More than I ever have
I have to find the strength
I have to believe
That I can be better
That I can live my life some day
Without the pain I felt before
With every decision I make
With everything that I have left to give
I rise today for you
For those who are as lost as me
I rise again because I must
I have to open the door
So everyone can see
That everyone deserves a chance
To live their lives with happiness
Nyx
Today I felt it all
I shared my tale
Of heartbreak and pain
But I also told them
What it is I fight for
Why I am still here
I have a purpose in this life
That is why I have to live it
Even though I have fallen
Many times before
Even though I will fall again
This i am sure
I will always get back up
Because they need me here
They need someone who can stand up
And take away their fear
They need someone who understands
They need someone to listen
I will be what I need to be for them
That is why I exist
That is who I am
Nyx
I exist in my own hell
A busted broken shell
I break everyday
Nothing takes the pain away
There is no song that brings lasting peace
There is no wind on my face
There is no ground to walk on
There is nothing anyone can say
Because they all walk away
I wish I did not exist
But here I am
Living this life of pain
I will never be the same
I cannot fix what they have done
I was created and at the moment
My creators have won
I no longer see the beauty of the sun
I no longer see a blue sky
In this moment all I want to
Is die
Nyx
I barely make it through
Everything that I do
No matter what I have done
I have yet to feel the sun
It does not shine upon my face
There is no warm welcoming embrace
As I find myself here
There is no one near
No one to wipe away my tears
No one to soothe me
No one to shield me from my fears
So, I just fall
Further into the dark
I see nothing in this place
So, I close my eyes
And let go
Nyx
I keep fighting
Every single day
It will never end
But I will fight anyway
It is all I have ever known
All I will ever know
I walk this world alone
My heart a ball of stone
You can not defeat me
I will build my empire
That will be my home
Nyx
Alone I sit
Trying to make myself numb
It is not working today
As I push another away
I feel the pain in my chest
I am attracted to destruction
In this attraction I feel no shame
It is only myself
That I have to blame
I am trying to remember something good
I just cannot do it today
Nyx
He made me cry
Before I said goodbye
There is no perfect mix
No one who can see
Who I really am
Who I strive to be
I exist and yet I do not
All my life I have fought
To find the balance that I need
In order to push myself
I need to believe
That someday I will find
The one thing that I need
Someone beside me
As I walk through the storm
Arms to embrace me
When I need it the most
I will find you
This I know is true
I will not stop
Until I do
Nyx
I feel the sadness as it starts to spread
Is there something wrong
Or is it all in my head
I do not know where I am going
All is feel is my world turning
In my chest I feel the pain
The ache that never goes away
I am lost beyond this world
Everyone goes
No one will stay
When I stop it hits me hard
Bruised and broken
Beaten and scarred
I have to shut it off
I have to leave this place
There is no solace here
I feel my heart
It begins to race
When I see that look
Upon your face
Nyx
The best poets
Are the most tortured souls
At least that is what I believe
The ones who suffer everyday
Longing for the pain to subside
Hoping that someday they find away
To feel the peace they seek everyday
In the meantime just know
That I hope you find that love you need
That I hope that you will find a way
To smile and laugh and feel no pain
To know that there is more to life
Than this thing that we each
Continue to fight
I just hope that
We realize
That we can find each other
That we all embrace the unknown
Knowing that we are not alone
Nyx
The world it spins
Round and round I go
In a daze
I feel the pain
I will never be the same
I keep changing
As the leather gets thicker around me
It keeps me safe
I know longer long for anything
I know longer long for anyone
I am a warrior
Alone I walk this path
I know where I am going
I will not look back
Nyx
