Dreams

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I dream of a world beyond what I see before me

I dream of a world filled with beauty

I dream of a world of peace

Nyx

Exist as I am

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It is hard to ignore this loneliness

I feel this need for connection

A connection to someone else

In the meantime I lay here

Listening as the clock keeps ticking

Aware of time that is passing by

Knowing that being here alone is not enough

But accepting it anyway

This is what is best

I will keep trying to be better

I will exist as I am

Nyx

Happily ever after

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I try to cherish these moments

These moments of clarity

These moments when I feel ok

This fleeting time has come and gone

The hours and days go faster

All I can do is hope that some day

I will find my happily ever after

Nyx

There is no escaping who you are

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What do you do when you want to escape your own skin

What do you do when you are tired of the emptiness

What do you do when your tired of that uneasy feeling

There is no escaping who you are

Nyx

This face

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What have I become

Who was I before

I do not recognize

This face I see reflected at me

Maybe I am already

Everything I was meant to be

Nyx

Wishes

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There are so many things

That we just do not know

What tomorrow will bring

How today will go

It is comforting to see

That you have each other

I truly want to believe

That we have a destiny

That you were meant to find each other

That things are the way they were meant to be

All I know for sure

Is that I see love in both of your eyes

I wish you nothing but happiness and love

Nyx

Pushed perceptions

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Today is another

Day like yesterday

I try to find something

Anything that will make me want to get up

I wish I could just be happy

Instead I just feel lost

I try to think of things in a positive way

I try to think it’s great that I woke up today

But for all the positive quotes I read

All the pushed perceptions that should make this better

I still sit here empty

I still sit here in sorrow

Longing for a life I never had

Nyx

Walk away

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My perception sees wrong intention

Is my perception real

Is this sinking feeling justified

Take take take

That’s what I see

She takes takes takes

Until there is only a shell of me

I used to want to give

But sometimes giving is not enough

I realize today

That sometimes the only answer

Is to walk away

Nyx

Will I find myself again

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I wake up feeling this tension

It wraps around my heart

I wake up with good intention

But I feel this anxiety

It is there as soon as I wake

Can I get through this day

Without feeling my heart break

Can I get through this day

Feeling better at the end

Will I find myself again

Nyx

Never ending nothing

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I am lost again today

I am just a hole

A black mass

Of never ending nothing

Never ending nothing

Nyx