My forever 

In my mind I see fields 

Filled with flowers of color 

Filled with grass so green 

I feel the breeze

Sweep across my face 

Peace fills me in this place 

I see myself as beautiful 

As I walk slowly 

Moving with grace 

This is how I want to see myself 

Smiling in this field 

Forever feeling the breeze 

This is my escape 

This is my home 

Nyx

Time to feel

We are only a moment

But while we are here 

I will love you my dear 

With all that I am 

With all that I will ever be 

With the best and the worst

Parts of what is left of me 

I will allow myself this time to feel 

To let myself believe that true love is real 

Nyx

Loving you

When I heard you say your name 

I knew I would never be the same 

Something changed in me that day 

That interest grew with words you said 

Dreams were formed inside my head

Then I felt the pull 

Then I felt your skin

I knew then that I was lost 

I gave you my heart that day 

You took it when I saw your eyes 

When the force made me look into them 

You took it when you did not leave 

You never faltered 

You never swayed 

You believed in me 

And I know that you still do 

This is why I know 

I will never stop loving you 

Because there is nothing 

That your love for me 

Will not carry me through 

Nyx

Untainted love

I question so many things 

But I do not question you 

You have stayed beside me 

Through the good days and the bad 

You have watched me crumble 

You have watched me fall 

You stood beside me through it all 

I have watched many come and go 

I have learned to rely on no one 

Yet in your eyes I see 

Something I have not seen before 

A love untainted and so sure 

I hope I can be this beauty you see forever 

I hope I can hold this strength to go on

I hope I am what you were looking for 

I hope I remain this person that you adore 

I hope I give you everything

That you give me and more 

Nyx

In a million ways 

My darling 

I just want you to know 

That for a million days 

In a million ways 

My love for you will only continue to grow 

You have become my sunshine 

After the storm

You have become my moonlight 

Showing me the way each night

You have become my peace 

When everything spins out of control 

You have become my everything 

You are the other half of my soul

Nyx 

In your arms 

I lay here wishing I could be 

In your arms my love 

Forever wrapped around each other 

With nights filled with kisses 

And the warmth of your embrace 

When I look in your eyes

I see your love reflect back upon my face 

My love I am so grateful 

Every time I look in your eyes

Every time I feel your arms around me 

Every time you see the pain 

And softly speak my name 

I will keep on wishing 

Until you come back to me 

In your arms is the only place 

I ever long to be 

Nyx

Hoping I make it back to you

Life is an endless array of obstacles

This I know is true

All I do is bear it and keep going

All I do is hope I make it through

These obstacles block the way home

They make me crawl inside myself

Longing to be alone

I always see them coming

These obstacles you see

I brace myself hoping I am wrong

Then I realize I cannot change what is coming

It is my destiny

My fate

There is nothing I can do

It is always too late

It seems some things have been decided

But maybe this is untrue

All I can do is keep moving forward

Hoping I make it back to you

Nyx

All that is left of me 

When he looks at me I see 

Nothing but love looking back at me 

Nothing in this life is certain

As I fight this continuous storm 

What I do know is that he stays by my side 

In this battle he meets my stride 

Whether he is near or far away 

I know he will fight for me 

He is the only one who can see

All that is left of me

Nyx 

My purpose 

I have been brought into moments of complete despair 

But this is how I find my strength 

This is how I find hope 

I have embarked on a journey 

Each stride a lesson to be learned 

Each breath drawn is another that I live

Each day I am given a gift 

Something that is taught to me 

Something that I can give 

My purpose is to educate 

Those who are unaware 

Of everyone in need of love 

Of everyone in need of care

Someday I will fulfill this purpose 

This I know is true 

Because I am still standing here 

Writing these lines to you 

Nyx 

When doors open 

Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half

Someone comes along and points you towards a new path

Sometimes doors do open

When they were shut before

Sometimes you can find someone

That you completely adore

When you feel like everything is caving in

Sometimes a hand breaks through

Holds on and pulls you out into the light

If this happens do not let go

True kindness and empathy is the best gift given

If we all gave more of this

This world would be a better place

Every word of empathy and kindness

Strengthens us as a whole

Because deep down we are the same

We are all connected

Regardless of mind and body

Everyone has a soul

Nyx