Falling through the floor

Here I go again  Falling through the floor  Here I go again  Walking out the door  Here I go again  Looking for comfort  Here I go again  Looking for an end 

Once again

Once again I feel myself drowning  Once again I just want to scream  I want to float away  I want to live in a dream  I wish I could escape this nightmare that is my life  I wish I could escape the pain  I want to stop pretending  I want it all to stop  I … Continue reading Once again

Clarity

When it feels like the world is crashing down I look to the sky I breathe in the air I start to question why Then I realize that sometimes there is no answer Sometimes there are no reasons Looking at the beauty of the world brings me peace It shows me that there is so … Continue reading Clarity

Deflect

I used to dream of death Those dreams where the best I ever had An escape from the pain An escape from this life An escape from the gap in my mind A gap that is thick and sharp like a knife Then there was apathy The numbness from the inside out I drifted from … Continue reading Deflect

No certainty

There is no certainty in this life People are here Then they are gone Happiness turns to sorrow Sorrow turns to hate Sometimes you catch onto something Sometimes you catch it too late Nyx

My land of make believe 

I feel this weight crushing me  I can no longer breathe I want to stay in my land of make believe  Where everything is how I want it to be I want to be with the one who loves me  In a world we have created  In a world we will remain  Keeping my mind … Continue reading My land of make believe 

Hold on

In the end what really matters  Is that you find the one you need  Hold onto him and do not let go  Do not run too fast  Do not run too slow Just hold on to him  Do not let the world dissuade you  Do not let others hold you back  Do not let obstacles … Continue reading Hold on

When I blink 

I listen as you breathe beside me Trying to keep myself awake  Telling myself I can do this without you Knowing deep down that I cannot  I listen as the cars pass below  Staring out through the window  Telling myself things will get better  Knowing deep down that they won't  I see happiness beside me  … Continue reading When I blink 

Bleeding Heart

I thought I was strong But right now I am weak I should have known all along What my weakness was I should have remembered That happiness isn’t real I should have remembered The way that heart break makes me feel I didn’t remember until the pain hit I didn’t remember until my chest was … Continue reading Bleeding Heart

Where do I begin 

Beneath the surface all I see  Are fissures filled with darkness  Cracks in my soul  Spread throughout and hardened  With each hardship, with each toll They spread further and wider  Right beneath the surface  Right beneath the skin  Where does the darkness end  When do I begin