I still can’t fill the pit
The hole within my soul
It grows larger every minute
With nothing left to throw inside
I just feel discontent
Hollow and unhappy in my own skin
Nyx
void
Never ending nothing
I am lost again today
I am just a hole
A black mass
Of never ending nothing
Never ending nothing
Nyx
Disgust
My body feels foreign
It disgusts me
Will I ever love myself
Will I ever find a way
To not hate myself again today
Nyx
Restless
I cannot sleep tonight
I lay here in the dark
Restless in this skin
I try to be present
But I never really am
Nyx
The void
Once again I exist in the darkness
Hiding from the world
Ashamed of what I look like
Ashamed of my lack of control
Emptiness and loneliness
Is all I feel today
In this void of nothing
This void that never ends
Nyx
Welcome
Imagine the worst pain you have ever felt
When your heart was broken
When you were broken
Imagine having that pain
Over and over again
Every single day
All due to the words of someone else
Whoever is filling the void
My unattractive sickness
Is that what you see
Welcome to my reality
Nyx
Never enough
You cannot fill the void
This hollow shell that I am
It will never be enough
Nyx
Away from the light
At this moment all I yearn for is death
All I yearn for is peace
Peace from the darkness that haunts me
Peace from the pain
What I would not give for eternal rest
To not wake up tomorrow
To not have to pretend
To just say good bye to yesterday
And cease to exist today
All I do is float past you
In this shadow of forgotten dreams
Where cob webs have formed
And cracks run through the floor
The only thing that is solid is the tomb
This slab of concrete before me
Closing me in the dark
The air is pushed out of me
As the darkness blows out the light
At this moment my will is gone
Today I submit to my friend Darkness
He has come for me
I let him take my hand as we descend
Further away from the light
Darkness is my only friend tonight
Nyx
What is left of me
No one will find me
No one will see
What I leave behind
When I am gone
No one will see
What is left of me
Nyx
Free Fall #2
Sometimes I wonder if I am being tested
To see just how much I can take
Sometimes I just do not understand
Why I never seem to land
It is just a constant free fall
Never ending emptiness
My feet never find the ground
All I feel is everything pushing me down
What I would not give for some sand
What I would not give for someone to take my hand
Take away the burden
Grab me from the sky
Place me down and give me a place to lie
Maybe someday I will find a way
To grab a hand to hold
To really trust in someone else completely
That day is not today
Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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