Today I wanted to stay in my dreams There was no pain or hardship there I didn’t want to wake up to this reality The reality of the loneliness in my life The reality of the skin I live in The reality of the shame I feel I wish it all wasn’t real Nyx
depression
Seconds that speed away
I just want to escape Leave this pain behind Leave this world behind The sadness has passed Now I am numb Dead inside Staying where no one can see me Aware of how quickly the seconds go Aware that soon my time will be over This time that continues to speed away All I can … Continue reading Seconds that speed away
A warrior with a voice
I feel pride in how far I have come I have fell down more times than I can count But I do get up eventually, and after every fall I remember who I am now What I have grown into A warrior with a voice so loud and clear That people listen now A voice … Continue reading A warrior with a voice
Faith
Uncertainty ruled my thoughts today But self reflection guided me Onto a better path It showed me what I needed to see There is no certainty in the steps we take in life But there is faith in a future that can be bright Nyx
Disgust
My body feels foreign It disgusts me Will I ever love myself Will I ever find a way To not hate myself again today Nyx
Restless
I cannot sleep tonight I lay here in the dark Restless in this skin I try to be present But I never really am Nyx
In my skin
I wish that I could escape From my own mind But I am stuck here With my thoughts With my self hate Every moment of every day I hate being in my skin Nyx
The Pit
I am alone again My thoughts have slowed down I slept and then woke up to sadness Once again not knowing what to do At least I have my furry companions They lay beside me now Taking away a little piece of the pain That pulls the rest of me away My will is broken … Continue reading The Pit
Pulling me
I sit here and I feel the pain The pain that loneliness brings I remind myself that I have to feel I remind myself that I cannot shut it off or I will never heal But the heaviness wears me down I feel it pulling me further away Then I feel the pain in my … Continue reading Pulling me
The void
Once again I exist in the darkness Hiding from the world Ashamed of what I look like Ashamed of my lack of control Emptiness and loneliness Is all I feel today In this void of nothing This void that never ends Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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