The void

Once again I exist in the darkness

Hiding from the world

Ashamed of what I look like

Ashamed of my lack of control

Emptiness and loneliness

Is all I feel today

In this void of nothing

This void that never ends

Nyx

Welcome

Imagine the worst pain you have ever felt

When your heart was broken

When you were broken

Imagine having that pain

Over and over again

Every single day

All due to the words of someone else

Whoever is filling the void

My unattractive sickness

Is that what you see

Welcome to my reality

Nyx

Away from the light

At this moment all I yearn for is death

All I yearn for is peace

Peace from the darkness that haunts me

Peace from the pain

What I would not give for eternal rest

To not wake up tomorrow

To not have to pretend

To just say good bye to yesterday

And cease to exist today

All I do is float past you

In this shadow of forgotten dreams

Where cob webs have formed

And cracks run through the floor

The only thing that is solid is the tomb

This slab of concrete before me

Closing me in the dark

The air is pushed out of me

As the darkness blows out the light

At this moment my will is gone

Today I submit to my friend Darkness

He has come for me

I let him take my hand as we descend

Further away from the light

Darkness is my only friend tonight
Nyx

Free Fall #2 

Sometimes I wonder if I am being tested 

To see just how much I can take 

Sometimes I just do not understand 

Why I never seem to land 

It is just a constant free fall

Never ending emptiness

My feet never find the ground 

All I feel is everything pushing me down 

What I would not give for some sand 

What I would not give for someone to take my hand 

Take away the burden 

Grab me from the sky 

Place me down and give me a place to lie 

Maybe someday I will find a way 

To grab a hand to hold 

To really trust in someone else completely 

That day is not today 
Nyx 

Pink Floyd

Listening to Pink Floyd…

Helps me fill the void…

Brings me peace when I’m held down…

I just listen to the sound…

It’s here when I am lost that I can be found

Nyx