I can’t wait for that last tick

I hear the tick Of each moment in time It comforts me I know that with each tick I come closer to my end I can’t wait for that last tick Tick tock Nyx

Darkness please come

I long for the darkness to take me there Away from this life I can no longer care About what exists outside these walls All I want right now is to never wake up Darkness please come Darkness please take me away I give up You have won today Nyx

Alien

I feel empty Alone and guarded Tired of the pain The others always bring I often feel That I am an alien in this world That I will never really belong here My smile My words I fool you all I have never been human I am something else And I am still here Every … Continue reading Alien

Solace in the dark

Sitting in the dark Crying again Letting go of another person Another strip of my heart is gone The pain is so great That I have to shut down If I didn’t I would break completely There is no coming back from this There is no way to change it I’m still here breathing Enduring … Continue reading Solace in the dark

False hope

I can have this hope That someday I will write to you And for longer than a few moments A few precious hours I will not suffer That hope dies a little more Every single day Today is another day That a piece of me has been stripped away Left to burn in the flames … Continue reading False hope

That familiar feeling

I feel that familiar ache It grips my chest again The sadness lingers Never far from the surface Sadness brings this feeling No words can truly describe it All my life I have fought This feeling that I must endure I have learned I must embrace it There is no cure Maybe someday this will … Continue reading That familiar feeling

Covered in paint and powder

She suffers in ways That no one can see The agony gets swept aside By the powder she spreads across her face Covering the darkness Covering the scars There is no part left to be seen She covers it all Underneath the paint Underneath the skin The darkness hides the flame The fire that keeps … Continue reading Covered in paint and powder

Welcome to my reality

Imagine the worst pain you have ever felt When your heart was broken When you were broken Imagine having that pain Over and over again Every single day All due to the words of someone else Whoever is filling the void My unattractive sickness Is that what you see Welcome to my reality Nyx

Burning

There it is again That old familiar pain Taking away another piece of me What do you do When all hope is gone Where do you go When there is nowhere left There is nowhere I can feel peace for long Nowhere that it does not hurt Everything that is wrong with me I see … Continue reading Burning

Death and comfort

You are dead to me Because that’s the way it needs to be Get the hell away from me Before I make you hurt You don’t want to feel the way that I do Just get the hell away from me That’s all I ask of you Nyx