I pretend to smile
I pretend to be ok
I hold back on things I should say
I pretend not to see that you screwed me
I pretend not to feel the pain
I don’t want to see my reality
The selfishness of the people around me
These people who pretend to care
Where are they when you need them to be there
Don’t they know it freaking hurts to be let down
I’m tired of pretending…I’m tired of being in pain
I just want to escape my life…escape these people I have to pretend for
I just can’t do it anymore
They break off a little more of what’s left of me
If they saw what was left on the inside…past the mask…would they really see
I don’t think they can…so I will no longer pretend
Get out of my life…get out of my heart…this is the end
Words From The Borderline 
Very heartfelt. I think we all have felt like that at times and you captured the emotions perfectly. It’s hard not to pretend sometimes. Because when we stop pretending, the hurt flows through us with such intensity we are afraid it might never stop. But it does…. until the next time.
I really enjoyed this poem. It touched me. As a retired teacher it is hard not to respond and sound like an educator. But it is who I am. When writing reaches out and makes contact with another soul, then you, the writer, the poet, has done your job. You accomplished that. Well done!!!
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Wow thank you so much – that means so much to me
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Very compelling. So often the case we live for others behind a mask until at last something must give in order to breathe a life we desire to live
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Reblogged this on Creative Writing Reblogged.
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I did a lot of this pretending myself over Christmas, it’s been difficult crashing back down to my own reality last few days, so I can understand this experience
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Sorry that you understand it cause it sucks
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So true.. no longer pretend..
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Your so awesome – what should I call you ? Angry ? Not sure but feel I should thank you by name
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It’s Angie spelled in Spanish Angy.. 😂😂 but you can call me Ann.. and thank you 😊..
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Your welcome Ann ❤
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I hate times like that, when you just want to scream. Stay strong! (PS loved the poem)
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Thank you
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this is so good. captures a true reality for so many of us.
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Thank you so much Bethany. ❤
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Strong poem, i can really see the beauty behind the melancholy…
All i can say is that everything’s going to be okay, it always is 🙂
Looking forward to reading more of your creations.
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Thank you – I know things will be ok – it’s great to be able to write out my feelings this way- it helps me work through them from the present and the past. Thanks for saying that it means a lot 😊❤
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Very effective poem! Power to you !
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Thanks masoom
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Have you ever thought about putting your writing into a rap? Could be cool. Would love to hear your thoughts on Lardy Arms, our new groundbreaking story
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No but that’s a really funny thought. Never even crossed my mind lol. I’m sure your work is great – I honestly feel that poetry is art and people will like it or they won’t. I don’t want to criticize someone’s art – it’s their self expression- can’t really go wrong there in my book
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Oh heart break. I know the sorrow. Much love.
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Thank you plainmama. ❤
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I think you and I need to be friends. I would be more than happy to add you to Facebook or anything like that
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I’m on Instagram nyx0519
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Unfortunately I don’t have instagram. On Facebook I’m Andrea Rose, my picture is me with a brown Doberman wrapped around my head. That’s pretty much the only social media I have
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You can always email through here if you want
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powerful. I can relate. Thanks for sharing this.
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Sorry that you can relate ❤
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that’s a really thoughtful, sweet thing to say, thanks
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No need to thank me for that
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😦
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❤
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