I try to cherish these moments
These moments of clarity
These moments when I feel ok
This fleeting time has come and gone
The hours and days go faster
All I can do is hope that some day
I will find my happily ever after
Nyx
feeling
Falling
I sit here and slip away
My body shuts down
I am lost
But I want to be found
I am reaching out for help today
It is like I am looking back
Yet here I am in the present
This haze of a person with no core self
Please someone help me
Please hold my hand
Please give me the strength
Please give me the foundation
To find the ground
To stop falling
To stand
Nyx
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What is Love
Love is something
I do not know
Does it linger
Does it grow
Is it fleeting
Or does it remain
Is it only there
When someone has something to gain
I do not understand this emotion
All I feel is pain
Nyx
I grab your handÂ
The clouds are grey today
The summer has slipped away
We can not stop the passing of time
All I can do is fight for what is still mine
As the seconds spill into the air like sand
I take a deep breath
And I grab your hand
Nyx
Holding on
I keep my head held high
Hardening my heart as the day ticks by
Questioning my emotions
Letting my mind drift
Listening as the ocean
Pulls in the waves
Feeling the peace
That this sound brings
Holding on to who I am
As I feel my feet dig into the sand
Nyx
When hope leaves youÂ
I sit here and reflect upon my life
I question my emotions
I question my decisions
I question where I am
How did I get here
Where do I go
Back to the familiar pain
Or forward to something
That may be the same
I feel the panic as it rises
Unsure which way to place my foot
Where do you go
When you have been here before
What do you do
When hope leaves you
Nyx
In your armsÂ
I lay here wishing I could be
In your arms my love
Forever wrapped around each other
With nights filled with kisses
And the warmth of your embrace
When I look in your eyes
I see your love reflect back upon my face
My love I am so grateful
Every time I look in your eyes
Every time I feel your arms around me
Every time you see the pain
And softly speak my name
I will keep on wishing
Until you come back to me
In your arms is the only place
I ever long to be
Nyx
How I breathe todayÂ
When I reflect
When I stop
When I think about
Where I come from
All I feel is pain
An agony so piercing
An agony so deep
It is all consuming
This agony I feel
What I wouldn’t give
For it not to be real
These images of my past
And all the pain that they bring
Thankfully they do not last
Because I shut them away
This is how I survive
This is how I breathe today
Nyx
All that is left of meÂ
When he looks at me I see
Nothing but love looking back at me
Nothing in this life is certain
As I fight this continuous storm
What I do know is that he stays by my side
In this battle he meets my stride
Whether he is near or far away
I know he will fight for me
He is the only one who can see
All that is left of me
Nyx
I see the lightÂ
Through the ups and downs I see
A bright light before me
A light that beckons me to follow
It is there no matter how far I have fallen
It is there no matter where I go
I know it will still exist
This light is there
Even as I fall
Into the depths of hell
Under the tides of the sea
Under the covers at night
With my eyes closed tight
I can still see the light
Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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