Random thought 

Yeah so when someone hurts you  It does make you stronger  But it still hurts like hell  Nyx 

Agony

As soon as I stop moving As soon as my mind stills...  I am flooded with agony It is not a memory...it is not a face It is just all consuming heartache All I see is darkness...bleak and black Why can I never slow down...without the pain slamming me back This is why I move so quickly...this … Continue reading Agony

Darkness # 4

Need to stay in motion  Need to pass the time  If I don't he will catch me  He will creep into my mind He brings back the pain...takes me back in time  So I continue to move too fast  My mind spins so quickly... I forget what I have done  Darkness sees me flustered and … Continue reading Darkness # 4

Pretend

I pretend to smile  I pretend to be ok  I hold back on things I should say  I pretend not to see that you screwed me  I pretend not to feel the pain  I don't want to see my reality  The selfishness of the people around me These people who pretend to care  Where are … Continue reading Pretend

The beauty of the rain

I wake up and I fight today As the rain falls from the sky I wonder why sometimes sadness grips me As I wait for you and I... To find that special place...to find that common ground In the meantime I listen as the rain falls I listen to the sound So peaceful it makes … Continue reading The beauty of the rain

So freaking much pain 

So much pain So alone So much pain...it's breaking me apart It's all I feel Sometimes I wish I could just forget Lose my mind and become a blank slate I just want to walk away I want to jump...I want to fall Please just let me forget...please just let me escape If there's a … Continue reading So freaking much pain 

Shut up

Watch the blood drip on the floor Look for the lock on the door I fear his anger more than blood  I'd rather see the truth than hear the lies  Don't say your sorry when you don't mean it You see that speck  Get over there and clean it  Perfection on the outside destruction within  … Continue reading Shut up

Pain 

Sometimes I feel the pain So deep in my heart...so deep in my chest It grips me sometimes...this loneliness I feel It is a painful reminder that the past is real Sometimes it disappears in shadow Sometimes it fades away with the light It is always a struggle for me...always a fight It hurts today...It … Continue reading Pain 

Nothing is as it seems

I would rather watch as my skin burns Then feel the pain from my dreams I sit still as the world turns Nothing is as it seems Nyx

Darkness and the game

Darkness lingers in the corners of my mind He waits for my thoughts to stay still…he waits for me to feel him near He waits for the calm…then slithers his way in Darkness tries to find a way to make me feel fear That will never happen I say to him, unless you hurt the … Continue reading Darkness and the game