do

When the world crashes down

Where do you turn

When no ones around

I keep walking forward

Somehow I do

Some days are so hard

Just to live through

Maybe some day I will find my home

Until then I will continue to walk forward

On my own

Nyx

Treading water

Today I feel broken

As I push myself to do

What needs to be done

Once again relying on no one

Every turn leads to a wall

Before the foundation gives

Before I fall

I see the water below

It lies beneath as the ground gives way

I am treading water today

Nyx

New beginnings

Things are changing

Once again

I found an end

As a new beginning starts

A new path has cleared

With all the things I have fought

And everything I have feared

I make myself walk forward

Because it is what I do

I adapt because I can

This is who I am

Nyx

Believe

Everyday I fight

I put one foot in front of the other

Some days I fall

Others I keep walking

I try not to think

About what has happened before

When I think about my past

I open a door

Within it is this person

So lonely and so still

She sits there in silence

Broken with no will

This is something I strive not to be

This image that is broken in front of me

There is more to life than this

There is more to live for

There is more to see

I just have to once again remind myself

All I have to do

Is believe in me

Nyx

All I need

I thought I was lost before

That was before I opened the door

There is no foundation

There is no ground

I have been looking

But I have not found

That hand to catch me

As I free float in the air

All I want is someone to love me

All I need is someone to care

Nyx

Obstacles

With every obstacle that I face

I know there will be another

To take its place

It does not matter

Let them come

As long as I am still breathing

I will not stop

Until I have won

Nyx

Not slowing down

One door closes

As another opens

I have chosen to walk forward

Picking paths as I go

Not slowing down

Until I have found

What I am looking for

Nyx