I am grieving a loss but what do I grieve

Is it those few moments of sweet reprieve  

Is it that feeling that never stays

Peace that comes and then goes away

Opening up the gateway for the pain as it departs

Tearing my heart into smaller parts

Parts and pieces are all I have left

So much of me feels like it is already dead

As I write this I barely breathe

The pain constricts my chest today

Just as it has so many days before

All I have ever wanted was a home

My home was comfort from someone else

Today I realize that my house was already built

It lies dormant within me

I have to find the home inside myself

That is the only way I will ever be free

Nyx