It is incredible to think That within moments Everything can change That is the danger in feeling that bliss It seems the happier I am The faster it ends Here I am again completely numb After all of that crippling pain I am alone Sitting here trying to continue to not feel Anything at all … Continue reading It ends
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Today
I’ve been avoiding the sunlight I’ve been avoiding my life I am so tired of many things Most of all I am tired of myself Tired of the shame Tired of the pain Tired of existing as I am What is the point of life If I am unable to live it Why give me … Continue reading Today
Exist as I am
It is hard to ignore this loneliness I feel this need for connection A connection to someone else In the meantime I lay here Listening as the clock keeps ticking Aware of time that is passing by Knowing that being here alone is not enough But accepting it anyway This is what is best I … Continue reading Exist as I am
Trapped in hell
I hear the gate slam As I fall into the flames All I feel is emptiness and pain I lie in the darkness No longer wanting to exist in this world With the gate slammed shut I find my resolve I have accepted my fate I can not save myself From my own mind I … Continue reading Trapped in hell
Addictions
Push him out Let him in Push him out Let him in Pain Emptiness More pain I wish I could change But I’ll probably just stay the same I had a taste of my addiction Now it’s gone I just want to be dead Nyx
Solace in the dark
Sitting in the dark Crying again Letting go of another person Another strip of my heart is gone The pain is so great That I have to shut down If I didn’t I would break completely There is no coming back from this There is no way to change it I’m still here breathing Enduring … Continue reading Solace in the dark
Burning
There it is again That old familiar pain Taking away another piece of me What do you do When all hope is gone Where do you go When there is nowhere left There is nowhere I can feel peace for long Nowhere that it does not hurt Everything that is wrong with me I see … Continue reading Burning
Still drifting
I walk this world a wanderer Drifting from here to there It is hard to believe I am still breathing But here I am still wandering the land Some days I wish I was not me Somedays I wish I was gone Today I sit here, still breathing Always fighting through the pain Always fighting … Continue reading Still drifting
There is no cure
Today I wish I wasn’t me Like I have so many days before What I suffer from There is no cure As I lay here in the dark I find comfort in my dreams There is no pain there I do not remember Happiness lasting very long No matter what I have done No matter … Continue reading There is no cure
Darkness and the night
Darkness will follow me Wherever I go When I am alone This is when I know I can feel it He is coming There he is as the light flickers out He looks at me and shakes his head Darling girl why are you still not dead Haven’t you learned anything yet This suffering and … Continue reading Darkness and the night
Words From The Borderline 
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