Bliss

Blissful moments are the peace we seek Pleasure we never knew we could feel Until that moment has left you Showing you that it wasn’t real Bliss is the foreplay of torture The beauty of the moment slips away Until there is nothing left There is just another day Like so many days before I … Continue reading Bliss

Existing

I kind of want to die again It’s been a little while It’s very hard to be alive right now Its very hard to exist as myself in this current state that I am in Should I do something Should I help others in some way Or have I already said All there is to … Continue reading Existing

There is no escaping who you are

What do you do when you want to escape your own skin What do you do when you are tired of the emptiness What do you do when your tired of that uneasy feeling There is no escaping who you are Nyx

The Pit

I am alone again My thoughts have slowed down I slept and then woke up to sadness Once again not knowing what to do At least I have my furry companions They lay beside me now Taking away a little piece of the pain That pulls the rest of me away My will is broken … Continue reading The Pit

Addictions

Push him out Let him in Push him out Let him in Pain Emptiness More pain I wish I could change But I’ll probably just stay the same I had a taste of my addiction Now it’s gone I just want to be dead Nyx

Darkness please come

I long for the darkness to take me there Away from this life I can no longer care About what exists outside these walls All I want right now is to never wake up Darkness please come Darkness please take me away I give up You have won today Nyx

Alien

I feel empty Alone and guarded Tired of the pain The others always bring I often feel That I am an alien in this world That I will never really belong here My smile My words I fool you all I have never been human I am something else And I am still here Every … Continue reading Alien

Solace in the dark

Sitting in the dark Crying again Letting go of another person Another strip of my heart is gone The pain is so great That I have to shut down If I didn’t I would break completely There is no coming back from this There is no way to change it I’m still here breathing Enduring … Continue reading Solace in the dark

Divided

Today I find myself In a place I have never been before Divided by who I was And who I have become Nyx

Hollow soul

The sadness hits me As soon as I close the door I feel the hate for myself More than anything else The hate, the shame, and my hollow soul Nyx