Today I wake up to new challenges
I am reminded of the uncertainty
That each day brings
And with each day a new dawn rises
Giving me the chance to start again
Giving me the energy to push myself forward
Because I either rise or fall
That decision is mine to make
With every step I do or do not take
Today I am taking a step
Because that is what I choose to do
Nyx
Push him out
Let him in
Push him out
Let him in
Pain
Emptiness
More pain
I wish I could change
But I’ll probably just stay the same
I had a taste of my addiction
Now it’s gone
I just want to be dead
Nyx
I hear the tick
Of each moment in time
It comforts me
I know that with each tick I come closer to my end
I can’t wait for that last tick
Tick tock
Nyx
There’s the pain
If I go out
It will be with a bang
Nyx
I long for the darkness to take me there
Away from this life
I can no longer care
About what exists outside these walls
All I want right now is to never wake up
Darkness please come
Darkness please take me away
I give up
You have won today
Nyx
I feel empty
Alone and guarded
Tired of the pain
The others always bring
I often feel
That I am an alien in this world
That I will never really belong here
My smile
My words
I fool you all
I have never been human
I am something else
And I am still here
Every day I wake
Indifferent to each breath I take
Maybe someday the emptiness will fill
Until then here I am
An alien that walks on land
Nyx
In the darkness
I hide from you
The pain slips out
A little with each cut
Never enough to stop
Nyx
Once again I was fooled
I thought I would see the sun
I thought I would see the flowers bloom
I was wrong
The time will never come
There is no time for us
The clouds grow dark
The sky turns grey
Today is just another
Day like yesterday
I feel so alone
As I sit here in the dark
My heart breaks
I feel the pain again
This is what happens
This cycle that never ends
The cause does not matter
It always feels the same
There is nothing left of me
There is nothing left to gain
Anything that was human has died
A thousand times before
I exist and stand
Only for what I fight for
Nyx
There is a hole
Where my heart used to be
It was ripped out
It was taken from me
The hole grows a little more each day
This feeling of despair
It takes me away
I exist as darkness
There is nothing left
Just this void in my chest
Nyx
I can have this hope
That someday I will write to you
And for longer than a few moments
A few precious hours I will not suffer
That hope dies a little more
Every single day
Today is another day
That a piece of me has been stripped away
Left to burn in the flames
Again all I feel right now is pain
Nyx
Words From A Borderline 
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