Today I felt myself fall backward

Into the sadness and the pain

The longing to escape was so great

Even greater than my own self hate

Slowly I took myself away from the darkness

Because I had to

Instead of thinking of the sadness

Instead of thinking of the things I have lost

I thought of the things I do have

I thought of the things I have fought for

Sometimes it feels like I go back to the beginning

The beginning of a journey through hell

I just have to remind myself that I have already been there

I have already come this far

I have to say to myself this darkness

It is not who you are

Nyx