I have decided to let myself dream tonight And in my dream he will be there Holding me the way that he did before All of that peace and happiness Will fill my soul again In my dream I feel love like I never have before I feel like I am where I was meant … Continue reading Dreaming for moments lost
pain
It ends
It is incredible to think That within moments Everything can change That is the danger in feeling that bliss It seems the happier I am The faster it ends Here I am again completely numb After all of that crippling pain I am alone Sitting here trying to continue to not feel Anything at all … Continue reading It ends
What do I grieve
I am grieving a loss but what do I grieve Is it those few moments of sweet reprieve Is it that feeling that never stays Peace that comes and then goes away Opening up the gateway for the pain as it departs Tearing my heart into smaller parts Parts and pieces are all I … Continue reading What do I grieve
Bliss
Blissful moments are the peace we seek Pleasure we never knew we could feel Until that moment has left you Showing you that it wasn’t real Bliss is the foreplay of torture The beauty of the moment slips away Until there is nothing left There is just another day Like so many days before I … Continue reading Bliss
I just want to scream
And scream And scream some more Nyx
Dear God
Once again I long for death Devastated and broken By what I have spoken To someone who cared about me Sometimes I wonder if the pain will rip me apart Sometimes I wonder if the pain will stop my heart What would I be If I was not me Darkness and pain Fire and anger … Continue reading Dear God
Today
I’ve been avoiding the sunlight I’ve been avoiding my life I am so tired of many things Most of all I am tired of myself Tired of the shame Tired of the pain Tired of existing as I am What is the point of life If I am unable to live it Why give me … Continue reading Today
Existing
I kind of want to die again It’s been a little while It’s very hard to be alive right now Its very hard to exist as myself in this current state that I am in Should I do something Should I help others in some way Or have I already said All there is to … Continue reading Existing
Will I find myself again
I wake up feeling this tension It wraps around my heart I wake up with good intention But I feel this anxiety It is there as soon as I wake Can I get through this day Without feeling my heart break Can I get through this day Feeling better at the end Will I find … Continue reading Will I find myself again
Never ending nothing
I am lost again today I am just a hole A black mass Of never ending nothing Never ending nothing Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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