I wish 

I wish I could calm my beating heart 

I wish I could will the anxiety away

I wish I wasn’t so focused on being the best 

Sometimes I just cannot control myself

I wish my body and mind would just give me some peace and let me rest 



Sometime I just want to escape the world

Disappear into nothing

But mania brings me forward, makes me stand

My mania spins me round and round

People around me are sick of the sound

My words are too fast

I speak too much

I’m crazy to some

Intriguing to others

I pull people toward me like a drug

Regardless what they think I am, or what they say

Mania…Sadness, my mind is lost

Indifference…apathy…this is my truth

Except it and come toward it…or run away

I honestly don’t care what you do…either come toward me or stay away