Comfortably numb

I am shrouded in darkness

Away from the light of the sun

I love it when thunder roars

And the rain starts to pour

I love the sound as it hits the ground

I love the light as it sparks with fury

As bolts shoot from the sky

And I love the color grey

Before everything turns black

I find comfort in the storm

The chaos of the clouds

Reminds me of my life

And the paradox of comfort from pain

Because it is all I know

Fear and anger

Sadness and agony

Tears that I can not stop from falling

Until a spark of awareness

Brings me back to reality

And takes the tears away

This awareness shuts me down

Until I am comfortably numb

Enjoying the lack of pain

Until the new cycle has begun

Nyx

There is only rain

The loneliness

It cripples me

People only care

To some degree

I see this when they walk away

Because they always leave

Today there is no light

Today I cannot see

There is only darkness

There is only pain

There are no roses

There is only rain

The agony is always there

When I let myself feel

When I let myself care

Nyx

Ready for battle

I hear the raindrops 

Tick off my armor 

As I stand in the valley 

Ready for battle 

I hold my sword to the sky 

As I watch you quiver with fear 

I look in your eyes 

Before I say good bye 

Nyx

Rain drops

I listen to the sound 

As I hear the rain drops

Fall to the ground 

I smell the dirt in the air 

How I long to be out there 

Turning around in the rain 

With my true love watching me 

This is where I long to be  

Nyx

Peace

The beauty of the rain

I wake up and I fight today

As the rain falls from the sky

I wonder why sometimes sadness grips me

As I wait for you and I…

To find that special place…to find that common ground

In the meantime I listen as the rain falls

I listen to the sound

So peaceful it makes me feel today

The beauty of the rain

It slows my beating heart

It slowly heals the pain

I want to be free

I want to be free

I want to live this life

Even if it is alone

I want to be free

I want to be who I am

Live for each moment

While I still stand

There could be no tomorrow

There could be no today

I want to dance in the rain

I want to look at the stars

I want to remember

That the world could be ours

I want to be free

With or without you beside me