New challenges

Today I wake up to new challenges

I am reminded of the uncertainty

That each day brings

And with each day a new dawn rises

Giving me the chance to start again

Giving me the energy to push myself forward

Because I either rise or fall

That decision is mine to make

With every step I do or do not take

Today I am taking a step

Because that is what I choose to do

Nyx

Addictions

Push him out

Let him in

Push him out

Let him in

Pain

Emptiness

More pain

I wish I could change

But I’ll probably just stay the same

I had a taste of my addiction

Now it’s gone

I just want to be dead

Nyx

Tick tock

I hear the tick

Of each moment in time

It comforts me

I know that with each tick I come closer to my end

I can’t wait for that last tick

Tick tock

Nyx

Darkness please come

I long for the darkness to take me there

Away from this life

I can no longer care

About what exists outside these walls

All I want right now is to never wake up

Darkness please come

Darkness please take me away

I give up

You have won today

Nyx

Alien

I feel empty

Alone and guarded

Tired of the pain

The others always bring

I often feel

That I am an alien in this world

That I will never really belong here

My smile

My words

I fool you all

I have never been human

I am something else

And I am still here

Every day I wake

Indifferent to each breath I take

Maybe someday the emptiness will fill

Until then here I am

An alien that walks on land

Nyx

Never enough

In the darkness

I hide from you

The pain slips out

A little with each cut

Never enough to stop

Nyx

Just another day

Once again I was fooled

I thought I would see the sun

I thought I would see the flowers bloom

I was wrong

The time will never come

There is no time for us

The clouds grow dark

The sky turns grey

Today is just another

Day like yesterday

I feel so alone

As I sit here in the dark

My heart breaks

I feel the pain again

This is what happens

This cycle that never ends

The cause does not matter

It always feels the same

There is nothing left of me

There is nothing left to gain

Anything that was human has died

A thousand times before

I exist and stand

Only for what I fight for

Nyx

The void

There is a hole

Where my heart used to be

It was ripped out

It was taken from me

The hole grows a little more each day

This feeling of despair

It takes me away

I exist as darkness

There is nothing left

Just this void in my chest

Nyx

False hope

I can have this hope

That someday I will write to you

And for longer than a few moments

A few precious hours I will not suffer

That hope dies a little more

Every single day

Today is another day

That a piece of me has been stripped away

Left to burn in the flames

Again all I feel right now is pain

Nyx