I will not stop

There is no rhyme or reason

For the way I feel

All that I can say

Is that the agony is real

It comes in waves

This feeling of despair

Sometimes it hits me hard

Then it is not there

This feeling slowly wears me down

As the days pass by

It wears me down so much

That all I can do is cry

As strong as I try to be

It never defeats the agony

But here I am once again

Pulling myself up

Making myself stand

It is all that I can do

It is all that I have ever done

I will not stop

Until I have won

Nyx

No one

I feel the sadness

It is coming on

I do not know why

I do not know how to fix it

All I want to do is cry

I am not as strong

As I want to be

Because I can not live

Without someone beside me

This makes me weak

This person that I seek

I just want to be strong

I just want to move on

Alone with no one

Nyx

You are not alone

At this moment I feel so empty

Hollow inside

Sometimes I ask myself

Why I even tried

Why I thought that I could be happy

Why I thought I would find the door

The door that opens to another life

To a life without the pain

I can no longer endure

A life lived without the lack of love I long for

I will never be like everyone else

This I know is true

I will never see the world

The way that others do

I continue to suffer in silence

Reflecting to myself

I wonder if someone else could do better

With the deck I have in my hand

Then I realize this does not matter

Because I am one of the damned

I wish I did not feel this way

As I fight through another day

I just want everyone to know

To all of you who suffer in silence

You are not alone

Nyx

This world inside my dream

Today I see the sun

It shines through the trees

I watch as the leaves fall

I feel the breeze

I try to find within myself

The strength I know is there

I want to find my home

In my mind I take myself there

To another place and time

To this world inside my mind

To this world that is my dream

Not today not tomorrow

It’s somewhere lost you see

Maybe someday I will find

The path that leads me to my destiny

Nyx

Underneath the darkness

It is so hard

To force myself forward

I just do not care right now

I feel my dreams slip away

Every moment

Every day

I just feel beaten

Broken down

All I want is someone there

To accept me as I am

It is so hard to get up today

It is so hard to find the ground

I am lost underneath

This shroud of darkness

I have lost my will today

I have lost myself

I just want to slip away

And become someone else

I cannot change who I am

But I have to move

I have to stand

Nyx

Pain

I feel myself fall

Farther and farther

I go

Into the depths below

It never stops

This cycle that is my life

There is no end to this game

I will never be the same

As I lay here broken

Pieces of me slip away

Once again all I feel is pain

Nyx

Hope

In my mind I see

No clear path before me

I push forward

Every day

Hoping I will find the way

Hoping that the emptiness will subside

Hoping that the pain will stop

I try to live in each moment

With hope in my heart

That I will find the peace I seek

That I will find my home

Nyx

What is Love

Love is something

I do not know

Does it linger

Does it grow

Is it fleeting

Or does it remain

Is it only there

When someone has something to gain

I do not understand this emotion

All I feel is pain

Nyx

I just want to live

I do not want to think

About the things I could regret

I do not want to know

Anything right now

I just want to escape

All the things you create

These images in my mind

The ones that take me back in time

I have nothing to say

I have nothing to give

I do not know where I am going

I forget where I have been

All I can think right now is

I just want to live

Nyx

Dark thoughts

When I sit still

Some times the pain is just too much

I do not know what to do

I no longer have words to say

The pain hits me

Every single day

I do not want to think

I do not want to cry

All I want to do

Is say goodbye

Nyx