Dead Inside

I wish I knew what was wrong with me

Sometimes I wish that I couldn’t see

I wish I was blind to everything

I wish I was blind to everyone

I just want to escape this life

I just want to be someone else

I don’t want to feel this pain anymore

I don’t want to feel anything at all

What is it that I am fighting for

Is it freedom, or is it something more

Maybe I will find the answer

Or maybe I will never get that far

I guess it doesn’t really matter

I am still locked inside a cage

With agony trapped inside

Mixed with sorrow and with rage

Here I am again, back and forth I go

I would love to feel peace for just a moment

I would love for my heart rate to slow

I give up on hopes and wishes

I give up on dreams today

I just want to lay here tonight

Dead inside as I wait for the sun to rise

 

Nyx

15 thoughts on “Dead Inside

  1. I can so relate to this recently and kinda right now Nyx. This is touching and beautiful, raw, true. I love how so much of your poetry brings insight, your words… relay your experience that others can’t understand totally, but others can see their own experiences in your work!

    Loving the poetry Nyx!

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  2. I feel your pain. I will never say that “I understand”, as I am not in your shoes, but these words strike familiar chords with me. As always, brilliant.

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