Believe in you

There are moments when I lose hope in everyone

Then I realize that I do not need them

The only thing I need

Is to believe in me

Nyx

No more tears today 

At this moment I trust no one 

At this moment my hope in others is gone 

I feel no joy in the company that I keep 

My heart has been ripped open

By all of the promises that have been broken

I shed no more tears today 

I have said all there is to say 

I have lost something I once had 

I no longer have the ability to retain an emotion 

I don’t even know what sadness feels like anymore 

All I know is agony 

Then I feel the apathy

Then I feel the rage 

This is all I have left 

Nyx 

A lion who fears no one

When the walls cave in on me 

When it is too dark to see 

I feel the anger beneath my skin 

It is part of the darkness buried within

The rage pushes me forward 

It gives me strength 

I have reached a path 

A path of no return 

If you are in my gaze 

You will burn 

I have become a predator 

All that I have seen 

All that I have done 

It has made me into what I am 

A lion who fears no one 

Nyx

Never slowing down

As my world spins and spins around me 

My thoughts a shattered mess 

I stop to think to myself 

When is the next test 

Waiting for the next battle 

Never resting 

Never slowing down 

Feeling chained and completely bound 

I only feel peace 

When I listen to the sound 

The music soothes my ranting mind

When I am chained and completely bound 

By everything that crashes through my head 

When I think to myself I’d be better off dead 

When I want to be surrounded by nothing 

I find the one thing that makes me feel human 

The one thing that is always there

Peace is what I find 

When music soothes my mind 

Nyx

All that is left of me 

When he looks at me I see 

Nothing but love looking back at me 

Nothing in this life is certain

As I fight this continuous storm 

What I do know is that he stays by my side 

In this battle he meets my stride 

Whether he is near or far away 

I know he will fight for me 

He is the only one who can see

All that is left of me

Nyx 

Yearning for peace

Once again I feel my chest cave in

I feel my head ache 

I long for an escape 

I long for peace from this life 

I long to escape today 

Go somewhere far away 

Sometimes I dream of being someone else 

Ignorant to the world around me 

I do not want to be aware of the things I see

I just want to feel no pain 

I want to know that I am sane 

But here I sit the same as before 

In pain yearning for peace once more 
Nyx

My purpose 

I have been brought into moments of complete despair 

But this is how I find my strength 

This is how I find hope 

I have embarked on a journey 

Each stride a lesson to be learned 

Each breath drawn is another that I live

Each day I am given a gift 

Something that is taught to me 

Something that I can give 

My purpose is to educate 

Those who are unaware 

Of everyone in need of love 

Of everyone in need of care

Someday I will fulfill this purpose 

This I know is true 

Because I am still standing here 

Writing these lines to you 

Nyx 

Jackal with a latch 

I wake up and I wait to see 

Where these next few steps will take me

I am walking away from the life I lived before 

To walk alone again once more 

There are no serpents in the grass 

Just a jackal with a latch 

I must be careful as I make my move 

I must brace myself and keep my head held high 

Today is the first day of my official good bye 

Nyx