At the core of who I am
There is a warrior
A fighter that I know is there
I remember when I feel the pressure build
I remember when I will my heartbeat to slow
I remember and I make myself let everything go
Because I will keep fighting
This is something I must do
I fight for me
I fight for you
Nyx
I am always reminded
Of the uncertainty in this life
Of the things that I have lost
Of the cruelty
Of the ones who look away
And the ones who do not stay
I am left a wanderer
Lost in this world
Yet driven to be more than what I am
Pushing myself every day to stand
Sometimes the pain grips me so hard
I feel myself slowly
Being torn apart
I try never to forget
What it is I fight for
I try not to forget
What it felt like
When I walked out the door
I no longer know who I am
I no longer know who I was before
I sit here broken
Longing for something I will never get
The pain it lingers
But it has not defeated me yet
Nyx
I feel myself fall
Farther and farther
I go
Into the depths below
It never stops
This cycle that is my life
There is no end to this game
I will never be the same
As I lay here broken
Pieces of me slip away
Once again all I feel is pain
Nyx
I do not want to think
About the things I could regret
I do not want to know
Anything right now
I just want to escape
All the things you create
These images in my mind
The ones that take me back in time
I have nothing to say
I have nothing to give
I do not know where I am going
I forget where I have been
All I can think right now is
I just want to live
Nyx
I am still floating in the air
I will not know where I am going
Until I get there
What do you do
When the world crashes down
Where do you turn
When no ones around
I keep walking forward
Somehow I do
Some days are so hard
Just to live through
Maybe some day I will find my home
Until then I will continue to walk forward
On my own
Nyx
Today I feel broken
As I push myself to do
What needs to be done
Once again relying on no one
Every turn leads to a wall
Before the foundation gives
Before I fall
I see the water below
It lies beneath as the ground gives way
I am treading water today
Nyx
Things are changing
Once again
I found an end
As a new beginning starts
A new path has cleared
With all the things I have fought
And everything I have feared
I make myself walk forward
Because it is what I do
I adapt because I can
This is who I am
Nyx
Everyday I fight
I put one foot in front of the other
Some days I fall
Others I keep walking
I try not to think
About what has happened before
When I think about my past
I open a door
Within it is this person
So lonely and so still
She sits there in silence
Broken with no will
This is something I strive not to be
This image that is broken in front of me
There is more to life than this
There is more to live for
There is more to see
I just have to once again remind myself
All I have to do
Is believe in me
Nyx
I thought I was lost before
That was before I opened the door
There is no foundation
There is no ground
I have been looking
But I have not found
That hand to catch me
As I free float in the air
All I want is someone to love me
All I need is someone to care
Nyx
With every obstacle that I face
I know there will be another
To take its place
It does not matter
Let them come
As long as I am still breathing
I will not stop
Until I have won
Nyx
