Erase me

I feel my heart stop beating I feel myself break in half Why am I always left here Alone in this place How many demons must I conquer To forget your face You have destroyed Only to recreate It is too late to change This monster that you made I try to dream I try … Continue reading Erase me

How I breathe today 

When I reflect When I stop When I think about Where I come from All I feel is pain An agony so piercing An agony so deep It is all consuming This agony I feel What I wouldn't give For it not to be real These images of my past And all the pain that … Continue reading How I breathe today 

Jackal with a latch 

I wake up and I wait to see  Where these next few steps will take me I am walking away from the life I lived before  To walk alone again once more  There are no serpents in the grass  Just a jackal with a latch  I must be careful as I make my move  I … Continue reading Jackal with a latch 

My guardians of the night 

I write these lines to my guardians  For the people who saved my life  I will never forget you  I owe my strength  I owe my hope in humanity  To each and every one of you  To those who have fought for me  For those who stood beside a lost child  For those who showed … Continue reading My guardians of the night 

Break the silence 

Sometimes I think that I am beaten  Sometimes I think that I am done  That is when I stop and remember  Everything that you have done  These actions drive me forward  These memories that you made  You were the one I trusted  My life was in your hands  Everything I did to make you proud … Continue reading Break the silence 

Strike back 

Is everyone really against me  Or have I just lost my mind  I'm too lost to see  Who is really genuine  Who is really kind I am reminded of a time  When life was a consistent slap  People would find me  Shove me into a trap  Lock the door then turn the key  I was … Continue reading Strike back 

Lost among the mist 

Alone I float by  Lost among the mist  Constantly asking myself why  Feeling the knife twist  The past comes back to haunt me No matter what I do  You are the one who put me here This I know is true  You are the one I used to fear  As time passes your face stays … Continue reading Lost among the mist 

As the colors fade

Today I dream of fields with flowers  Valleys and streams of beauty  Today I see the colors light up the sky  As the wind picks up and lifts the leaves up high  I wait and watch as the colors fade...as the sun starts to set and the moon begins to rise  It is in between … Continue reading As the colors fade

The light has dawned again

The light has dawned again A new day has come I hate that I am reminded sometimes where I come from Once again I bring myself out of that dark place Once again I stand up and look past that face Leave me alone darkness I swear you will never win Stay where you belong... … Continue reading The light has dawned again

Shut up

Watch the blood drip on the floor Look for the lock on the door I fear his anger more than blood  I'd rather see the truth than hear the lies  Don't say your sorry when you don't mean it You see that speck  Get over there and clean it  Perfection on the outside destruction within  … Continue reading Shut up