Fleeting dreams 

I used to think you loved me 

Then you said good bye 

I sit here asking myself why 

Why can’t love be unconditional

Why can’t you try 

We are all flawed in someway 

At least I never lie 

One thing I will never understand 

Is why you thought you ever loved me 

Because true love is unconditional 

It does not fade with words

It does not fade with time 

I was never yours 

You were never mine 

I hope that you do find 

True love someday 

At least I know now 

What it is we never had 

Someday you will find the one 

That you will forever love and adore 

In the mean time 

My fleeting dream is gone 

Nyx

I have lost all hope 

I have moments of peace 

They do not last long 

Then I feel the pain 

As I try to sing along 

Sometimes words may help me

Sometimes they do not 

All I know for sure 

Is peace is all I have ever sought 

No matter how much I have cried 

No matter how much I have fought 

I have yet to find it 

Maybe someday I will 

Maybe someday the earth will stay still 

Just maybe I will find the one 

To make me feel safe from it all

To protect me from harm 

Maybe he will grab my hand 

Before I hit the ground 

At this moment I have no hope 

All I do today is

Find the strength to go on 

Find the strength to cope 

This loneliness will stay 

It must be my eternal debt to pay 

I guess I just have to except it 

This is just the way it is 

I have lost all hope 

That someday I will truly be his 

Nyx

Jackal with a latch 

I wake up and I wait to see 

Where these next few steps will take me

I am walking away from the life I lived before 

To walk alone again once more 

There are no serpents in the grass 

Just a jackal with a latch 

I must be careful as I make my move 

I must brace myself and keep my head held high 

Today is the first day of my official good bye 

Nyx

Break the silence 

Sometimes I think that I am beaten 

Sometimes I think that I am done 

That is when I stop and remember 

Everything that you have done 

These actions drive me forward 

These memories that you made 

You were the one I trusted 

My life was in your hands 

Everything I did to make you proud of me 

Everything I did I wanted you to see 

I was your daughter 

I was the one you were supposed to protect 

Instead all you did was lie to me 

Confuse me with truths mixed with lies 

Until all I wanted was to escape you 

Everything I have done 

Is a result of what you did 

Everything I do 

Is a fight to beat you

You are the reason I am who I am 

Yet you are the reason I still breathe 

You are the reason I stand

Well dear father someday you will see

What you created 

What you made 

Someday you will see 

That you will never beat me 

I may be bruised 

My bones may break 

I may wake up everyday and suffer 

From eternal heartache 

But when all is lost I see what you have done 

This is what drives me forward 

This is what makes me carry on 

I will fight for those born to suffer 

What you have put me through 

I will fight through the pain 

I will fight because I have no choice 

There was no turning back when I broke the silence 

There was no turning back when I used my voice 
Nyx

She exists in shadows

She exists in shadows 

Wishing she could forget 

The day she first saw you 

The smile across your face

If only there was a way 

That the memory could be erased 

These memories of perfection 

Eat at her heart

She should have know there would be a cost 

Right from the start 

She followed you without thought 

Loving you more than life

She wept as you left her 

When she needed you so

The last thing she said was my love please don’t go 

Nyx

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Losing me 

He comes and goes…

And he does not see…

That he is losing me

Nyx

 

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The Shining Sun

I hate you and I love you

This image from my past

But a love so fierce and strong

Was never meant to last

You pulled me toward perfection

But only with your eyes

Your words were given with nothing.. but false sincerity and lies

You were supposed to be the one

The shining light from the sun

But you left me in the dark

You took my will away..you blew out my spark

You were my everything..until you walked away

The last thing you said to me was..I’ll tell you why someday

I should have known from the start

That you would break my heart

But perfect love doesn’t last

That’s why my heart splintered and fractured so fast

You should have been the one

You were everything..you were the sun

Connections 

Sometimes things just aren’t meant to last

This is why connections are so hard to make

Because like a cable they can snap and break

Innocense

There once was a girl

She was so innocent and true

There was nothing that she couldn’t do

Until her innocence was lost

Her heart broken and betrayed… and what was the cost

Innocense lost is such a sad thing

A lifetime of fighting through shadows and pain

An aversion to sunlight

And a love for the rain

I Search for Myself

I search for myself

I finally like what I find

After years of grief and pain

I finally broke the bind

I search for myself

With memories behind my eyes

I push myself forward

Because I can now see the lies

I search for myself

Because I have to push on

I cannot look back

I need to be strong